rant

2010-01-09T19:04:00.002+08:00

this week has been very kind to me! i managed to meet up with joanne, nicole and andrew on separate days. still left with ethel and mandy =/ omg i'm so terribly sorry.. i'm pretty busy with the party stuff because there are only two weekends left for me to settle everything, especially when school is starting. finally painted the banner and it's absolutely g-o-r-g-e-o-u-s. the colours are exactly like what i imagined! X) and i still have to get more cups cause there're like a thousand people coming. you know i'm exaggerating.

the other day, joanne gave me the one and only christmas card for 2009 (though it's slightly overdue, haha.) i was quite sad that no one sent any cards to me this year ): i mean, i know everyone's busy and dont have time blahblahblah. but what happened to those who sent it every year? why suddenly no more? and it was really NO MORE. gosh, i felt sickened. but then, since really NO ONE sent a card to me, i thought maybe postman cock up or what la that's why couldnt deliver, LOL. but joanne's card filled up this emptiness immediately! because.. it was all hand-made! how cute was that. i could feel the intense sincerity and effort that went into making it. LOVE YOU, JOANNE <3!
btw i keep every single cards i have, so pls do keep them coming!

2010-01-04T22:03:00.001+08:00

ahh i feel glad that i did smth charitable today. uh well not towards the needy organisations but my very own busm (baitiangong universal spiritual movement). it's not exactly a religion because we dont go around forcing ppl to join us? we do try to encourage more ppl to come but it's very much your own choice and our ability to convince/persuade. it's not like, COME LISTEN BE GOD'S CHILD. anyways i donated the money for the malaysian side to buy a new minibus. the one that served us for the past decades is dying and can't be salvaged. so, since i have some spare cash on hand, why not help right? and they did help us with the building of the current religious hall before.

since i'm on this topic, i shall elaborate more on what busm is or about.

baitiangong means pray to the creator. not the jesus/virgin mary kind of thing. why is busm better? because for buddhist, you pray to idols. god should be omnipresent, omnipotent and omniscient - never located in one spot or one object. so why are ppl praying to clay? i really dont understand. you are merely channelling your energy to a thing which has human features. it's the same for christians and catholics. which explains why the jesus sculpture could cry blood. it is merely your energy input that allowed such so-called miracles to happen. then we have the muslims who pray only in one direction. i know i sound angsty but i'm not condemning any religion here. just giving an explanation as to why i chose to stay with busm. my personal reason.

what do i pray to and how do i pray? kneel down on the floor without shoes, palms pressed together and placed near the chest, face the sky without obstructed view, and you recite the prayer like any other religions. can also pray to god for health, good life, those kind of stuff. free creativity.

why am i always not free on sundays? because ima attend the weekly discussion from 2pm-6pm. for the first two hours we discuss about anything and everything - from recent news and how it relates to our spritual knowledge to unworldly encounters. then we have half an hour of meditation, which i fall asleep almost all the time. but those laojiaos can travel around soulfully and go heaven play with the animals. have been trying to attain that level but i think i concentrate so much until i knock out. afterwhich is reliving the half hour of adventure for those who were lucky enough to go to other dimensions + conclusions, if there are.

i sincerely believe that there is heaven and hell. maybe many ppl do too. but what is intriguing is that these two places, as far as they sound, are actually intertwined with earth. it's like having three worlds in one place but we cant see those 'ppl' from the other planet? which is why sometimes we feel negative forces around us when we are in a particular area.

like i said earlier, we have the malaysia and singapore sides. i'm not too sure how this happened, but i know that the late founder of the movement was from KL. he is THE DISCIPLE OF GOD AND THE DELIVERER OF ALL UNCLEAN SPIRITS (capping all letters just in case). which puts him in a higher postion than jesus and mohammad nabi because they are only MESSENGERS OF GOD. hard to digest i know. basically he came here to teach us the proper+costsaving+efficient way of praying, so as to save our souls (aka go to heaven) after we die instead of having to suffer in hell and get reincarnated again. who doesn't want to enjoy life? even after death.

http://www.praytothecreator.org/en/ (if you wanna know more, but i highly doubt you will. haha.)

and that kinda sums up what i want to say. ENJOY LIFE THOUGH IT SUCKS SOMETIMES. to me.. the hardest times are when i quarrel with duck and when exams are looming. i get really touchy and it gets to the point that i cannot even decipher myself. am still learning how to manage my emotions, since i dont hide any.

on a sidenote, i'm considering if i should trim my hair tmr cause it's getting too long and heavy. and if i should have a DUCK theme for birthday? (((:

2010-01-03T21:24:00.004+08:00

one more week and school's gonna start.. half scared that it might be too tough to handle, and half happy that i can see my friends again! went to check out the student modules site aka edveNTUre and saw that the prof uploaded the entire set of notes including test papers and solutions. (SCREAMS OMGGGG.) there is gonna be the three laws of thermodynamics, free energy and chemical potential, chemical equilibria and phase equilibria. sounds simple? yeah pretty much. how about adding some differentiation and integration to that?

with a heavier workload i think i may be in greater need of a laptop this sem. but the next IT fair is 11-14 march, which is still two months away. hopefully the school computers will be cooperative enough. crosses fingers, and toes. meanwhile i've been considering hp, sony, compaq, fujitsu and macbook. will need some help in deciding on THE ONE cause i'm a complete tech idiot. basically i dont know which laptops are better in what area and which ones are more user friendly. i dont even have a freaking idea of what a ram is. except that gb is bigger than mb.

lastly the celebration of a happy new year was great! and i'm happy as long as there is company (: so, thanks to all who came down cause i had a whale of a time! i really wonder what makes the guys click tgt. retards+funny ppl+screaming boys+alcohol+random things around=crazy. oh yes.

am trying to perservere with the tuition thing for the money. it's the feeling of independence and having the choice to buy whatever i want with the money i earned. at least i feel comfortable using my own money. yupp. but i doubt i can entertain any more classes cause it's gonna be a busybee sem! it is good to be occupied.

2009-12-30T00:31:00.004+08:00

WHEE!!!!!!!! results ain't too bad afterall! thank God and Lady Luck. maintained standard even though some papers were darn crappy. but i think the profs marked leniently too, if not i would have gotten a few C's, haha. the release of results signals the start of a new sem! kinda excited and filled with ANXIETY. woooooooh. but my timetable sucks big time. got only a two-hour class on tue and thur. RAHH.

life doesn't seem too bleak now ((:

sherlock holmes is another worth-watching movie! go catch it before it's gone!

2009-12-28T20:17:00.004+08:00

avatar 3D: it didn't strike me like how alvin did. all i knew about the show was that there were blue people. no inkling about the storyline at all. but after hearing sooooo many people praise the movie, duck and i decided to watch it. we were pretty skeptical at first. haha. why 3d? because there are not many movies screened in 3d! well i didn't how 3d was 3d, thought it was the science centre omnitheatre type and i was so darn stressed out (due to motion sickness) that i had to laosai. all in all, avatar was definitely worth watching! made me wonder how greedy sometimes mankind can be and that maybe they should just die so that the earth can be a better place for those who really cherish it.

anyways this is gonna be a busybee week with lotsa fun! sherlock holmes and dinner with joanne nicole caleb tmr, alvin & chipettes and dinner/supper with emelin nathaniel on wed, tomyam steamboat and sentosa countdown on thurs! WOOTS I LOVE BEING OCCUPIED. coolbeans.

and not forgetting to cross fingers for results day on wed!

2009-12-27T14:36:00.003+08:00

EEEEE RI TAY TING

if your surname is tay, don't call your child tay ting. even worse, with an english name called eric or eileen.

2009-12-27T12:34:00.004+08:00

why doesn't anyone think that turning 21 in 2010 is a pretty cool thing! this is way, too, awesome. screw the 4d/toto aunties who started the number rush man.

with this little coincidence of '21 in 2010', i figured that i should give this page a new look! (: and i found this LOVE theme really appropriate cause there's so much sadness and tragedy going on in this world. and each individual SHOULD do his own part to save mankind!

anyways, i enjoyed christmas and post-christmas with the most wonderful ppl! bbq at my house with busm crowd and dbl o slight-clubbing with vs boys. JAGER BOMBS! haha thanks han for the treat (;

can't wait to fill my planner with activities!! meanwhile, i have to find out how to place the tagboard here. ain't gonna bother about the music cause i don't like blogs to have music playing in the background.

2009-05-03T23:00:00.003+08:00

i miss my friends a lot, especially those who took great lengths to do something SWEEEET on specials days. well, at least they bothered to.

experiencing a sudden pang of loneliness ):

but life still has to go on..

2009-04-14T18:45:00.002+08:00

dream vs reality

yesterday while showering i dreamed that emelin and i have this darn freakin' cool shop at a corner in a crowded mall. it sells clothes, mainly dresses. the interior was simple with hang-down-from-the-ceiling racks lining the two sides of the wall which we hang the clothes on. and a rattan closet near the entrance showcasing our range of clutches and shoes. i am seated at the sewing machine beside the counter doing ruffles and gathers on the dress. emelin is ironing the flowy-satin clothes. everyone is so busy. we dont care whether there is any customer in the shop. we are just doing what we like. (okay eme, i suppose you like that, haha.)
and the best part: we design every single piece of art from our heart (:

just now while watching tv i dreamed that ethel and i opened a wedding gown boutique. maybe we are wedding planners. i'm not very sure. but one thing i am certain is that we are happy, very happy. i dont know why. hahaha.

maybe one day, i will set up a bakery shop that produces cakes in the shapes of pants and skirts (:

i want to know my calling so i can plan my future ): i think studying is a waste of time. it's merely a competition of who-can-sleep-less-to-mug-more. i refuse to let myself degrade to that standard, so i sleep 8 hours per day. so what if i cant finish studying everything? so be it! why do you want to live your life as a racer? is it worth it?

all i want to do now is learn sewing techniques from my mom, fashion designing from emelin's mom, baking from emelin and cooking from mandy! that's what makes me happy (X

2009-03-26T22:33:00.003+08:00

I am a person who likes to share only happy things with anyone.
I like to make myself a fool and look stupid so that everyone can have a good laugh.
I dont like to share unhappy things because I dont like people to feel sad with me.
I dont think there's any reason for them to be so.
I like to keep troubles to myself.
I am what I am and no one can change me.

SO WHAT HAVE YOU GOT AGAINST ME?
I DONT CARE IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS WITH ME.

DEAL WITH IT, YOURSELF.

2009-02-06T01:40:00.002+08:00

i love my birthday even though it's over alr (:

first;
ethel left the room at 11.45pm and i KNEW she was up to smth. haha confirm one la, my 'sensibility' not a noob as hers. and as i guessed, she came back with an OREO CHEESECAKE! okay i love cheesecake and have never tried any variations besides the coffee bean and breadtalk ones which are pure. and goodness was it lovely! but, fattening when consumed at such ungodly late hours. haha.
so i celebrated the first few minutes of my second-decade with darling ethel.. sweet! hehee. and she tricked me into thinking that my present was a pair of charles&keith shoes cause of the paper bag. totally deceiving. but of course, when i opened the present i was DAMN shocked and happy cause it's a freaking brown fossil long wallet that smells sooooo leatherly.
it's the same brown as the handbag my mom gave me. so now i have a set of same coloured wallet, bag and phone. haha. and ethel gave me the breakdown of who paid how much for the wallet. lol, idiot right. i was sincerely OVERjoyed cause i didnt expect her to have the time to go shopping for present due to many many factors which are troubling her now.. hehe.
after which yida and jiacheng joined us for the little celebration! and i have no idea how the hall ppl came up to wish me happy birthday. it's well, yeah kinda weird cause they just stood outside the door looking in and i just sat on my bed looking at them. hahah. more wishes for me! (: wonderful.
my wish..very hard to come true la. HAHA!
THANK YOU ethel and guojie. thank you yida and jiacheng. (size is relative to percentage. lol)

second;
emelin stayed online to wait for me to wish my happy birthday all the way in minn. cant wait for you to be back in the long hols and go play!!

third;
DUCK CALLED ME!! HE FREAKING CALLED ME!! at around 0130h.
okay that totally brightened my entire day alr (: hehe. i was so happy that i cried. wahh.. xing fu <3>
THANK YOU DARLING DUDU DEAR DUCK <3

fourth;
i ponned bio lecture to go home eat my mom's birthday mian xian. it's this little tradition at home that we must have mian xian on our birthdays, so yeah i travelled home via public transport. like duh.
i could taste the love and well wishes in the whole bowl i just had to finish it CLEAN. nothing left. lol. i love my mommy and she's the best cook in the world cause she knows what i like. hehe.
although it's only a simple lunch it meant a lot to me. it made me more aware of the importance of family and its strength. and that's why they will always be my first priority. (inclusive of duck OF COURSE)
i finally got to relieve the days when i would sleep on the couch after school without bathing! the feeling is damn shiok cause my living room's super windy and the couch has the perfect springy-ness. haha.
how fortunate is that? being able to do that on a birthday. BLISSFUL..just like nehji. EHHH! hahaha.
i love my mommy and she's my role model (:

fifth;
I MET MANDY FOR DINNER~~! this is one of the best moments EVER. we had so much to talk. academic, relationships, crap, and more crap. that's why i have to take mastering communications. because i talk irrelevant things. mama sorry ah i know i interrupted you a few times, but i was excited to talk cause i havent seen you for so long. that time at your house was a short while only, no HTHT. haha.
the present was scary. it's damn retarded la. still say she give gifts according to the person. omg, so embarrassing! lol. damn big and yellow. that's the only description. uh with two dots and a smile too? HAHAHA. all i can say is.. retards give retarded presents la huh =D
and i had my first polaroid photo taken! cool shit i love it. actually everything you have is cool la. even the place you choose. ikea at ALEXandra~ (: cant wait for sat, muahaha. my gosh, you just came online at this late hour when you should be sleeping. tsk.
but thanks anyway mama. you're always my bestie, thank you for being there (almost) all the time! =D

sixth;
went back hall and waited for my surprise in my room. i knew nicole cant rmb where my room is, still say she will come up. haha. oh i knew about the surprise due to an accident email. lol luckily i read one impt line that said, birthday surprise for regina when she comes back hall. seriously man, i would have just nua-ed at home and not return. so jess, dont worry too much! (:
there was the cake, the big card, and lots of hilariously dumb things said and done. haha. and the UGLY game improvised on the spot. this one.. must see facebook, very funny. haha. i cant believe 20-odd guys can still be so retarded it's simply amazing D:
thanks andrew, benny, caleb, desmond, jess, jo, kian boon, mei fang, nicholas, nicole, shuang an and xx for celebrating my big step into the second decade! love you guys and i hope i'll see all of you around more often!

everyone is so nice to me.. i feel so loved (X couldnt stop smiling the whole day. oh, only my bro didnt wish me. but he got into a fight in school so he's excused. haha stupid boy.

actually i didnt want to celebrate my birthday cause i felt SO, old being twennie. was kinda pessimistic about it la. but in the end it turned out to be such a wonderful experience. now i fear for next year. O-M-G. hahaa.

a beeg beeg thank you to all who made my day (:

2009-01-20T18:34:00.005+08:00

recently i started having superbly mixed emotions, damn high and damn low. one moment i was crazy and smiling and saying hi to everyone but later i'd be really sian and start feeling insecure. it's just damn weird. i wished i had an explanation.

anyways, i cant wait to see my primary school pals again! i've been thinking, and thinking, and thinking of meeting up but there was this lazy thought in my head that went, 'oh dont bother someone will do something'. yeah right, fat hope. and so i realised that if you dont take any initiative in life and do what you wanna, no one's gonna lead you on. people will just stand by and watch, and see you fall. simple as that.

school hasn't been too bad..i guess. except for wednesdays which are my full days. i love nicole for her attentiveness in classes! omg, notes notes notes! hahaha. forever copying from her.

i havent eaten dinner with ethel for quite a long time.. ): she said she want to eat with me but until now still havent jio. ETHEL YOU SUCK. hahaha. but i know you're busy la, so it's okay! sure got chance (: lol.

emelin's back in minn.. i miss her loads loads loads. how can her presence ever be enough?! haha that gila girl. i'm so sorry i didnt manage to see you over the weekends before you flew. but i'm glad i saw you more than once!! =D i even travelled all the way from pulau boonlay to your house can. you should feel so honoured. heh. it's really nice to see you again (: no joke la you pangsai. hahaha. cant wait for school term to be over then we can go out and play!

chinese new year's coming and i'm not feeling exactly excited about it? too soon, too bad. no fun. yucks. TOO FEW HOLIDAYS! mon and tues are definitely not enough. i want more clothes too, but no more tees for me. i want the gai-gai kinda clothes, aiya i dont know how to say cause there are so many types. haha.

and i love mama mandy. she's still the best inspiration. EVER.

2009-01-07T18:35:00.001+08:00

i wish i had nicer legs. by that i mean straighter (which would mean at least 1cm taller) and no-more ugly patches. i know i gotta live with it but i dont like to look ugly and seem like i cant walk properly. this is annoying me badly yet i can do nothing about it.

i really really wish. this is a self-esteem problem.

2009-01-02T20:07:00.002+08:00

...and a happy new year~

it didnt kick off so bad afterall!! the lil parties here and there were awesomely beautiful even though that would mean a bad start, healthwise. haha. and so i'm down with sore throat and cold. boo.

i just didnt want to stay at home for the countdown cause i wanted to spend my last teen year specially. haha, childish i know. but what the heck, i yearned for some company (: thanks daniel for the innovative makeshift bbq pit and tending to the food. oh and the NTUC trolley of course! that was a smart move, seriously. imagine barbequeing on a tiny short bench with drinks and food sprawled (neatly) over the grass. hehe.

thanks liane for inviting 'the other half' down too! her lychee martini was dammmmn nice. but yongjian says it's anyhow mix and taste one. lol. but still sweet wor. it's those kind that has a subtle taste of alcohol behind the canned-lychee-sugar-water. haha. and the wii was cool. seeing how hansel play tennis lets me understand how people can perspire while playing with the teevee (:

i hope those in army will enjoy their days because that's when they will learn and do stuff that they will never get their hands on. and i wish those schooling will do well too (including myself, duh). haha.

god bless everyone! may love spread to every corner on earth!<3

2008-12-31T13:50:00.002+08:00

i've always felt that i have a screwed up social life. i dont hang out much, not because i dont want to but because i dont have some people whom i can really hang out with. i'm not exactly a very expressive person but most of the time i talk without thinking so probably i come across as being blunt.

one day pearl told me over msn that i'm an easily contented person and that set me thinking, real hard. i've never thought myself as a happy person at all; i always craved to be someone different, someone who would never fade away in everyone's life.

everytime i log in to facebook i see people updating pictures that showed how much they're enjoying life. and yet, here i am stuck in my holed up world trying to jump over walls and walls of barriers to reach outside. i want to go partying and sorts, live life like my counterparts. at the same time i dont want to drift further from my family.

so most of the time i just dream. dream until i fall asleep. dream about how wonderful the music is. dream of rose petals falling from the sky as i moved to the groovy beat. but i will wake up, feeling sick all over for being such an idiot, such a dreamer.

i really dont want to end the year in such a shitty note but, that's what i've probably been feeling the entire year. i'm neither here nor there, no friend whom i can really rely on; a loner on my own. on the slightly brighter side, perhaps it's not that bad afterall. i get so much time for myself, unlike those who lost themselves to the world of clubs and pubs.

presently, i'm feeling fucked up about results. despite studying so fucking hard i know my dad's still not entirely pleased with the number of B's i've obtained, especially when my gpa is not even close to first class honours. do results really matter that much? but i've already given in 90% of my best.

argh, whatever.

i wish for a happier me in the new year ahead.

2008-12-30T13:13:00.001+08:00

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

2008-09-29T10:00:00.002+08:00

wow two months passed just like that.
it seems like i just came here yesterday.

life here aint a breeze afterall.

at first i was obsessed with staying in hall-
the criteria was to be in main comm for special proj and/or jcrc and/or 3 ihg
(choose 2 out of 3)
and so i signed up for a lot of shit.
got rejected for THREE subcomms;
didnt have other things to join except special proj
(aka hall productions aka drama)
got in as costume and make-up manager
how's that man...
LOL, fretarded.
joining softball badminton billiards bridge.
at least now i have a higher chance of staying (:

after all the hype about hall stuff,
i was brought back to reality by tests.
FREAK.
it's like seven weeks of school gives you a one week break.
afterwhich it's another seven weeks before you sit for major exams.
but, dont be fooled.
within the fourteen weeks there're MANY tests which contribute to your final grade.
not that easy eh?
DUH.

today is the first day of the second seven-week period.
physics test in three days' time.
fuck physics.
even though i'd rather do science than write essays.
(sorry eme... hehe)

life is sososo busy.

2008-07-24T20:48:00.003+08:00

fun!

SPMS FOC 08 was a blast man. simply superb. though with some ogls who were damn guailan one. but my group IS the best. we are the chiongsters and the enthus. words just cant describe us enough X) so, yeah. all the initial apprehension was uncalled for. haha. cant wait to see couples in my og! the naming of groups was retarded. what dota shit. and my og name was KEL'THUZARD. how lame. but still fun in the end. ohwells. good times gotta end. thanks to emelin who told me "to be myself", i made great friends. and i think that kind of friendship will last long. WOW. and sorry to yoong ah boy cause i didnt have time to call him =X oopsie.. but i still love you! <3

2008-07-10T11:41:00.003+08:00

my boring days

haha so far just stay at home and use the computer and explore my new adobe photoshop elements 6.0 and continue to slack at home. pfft. occasionally visits to the gym and punggol park to keep fit. usually i follow my mom, who exercises everday without fail. i think she's crazy. but she thinks i'm the crazy one cause i cant even bend down to touch my toes. my fingers barely reach my ankles. yes that's how unfit i am! and pretty proud of it (: heyy you need time to stiffen yourself too k.. lol. ahh. but my mom signed me up for the SHAPE 5km marathon which will be held at marina square/esplanade/old nicoll highway there on 20th july. so i have no choice but to make sure that my muscles wont fail me on that day. aiya but i run for only 2.4km to 2.5km each time only.. that's half of the actual distance. OH WELLS (: i did something.

this is dedicated to emelin tan pei xin who will be leaving for minnesota on 14th august 2008.

2008-07-06T20:14:00.002+08:00

the people i met today

oooh man. safti looks totally like a freakin' chalet. i dare say even better than the stupid downtown east or ntuc chalet. it's fiercely huge inside yet superbly spick and span. probably because it's family visiting that's why they had to clean it. haha. but still! the canteen is soooo spacious it looked like it could hold sauron's army! lol. yeah but then again, mr. president goes there so it has to look presentable and grand and stuff. oh wells. typical hypocritical things that the government does.

in the morning when i was at kovan macs buying griddles for occifer yoong there was this lady queueing up in front of me and i recognised her by her knitted shirt. and never ever would i think that i would be meeting her at safti, at the SAME wing, at the SAME staircase! i was going down and she was going up. then she went 'ehh..' and i looked at her. SO familiar. and i waved. haha. weird concidence.

and i saw dickson too! i dont know who he was visiting i didnt bother to ask. he just went 'oh i cant rmb your name' -.- what a funny dickhead (:

anyways, i met jiawei too!! he looks as charcoal-ed as ever. i dont think he can get any tanner. hahahah. he was with his mom and bro. never thought that he would sign on. even if it's air force. though AIR FORCE sounds so big shot. lol.

and zhiwei at the canteen.

during the really boring talk, (the wing commander, i think, was practically reading off the slides) i realised i was sitting behind guohui and his girlfriend and his family. i was just looking around and everywhere except for the speaker. but they didnt know we were behind and i didnt dare say hi cause his girlfriend looks so fierce =/ the talk was horrible... it's like back to school. and the aircon was releasing sufficient cold air to cool everyone down. but i still fell asleep. hehe =D

outside the lecture hall/auditorium i saw zhuang yong and tracy. haha they didnt seem so hushed up like before. zhuang yong is a bad boy... he left his parents alone to explore the place while he walked around with tracy. hahaha.

so that's about it in safti. if i missed out anyone im really sorry!! oh did i mention that there are washing machines and dryers inside that hormone-raged place? i think it's rather cool. i mean, boys just dont know how to wash their clothes clean. so that's a pretty smart move to earn some dollars from the lazy boys. haha. OH SORRY. MEN. (whatever)

hahahahahahahaha!

last person of the day would be...jean cai! im quite sure she didnt see me. i had a really bad hair day today so she probably couldnt recognise me. (and yes i had to meet so many ppl. very traumatising indeed.) it was at macpherson duck rice/kwaychap there. oppposite standard photo (pte) ltd. she just walked past my table. so yup. that kinda sums up those ppl i met (:

it's comforting to see that my friends are fine and healthy. really.

2008-07-02T15:02:00.003+08:00

things that i wanna do before school starts
(all of which i think are possible)

my work contract with union ends this friday! yay! haha. six months there has been quite good. though with some unhappy incidents. i've made a few great aunty friends =D they've been very helpful and hospitable. maybe because i'm still a kid to them. hehe. AND, they're superb at hokkien (; out there i learned to be really tolerant with people. not because i want to seem like i 'heck care' but because i want to minimise the possibilities of arguments. my temper is surprisingly mild at work. gotta control... however there are times when i just have to get back at ppl, for the fun of it. of course those kinda things gotta be trivial otherwise it will be cc to the managers and stuff. so yup. be careful of what you are walking on. i know i will be missed. GREATLY (: hahaha!

anyways after discussing with yoong ah boy, i've decided to attend my sch camp which will be held from 14th to 18th july. whoever knows of ppl in ntu school of physical and mathematical science - chemistry and biological chemistry pls do inform me. cause i'm rather a loner right now. and alas! i have to study physics again! hahaha. and ethel's gotta study bio even though she's taking mechanical engineering. weird stuff goin' on around me~ lol.

okay so minus off that one week camp from my three weeks break before school starts = two weeks to bum around. and i want to make full use of that. FULL. since i wont be going out much on weekdays i'm gna help my dearest mommy with some housework.
1. iron clothes on alternate days
2. mop floor on the other alternate days
3. bring her over to meimei's house to let her to bum around (hahaha)
and hopefully, drag her over to kenko reflexology and fish spa at the singapore flyer. i know she will be quite willing. heh. MAYBE she will reciprocate and buy me more clothes! =D

so now that there's no more work, it's time to start preparing for school and go stationery shopping! =D wash my pencil case, buy more underwear, look for my files, make sure i have sufficient clothes for school etcetera etcetera. YAY!

4. treat my family to a sumptuous dimsum fest (if my pay allows it)
5. do a pizza meal on a weekend

i HAVE to meet emelin before she flies off to minnesota. i'm gna miss her badly ): she's a smart girl and knows what she wants. and she has to eat less cause her bum is getting bigger. hehe. see you soon pal! (X

THANK YOU SAM I LOVE YOU (:

2008-07-01T17:28:00.001+08:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as strong willed and stubborn.

Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.

With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

i don't want to be friendless ):

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdopeoplethinkofyourfacequiz/

2008-05-30T16:04:00.012+08:00

Your Ice Cream Personality:

You like to think of yourself as a fairly modest person. And it's true that you don't talk yourself up... but you're also pretty happy with who you are.

You have a wild reputation, but you're not as wild as you seem. You take risks, but only measured risks.

You are a somewhat open minded person, but deep down you're fairly conservative. You don't like trying new things very much. And if you do find something new you like, you stick with it.

You are a natural multitasker. You feel alive when you're doing more than one thing at a time.

You are a serious and contemplative person. You definitely do your own thing in life.

Okay it's pretty true of my personality. Quite fun too. Haha!

TRY IT! (:
http://www.blogthings.com/theicecreampersonalitytest/

2008-05-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

The PSP is supposedly for ME to play. But, fun has to be shared! Hehe. So there, my mom's enjoying it (:

And so is my cousin watching my mom! =D

Locco Rocco time!

2008-05-22T12:33:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's match was damn suck cock. It shouldn't turn out this way. I don't like Cristiano Ronaldo simply because he looks like a cheekopek. His skills are good though. Rahh. Poor Terry.

Penalties ain't everything.
Congrats to United fans.

2008-05-19T22:32:00.004+08:00

Here is a sample of a conversation I had over lunch with my colleagues. There are three of them: Ailing, Doris, Yvonne. All are mothers.

And this is the situation:
A driver told us that he was gonna stop working with us so that he can have more time to fight for custody for his daughter. He and his wife had divorced.

(This conversation has been professionally translated from Mandarin to English - by ME.)
After the driver left:
Doris: I tell you ah, husband and wife must stay together one. Otherwise sooner or later sure divorced.
Yvonne: Why leh?
Doris: If dont stay together how to have sex? No sex the marriage sure cannot be maintained one.
Ailing: Ya lor.
Doris: One married couple must have sex, two or three times a week doesn't matter. As long as they make love, very important.
Yvonne: But if old alr then will have fewer interactions is it?
Ailing: Of course la. The guy will have difficulty standing what.
Yvonne: But if that's the case then why do those old cheekopeks still visit brothels?
Ailing: You stupid ah. Never heard of Viagra meh?
Yvonne: Ohhh...

Moral of the story: Husbands, don't be afraid of being horny. Wives, BE horny even though you are not. (:
(And that my 'dearest' Yvonne ain't that smart. As you can tell. Pfft.)

AYTE! JUST BEING RANDOM TODAY! Hahahaha

2008-05-16T14:23:00.002+08:00

Hello.. sixteenth of May! You are a pretty sunshine lady.

(sixteenth of May exclaims: "You are so nice! You are a gorgeous beauty too!")

And so is everyone (:

visit http://rooftopgarden.livejournal.com

Dear Mandy, I'm very sorry that I wished you Happy Birthday one day later. I promise to have a surprise for you such that you will love it so much you can't wait to XOXO me!! Hehe. This is a rather big project for me to handle so you must be happy k? Hahaha. Actually you inspired and led me into this direction. Otherwise I wouldn't have any shitty idea of what to give you. Eh, I don't know what to do with the five ducks. Is it supposed to be a cloth or mitten? Some more only one side. Lol. Knock your head la. Just wanna let you know that I still love you! (:

Dear Ethel, YOU are a weird person. HAHAHA! Stop stalking everyone! (-cough, with your weird partner, cough-) Lol. Yeah so here I am, to update my bloggg... I passed my driving test! I hope you pass yours at the first attempt too. Otherwise your time will be so screwed. Sigh. And may you decide on your course soon! I understand your situation. So god blessed me. Haha. Well well well. I'm in the office right now. Supposedly doing data entry. But it's just..gawddamntooboring. (You gotta say it quickly otherwise your boss will kill ya!) Muahaha.

Dear GuoJie, Congrats! Glad to be your senior in two years' time though in different schools. Heh =D

Dear Teerapong, your sister bluff you one lah.. I feel so cheated for you. Then you buay song come and cheat me right! Haha keeding keeding. I forgive you. Because sixteenth of May says I'm a nice person (: hehehe. How are we gonna celebrate Daniel's birthday? Are you planning?

I've been browsing many online shops and they're fabulous. Well, most of them are. I don't really like second-hand stuff, 'unless stated otherwise'. Haha. There are good-looking clothes. For example, at http://rooftopgarden.livejournal.com (; So you'd better grab them before someone else does! Have fun shopping! Hehe.

Dear YongJian, COME BACK SOON!! Lol. Screw your sgts la. Seriously, the Discovery Centre is a damn fun place to play. Not to learn the history of Singapore. That one must go Sentosa the beach there. HAHA! Love you! <3

2008-02-17T13:14:00.002+08:00

My, my. I am utterly surprised that blogger hasn't removed my (moth-eaten) blog from its list! How honoured. Hahaha.

Kinda sian of blogging alr, that's why I hardly have any entries (if there is any to speak of). And the fact that my bro hogs the comp the moment he reaches home explains the reason as to why I can't really use the Internet. But this space still allows to say that I'M BORED. Lol.

So, there goes oh-seven and here comes oh-eight, rather quickly i must say. Hoped that the moment could last longer. Even though the count down party on tv sucked. Hurh. Let me mull over things slowly... Yeah.

And there you have, my birthday! Hahaha. (I WANT MY PRESENTS..!) Thank you all who remembered. And shame to those who did not. Tut TUT.

Good luck to everyone who is learning driving. A few words of advice: don't exceed 60km/h because that will allow you immediate failure.

DO YOU KNOW: your 19th birthday falls on the same day as your lunar one?

I wonder who still reads this site (:

2007-09-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

It is just damn fucking tough to think positively when there's hardly enough time for you to take a deep breath in this fast paced zoom zoom world.

Nothing ever lasts. Except for memories, I guess.

So here's toast to hl and bros for the stayover =)

Be there for whoever needs you. Believe in karma.

2007-09-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

Muahaha! Yay I'm not that lagging afterall!

Tennis was shiok. Though the racket damn heavy and I had to use two hands. I know I weak la.. And my dad damn zai! His backhand was like WOAH. Walao first time play like pro I so malu la. But GG ah. Lol. Family bonding is always so nice and lovely X)

Then it was breakfast! We walked down to the corner coffeeshop to makan wanton and carrot cake. Haha YUMMY =D The weather jealous of me ah, finish eating alr then rain. Knn. So we all wait wait wait.. until the sun come out. But nooo the sun dont want to come out. Daring ah. Want to koon like pig. And the freaking ceiling lao zui one!! ><>

So that's my wonderful morning adventure. And now it's time for bed XD hmm...zzz

2007-09-22T14:51:00.003+08:00

Hi. =) All. Blog. Whatever.

It's been a busy period preparing for prelims and now it's over! Thank goodness. But brace yourselves up for the sad news, well perhaps happy for some, that A's is here in 38 days! And soon it's gonna be over again. Haha.

And it's eleven months tmr! Lol. Yes yes. So exciting! Hahaha. And I'll be having econs and math lessons. Bahh.. But it's okay. WHEE~

As for now, I shall give myself a good break and relax before pickin' up my books to mug. Monday afternoon will be on for that ratty cartoon flick and maybe a game or two of pool with my class peeps and hang out with Dear before heading to hl's house for a night of fun! But I think I'll sleep again. I'm really not an owl. Haha. Tooooo bad. And Tues, celebrate Sisters' birthdays by having dinner with them. Miss 'em yoh. Loads.

And MAMA!! I'm sorryy.. Hehe. Hope you've been well and that Rugger has been taking care of you! (tell me if he doesnt cause then, I'll have a confrontation with him) How's your prelims? Okay not?

Dear All,
Please do stock up water in your bodies. The weather's getting kinda erratic and it's not good to fall sick now. Pop in vitC pills and all those (shitty) supplements if you have to and take care! Gotta keep your faces smoooth and prettaye (or handsome) too X)

Sleep well and get enough rest k? You need a clear mind to think properly.

I hate hate hate checking mails... Can you imagine? A HUNDRED AND FIFTY NINE (only). ARGH.

Bless all.

Ooh! By the way. I love love love that m1 advert. Hahaha! MUMBAI DAH, INN-DIAH! It's oh-my-goshly funny!! XD

New word of the day: lonelily

2007-06-02T19:47:00.001+08:00

Madonna proposes that everyone uses a square of toilet paper each time we do business (in the toilet) so as to reduce consumption of trees.

I suggest that we feed the poverty stricken kids so that they can help plant more trees for the growing global population.

What say you?

2007-06-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

One week of holidays has passed. I've always hated vacation because it is an absolute waste of time. Procrastination. Done naught. All I have in me is, Fear. It's really far too soon for A's to be here. I don't want to grow up. So what if I can buy alcohol and smoke? The amount of liberation scares me. I wanna do well for CT2. But I'm still confused as to what I'm gonna study after A's.

I wonder. Who taught us that a sky blue tank top doesn't go well with a canary yellow skirt? Why do we have to dress to suit the society's eyes? Who set the rules of wear? Why can't formal be slippers with tuxedo suit? What if one day, President Bush wore singlet and pants and made a speech to the world, saying that war would stop, there would be no more fighting no more killing of innocent people? What do you think your reaction would be?

Sometimes it feels good to be ignored; to be able to indulge in your own world of loves; to really feel happy doing what you want to do. Maybe it's a sign of escapism. But I beg to differ. It gives great pleasure to accomplish something that you really wanna do, yet you were afraid of because you were too concerned with what people think of you. Why do you bother?

Are we being cornered to such an extent that we do what we do because others expect us to do it? It would be terribly sad. Think.

It's hard to control what your mind thinks. Don't you reckon?

It's even harder when you can't stop it from thinking back.

On a lighter note, seven and a half years is a long time. This year is the seventh year of our Bazhang Exchange Programme. CAN'T WAIT! X)

To all those who have stood by me till now, thank you guys. Love all of you out there =)

Phil Collins - Against All Odds (Take A Look At Me Now)

How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take

Take a look at me now

2007-05-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

Ahh it's been a long long time since I last came online! To those wondering what happened to me, don't worry, I'm still rather alive and kickin' although school is quite torturous. And perhaps too much kickin' until my ligament loose. Rahh. To those who don't, now you know I'm not dead yet. Oh wells.

Looking back over the few months, I must say that it has been fulfilling. I did most of my chem and math tutorials, didn't even bother about bio and econs and had a whale of my time doing cip =D

11 May Friday
TODAY! VJ Hockey boys played against sajc. I think the rules and stuff are really complicated. But it was heart-stopping. AHH goodness. Now I know penalties are called flicks. I don't understand. If they are the same thing then why not just use the same word?! My stomach felt so uneasy during the flicks that I thought I was gonna faint. Haha. Serious! And the boys played well yeah. The outcome doesn't matter.. It's the attitude when you play and most importantly, to enjoy playing the game. No regrets or whatsoever. CONGRATS TO OUR BOYS! =) (Dear I still love you even though I didn't watch you play!)

Fight on Vball Girls! And other sports teams as well.

On another note, I was very pissed with Ng Shu Von because she made Ying Hao and I take the Chem Review Test even though we told her we didn't prepare for it as we had games. But no.. She said as long as "you're physically here you have to take the test". What a b-i-t-c-h. Argh. I had a good mind to leave the entire paper blank. PFFT. Anyways. Good luck to those who're sitting for it next week. Out of Ionic Equilibrium, only the solubility part came out. Then for Kinetics, look through your tutorial. I don't know much about Orgy Chem because I really don't know how to do. So yeah, that's about it.

10 May Thursday
VJ Softball Boys thrashed NJ, 12-2.
VJ Softball Girls fought well against NJ, 7-3.

Thank you Mag and Dad for the treat and WONDERFUL lorry ride. Really appreciate it! =D And season's over..

8 May Tuesday
Mini shopping trip at Taka with Ethel and Bee Ting after CIC handover. The juniors were so nice! They bought a cake and MADE a voodoo doll keychain for each of us. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

7 May Monday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!! I miss you.. Hope to see you soon! Hope you're coping well too =) Your present in my drawer..

2 May Wednesday
For once, there's NO official training. I wonder what has the world become to.

1 May Tuesday
The much-awaited LABOUR DAY HOLIDAY!!

28 April Saturday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASM! =) You've been a great friend!

27 April Friday
Drama Nite at Vj Performance Theater.

26 April Thursday
Bio SPA Skills C & D. Horrors of horrors. Crickets came out. ><

25 April Wednesday
VJ Softball Girls thrashed TPJC, 17-0.
But I played really lousily. Strike out =(

23 April Monday
Six months. How time teleports.. It has been a fantabulous time with my darling.. Love you dear :)

20 April Friday
I don't think it was a very tough match against HCI. It was really the mental strength though. Whatever it is, stay focused, firm, steady and relaxed.
COOL CALM STEADY FAST AGGRESSIVE FIRE!

17 April Tuesday
Somebody didn't pack chocolate chip bread for me.. But Chunky Monkey, Sweet Cookies & Cream and Fudge Brownie made up for it =D Today is the day where Ben & Jerry's are giving out free ice cream to thank their loyal supporters and get donations for Amazing Kidz. Being a kind and passionate soul, of course I helped out. No not in eating the ice cream, but asking people for donations. I'm always ever ready to help our (needy) society =)

14 April Saturday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASON! Please do learn to be less irritating and more considerate to those people living under the same ceiling as you.

11 April Wednesday
VJ Softball Boys won HCI but I forgot the score =/

8 April Sunday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER! I wish you happiness and health.
And I moved into my new house today! Happiness! I love my new purple room. Hehe
23 Kovan Road #12-18 Kovan Melody Singapore 548193

6 April Friday
GOOD FRIDAY HOLIDAY!! Has it been good for you? =)

30 March Friday
The most retarded sports day ever. "Draco porn other houses ah!"-Jiawei on watching Draco's cheerleading, with the (female) cheerleaders wearing short pleated skirts and a see-through white top which can practically see their nipples outlines. I mean, the dot. "Oh my god when did my brother become a girl?!"-Jiawei on seeing his brother cheerlead.

28 March Wednesday
Arts Day: Arts In Reality.
Cool stuff man! Check out @kinetics!

26 March Monday
Chem SPA Skill C & D. Horrendous. Mugged until can vomit blood..

23 March Friday
Five months =D Fonder love... =P

18 March Sunday
Team Breakfast at Kallang Macs
SRC: VJ against HCI and we won 7-1! How cool is that man.. Haha.

17 March Saturday
SRC: VJ lost to both RJ and NJ. What the hell..

11 March Sunday
SRC: VJ lost to SAS but won TPJC. Quite disappointing..

10 March Saturday
NUS Open House. I don't know what I want to study in the future. I'm such a block head. I really don't know what I want leh.. How? I feel so lost. I don't want to grow up. Get more headches only. Hrmph.

5 March Monday
The announcement of a girl from 06s30 fainting from running and not being able to revive her was sadly made to the school. What do you think will happen if you suddenly kicked the sand bucket so hard? You know the world won't change beause of you. BE REALISTIC. Okay but it's really heart wrenching to be told this kinda truth. Argh.

23 February Friday
Four months =D

21 February Wednesday
Cross Country run at ECP.. -.- I hate cross country. Waste my time to sleep.

19 February Monday
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!! New shoes new clothes new bags new underwear =D

15 February Thursday
You fallin love with personality. But you live with character.

14 February Wednesday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOTHER!! I wish you happiness and health.
HAPPY VDAY TO ALL LOVE BIRDS OUT THERE~
Sorry I'm a love duck =P Breakfast; Cushion; Cookie jar; Wine choc; Card

8 February Thursday
What is a cup? When is a cup a bowl? Why is a cup a cup? How do you define a cup?

5 February Monday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!! =)
Thank you darling. Thank you pearl and han loong. Everything was a blast becase of you guys. Love you loads!! Hugs and Kisses!

3 February Saturday
HFH House Cleaning at Geylang Bahru. Nothing much to do la. Take photos of 'before and after' houses only lor..

2 February Friday
The real criminals in this society are not all the people who populate the prisons across the state, but those who have stolen the wealth of the world from the people. -Angela Davis

27 January Saturday
I dyed my hair today.. Heh heh

24 January Wednesday
Candy is dandy, but liquor is quicker. -Ogden Nash

2007-01-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

Gonna stay off the comp unless there's really nothing for me to do cause right now, there are a million things on my organiser waiting for me to complete and yet I'm here, wastin' my time. It kinda sucks when there are so many pressing issues but then you're not the least motivated to do anything. So take care to all till I see you again. And please do your tutorials. It's 2007=j2s=A's. Yes harsh reality. What can you do but accept it? =) STUDY, and LOVE =P

2007-01-04T18:55:00.000+08:00

Keane - Nothing In My Way

A turning tide
Lovers at a great divide
Why do you laugh
When I know that you hurt inside?

And why do you say
"It's just another day
Nothing in my way
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?"
And why do you lie
When you wanna die
When you hurt inside?
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say

A tell-tale sign
You don't know where to draw the line

And why do you say
"It's just another day
Nothing in my way
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?"
And why do you lie
When you wanna die
When you hurt inside?
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say

Well for a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul it seems to me
that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time

;stories untold
;hurt the most

2007-01-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

Happy two-zero-zero-seven!!

Thank you pearl pong benny handoko anat and yongjian.

Hibernation's about to end. It's the start of spring and let's begin springing!! Woohoo~

One more resolution: Be more sensitive to feelings and less to words.

A new chapter to be printed on a blank piece of scroll. Sub chapters? It all depends.. =)

All in all, there's still love and hope. Don't give up!

2006-12-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

;memories
;robin daniel pong wilson nigel shermain wenxiang yewyee nav ethel guojie me

2006-12-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

Just realised that I haven't blogged in exactly a month.

This is roughly what got me busy this holiday:
17nov-22nov: Family holiday in Japan
29nov-4dec: Sports trip in Bangkok
8dec-13dec: YEP in the Philippines
14dec-18dec: BUSM annual meeting in Genting
The time in between goes to packing and unpacking and training! Oh and some other CIP stuff too.

Ta-dah! =)

Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year to everyone out there! The last day of xmas is on 5jan. Go out and celebrate! Share some joy and spread the love!

Damn those people who didn't donate to charity. Got money and time to shop but no money and time to just stop for a minute or two to get rid of your coins. Hello, it's coins not even dollar notes. Boo..

Now, time for resolutions for 2007 (2006 is ending in three pathetic days)!
1. Commit more time to Project Archive
2. Be consistent in my work and get my A's
3. Stop spending money unnecessarily
4. Be less annoying and temperamental
5. Get sufficient sleep everyday
Yay, short sweet and simple. Just like me =P Hahaha. Not funny.. But it's true! Heex.

A million thanks to all those who have helped me survive this year. And everyone else who gave me lotsa joy love and laughter.

Most importantly, I love my boy. =D

2006-11-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

HFH is so ulu la. But we still managed to find it in the end. Okay fine.. Daniel found it. He. Is. A. Freaking. Irritating. Guy. He doesn't know when to talk and when not to talk. Ugh.

Sister talk never fails to lift my spirits. It's so funny and 'informative'. Lol.

I'M VERY VERY TIRED! Blardy hell. I slept for only four miserable hours. Signing off now. Good nights!

2006-11-28T05:08:00.000+08:00

It's ten past five AM now and I'm online. Wth what am I doing? Hahaha no.. I fell asleep last night while watching Miss Beachwear Finals and I woke up at 2.45am. Kan.. the girls not hot enough. Shall complain to Pearl. Ask her to join =D ManU and Chelsea draw. Okay la not sad not happy. Just..okay =)

So now me ish bored and now me feels like putting up pictures about me's trip. Yeah.

DAY 1

Flight at 2325 on board NH 902 on 15nov.

DAY 2

Reached Narita Airport at 0738 local time. It's an hour faster over there. And only 3G phones with 3G cards can be used. They're too high tech for us singaPOOReans. Boohoo.. There are 47 prefectures there. Something like province/state la. 5% consumer tax. Same as here right? They have an ageing population too! With 20% of the people being over 65 years old. And their population is like 3x of us. Hahaha.

Their MRT station with the fare and everything up. Cool.. Train station at below the airport somemore. (This one cannot say they copy us =/)

Asakusa Temple is the oldest temple. People go their to cleanse their body/soul/heart. Okay I can't stand pantang-ness. Alex (tour guide, not eme's babe) gave us free time here. But then we didn't go inside to see. Instead...

We went off to check out the stalls lined up outside the temple. The malt candies with fruits inside were darn pretty and we couldn't resist the temptation. Rason: Blue wih orange; Aunt: Transparent with plum; Tim: Transparent with peach; Me: Transparent with strawberry.

Their vending machines there are imba. All over the place selling all kinds of stuff. Got cigarettes, instant noodles, phone cards etc. But don't have pads one. Not even in the Ladies..

The true blue original Yoshinoya! Alex says Japan's taste better than Singapore's. But I didn't try =(

¥100 ≈ S$1.33 Hahaha what if someone says 'I'm drinking fire'. The food there is quite reasonable. But shopping is totally crazy. Very overpriced.

Hoho. Lunchtime! Don't be jealous. This is only the beginning.. Heh =D

Shopping at Ueno. Rason bought a pair of limited edt dunks. Don't even have that brand in here. It has got a skull motif. Damn poseur. Damn him. And that pair cost a hell bomb. What else can I say?

Pachinko. It's something like Jackpot. The machines raid the city like free. Enter and you see those uncles after work playing and turning the knobs. Even got nicely dressed females. And the whole place is filled with cigarette smoke. Minimum starting stake is ¥3000 and minimum age is 18. Any takers? =D

Shibuya. Did you watch Tokyo Drift? The junction where the bad guy chased after the life of the good guy. They came from the left, turned to their left and went up ahead. (Got the netlike thing cause I was on the link bridge between the two buildings on either side of the road)

Still at Shibuya, but in front of the right side building. That building and I were diagonally opposite each other. (Look at the diagonal Zebra crossing) p.s. Burberry Blue label and Black label are available only in Japan. Porter bags are freaking ex, though classic. One small handbag can cost S$200. One of those luxury brands. Don't ever get them through eBay because some of them are from Taiwan, designs are more outdated. The buildings there can withstand earthquakes up to 7.5 on the Richter scale. Working hours of the Japanese are Mon-Fri, 0830-1830. Singapore's only 0900-1700. But almost everyone does OT. So it doesn't really matter.

PEARL! WHY IS YOUR BROTHER LOOKING FOR A JAP WIFE HERE? tsk tsk.. Incorrigible. LOL!

Dinner place overlooking the Rainbow bridge. Nice setting, with nicer buffet food. Hehe.

DAY 3

In front of hotel room. Their rooms and toilets are freaking small. Toilet is enough space for only one person to stand. Room is enough walking space only. Wth land so big so wanna save space. Build bigger rooms la aiyo.

Osaka castle in the heart of Tokyo. Roof is made of broze but looks green due to exposure to air. There are 200 volcanoes all over Japan. Land area is 550x of Singapore's. Education in Japan is 6-3-3 compared to ours, 6-4-2 or 6-4-3.

Cute little birds perched on the cold metal rail. One mommy and her three kids? Maybe there's a story behind these chirpy animals..

At Chinatown where it was food galore! Hahaha. Hello anat. Jap chicks cant withstand the cold for the sake of short skirts. Eh heh.. I see you beaming with happiness. LOL =P

Japan doesn't seem to have coffee bean. So we just made do with Starbucks instead, since it is everywhere. Sadly. Coffee bean is the bestest lor.. Breathe to agree. HEH.

Yellow one inside is red bean. Pink one is chocolate. And they're each sold for ¥100 >.<

Kobe Port after the second worst earthquake hit in 1995, causing as many as 40071 casualties, destroying 247486 homes and buildings.

The overhead bridge for automobiles now fixed. Construction done without a short term of three years. Shows how efficient the Japanese are. Shame on Malaysia. Build one road also can take so long. (Okay pls don't hantam me =/)

Balls of chewy Q-Q muah chee. Imba-ly yummy. Dipped in peanut powder.. WAHH.. Shiok. I took one BEEEEG bowl =D

Hoho! I see my bro being displayed! Sounds wrong. But oh well, all's well. Hehe.

A cosy and villagey feel I got once I stepped into this place. In search of the Ladies. Hahaha. But the place is really darn nice. So cottagey and homey, so me.

Shopping at Shindaibashi, a place where Fann Wong introduced in some of her something, book or show, I can't be bothered. As long as I get to shop =) This is the place where I bought all the Disney stuff! There is one freaking big disney store where I forgot to take a photo of because I was super excited and I chiong-ed in, spending almost an hour inside. I practically donated half of what I had to that shop la. More than ¥10,000 =S

Octopus takopachi at 20 for ¥2000. Ex eh.. But then for the sake of FOOD.. It's all worth it man. Hahaha. That's all I had for dinner, apparently shopping was of a higher priority.

DAY 4

Okay blogger is very slow at updating photos. So yeah. I shall upload only those I feel are more worthy.

Morning, first stop, Todai-ji Temple. Sounds like a mix of dialects forming a crude word. Next up was Nara deer farm. Nara is the first capital of Japan, followed by Kyoto. It is believed that Gods rode on deers. I've always thought that only Santa rides them. Then..Kiyomizu Temple. Tada!

DAY 5

Boarded a bullet train at Hamatsu station. There are two kinds of train. One is Express, which skips some stations. The other is Semi-Express, which stops at all stations. The max speed reached is 270km/h.

DAY 6

At Disneyland. Junkia, this picture is specially dedicated to you =)

DAY 7

Fly home to sleep! YES!

*I will edit my entry again when I get back, so please do check it out then*

2006-11-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

Obsession with numbers.

1. Results (no not the grades, but the actual marks)
2. Height (my mom says optimum is 160cm)
3. Weight ><
4. How much allowance parents think they should give (the lesser, the better)
5. How many hours do you spend online
6. How much your phone bill is
7. How many messages do you send in a month
8. How long have you been talking on the phone
9. What bus you can take to school
10. What time does whatever show start
11. What is somebody's number
12. How many people are online

..and the list goes on!

Just being random =D

MAN U - CHELSEA @ 11.55pm Channel 23
Watch the Blues kick some ass =)

2006-11-26T11:35:00.000+08:00

Haha I did the quiz at Mandy's blog and I scored as Art. Bio Math English Chem are last on the list. And I'm studying those subjects now. How apt. Econs is not in the picture at all. NO WONDER.. Okay off to mug for econs r paper now. Lol.

You scored as Art.

You should be an Art major! How bohemian!

Art 100%
Anthropology 92%
Dance 83%
Philosophy 83%
Engineering 83%
Journalism 83%
Psychology 83%
Sociology 75%
Linguistics 67%
Theater 67%
Biology 50%
Mathematics 50%
English 33%
Chemistry 33%

2006-11-26T10:24:00.000+08:00

The feeling of not being able to shit when you seriously have to, sucks. It's like the shit is coming out already but there is somebody in the toilet so you got to wait. And by the time the person comes out, your shit retreats. In the end you got to wait for inspiration.. Annoying.

All right I have been mia for a long long time.. Since 14nov. That is almost two weeks! Blardy hell. Okay I went for holiday from 15nov to 22nov so didn't get to update. Then came back, and had training on 23nov and 24nov plus a little 6G gathering.

As much as I love training (I really do, from the bottom of my living heart..), there are still times when I don't feel like going =/ How I wish the word LAZY and its related words never existed in my vocab bank. Boo you lousy thing.

Derrick Chen/ Melvin Low/Ling Wei/ Prem/ Wei Ming/ Wei De/ Mandy/ Ling Wei/ Yong Yong/ Me
6G gathering rocks! Although Goh couldn't come we sure had barrel loads of fun. Maybe that's because he wasn't around =P Out of a class of 42 people, only 10 appeared. How freaking pathetic that is la. But it was still cool to sit down and indulge in reminiscene of the good old fish tank days and PETS course book. Lol. There was hardly any awkwardness even when we haven't met some of them for a solid four years. It was the true pure friendship that was present. All we did was simply talk cock sing song play cards play mahjong. WONDERFUL. And we chilled out until almost 1am and Mandy's bro came to fetch the Serangoon people back while Wei De and Wei Ming walked home (no they are not twins). I think most of my true friends are made in YZ..

Actually this little gathering was organised in sync with my bro's because Goh was both our form teachers. At first Goh and Bala said they could make it one lor. Pigs la last minute 'tired ah sorry'. Bullshit.. And my aunt was so darn nice, bought sparkling juice (HAHA!) for them to celebrate the end of primary school. But sadly I'm certain that my bro still acts like a p4 kid. Oh yes. PSLE. Our two classes were the smartest in YZ =) Hehehe. He freaking hell scored 257, only ten points down from the top achiever in school. Don't talk about mine. Lol so embarrasing. Then good lor now he thinks he damn big lor. Daddy bought him a new computer lor. Ugh.

I can't wait for 19dec and 23dec. We're going to board games cafe to chill and watch derrick work. Haha! And celebrate his birthday before Christmas. YAY!! I love Christmas. Ain't it the season of GIVING? =)

I will blog about my Japan trip some time later. Now must study and catch up on my hw. I will be away from 29nov to 4dec and 8dec to 18dec again. Where got time.. Sigh. So much to do yet so little time.

There can be miracles when you believe

2006-11-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday:
Happy Birthday Shang!

Today:
Happy Birthday Pearl!
Happy Birthday CHM!
Happy Birthday Vanessa Chong!

Tomorrow:
Happy Birthday Weili!

2006-11-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

I GOT MY HAIRTRIM TODAY!!
How's that man..
I'm freaking happy right now.
But my hair's a little too short to be tied up because it's damn layered.
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Candy Empire rocks my tummy.
The candy sticks look so cute and pretty and dd-uhh yummy.
Ooh I just realised the last words rhyme!
Hahaha-hahaha.

The noodles look like maggi but then they taste damn imba..
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Okay my schedule ain't really confirmed yet but more or less done..
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Flight scheduled at night.

Mama's gonna see me off!
YEASH. Okay not really, just gonna get some stuff from me but still it makes me excited!
Last one to see before I fly.. =)

Somebody got meeting/bonding and match...
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Seven days IS really very long.
A tad too long.
But then there's something called the video calls.
And with that comes the weh HIGH price of bills.
So moral of the story?
STILL BRING THE PHONE =D
Hahaha.
I think I'm damn guai lan. (Yes hl I am but you're still the guai-er lan =P)

2006-11-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANG YUNN LAODA!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYWURLY!!
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Yesterday was an adventurous one.

I&R > Mandy's house - GNR DVD + Apple crumble > Orchard - Shopping

I&R
It was quite crappy considering that Kellie Tan gave us the usual hai-I-must-entertain-to-this-shit-AGAIN face. Too bad lor go be some other classes' CT la.

Mandy's house - GNR DVD + Apple crumble
Mama can cook real well, boy! The apple crumble was damn nice, even though the apples were (yeah) a little sour and I think vanilla would have been a better choice. The MTVs were shot live in Tokyo during their USE YOUR ILLUSION tour. Axl Rose's voice was damn steady. (We love his hair!) Slash's fingers were damn fast. Everything was just..perfect. But I still prefer those in WELCOME TO THE VIDEOS.
Don't Cry, Sweet Child O' Mine, Paradise City, Estranged, November Rain, Garden of Eden, Patience.

Ochard - Shopping
After music and food it was time to hit the stores! First stop being Suntec City. La Senza has really pretty and charming stuff you know? Maybe you should check it out one day =D Then continued to PS and finally Paragon! But then we didn't shop like crazy. Instead we WALKED like mad, from PS all the way to Tanglin Road to look for the official Man U merchandise store. Sadly it was closed down already I think. Because when we looked up from the pavement the inside was totally dark and empty =(

I love talking about random things and being insane in public with Mama! Sorry la your apple crumble.. HEAVENLY. And I'm sure you had fun too! Hehehe. They still owe me my stickers!

2006-11-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

WHY AM I ACTING AND THINKING WEIRDLY?
I have no idea what's coming over me recently but I have been feeling quite down and out and under. Someone please tell me what's wrong with me.

WHY DON'T I HAVE ENOUGH TIME?
I have so many things to do and yet so little time. Maybe not a lot, but I think there is a handful. There is a serious need to study for econs R paper because I really suck at it and couldn't be bothered to mug for promos. I'm a fucking loser la. I'm glad Nat has R papers too so we can study together! Hahaha. To those who've done well, congratulations and please step aside and screw yourself. Call that jealousy or idiocy. I don't fucking care. Leave.Me.Alone. I have to pack my luggage too. Guess I'll do that on that very day when I'm leaving. I'm glad that Tim is coming with us this time! YAY *hugs you* I must do my holiday homework as well. Maybe I should bring my homework file along with me everywhere I go.

WHY DO I KEEP THINKING BACK?
I get really depressed when my thoughts rewind on their own. Because I never seem to think about happy stuff. A few days back on the way home I was wondering, If God existed why doesn't he appear? Can God be a SHE? What if one day God talked to me in my dreams? I'm forever dwelling in my failures. WAKE UP, REGINA! I should learn to grow up faster. *points at my reflection and scoffs at myself*

WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO INSENSITIVE?
I just hope, sincerely, that I am understood at times. It is easier to love than to be loved. But the feeling of being loved outweighs that of loving others.

WHY AM I SO IRRITATING?
I know my mood swings are quite extreme. That is a warning. Talk to me at your own risk.

WHY IS MY GROUP SO USELESS?
I think it's because me. If only PW was an individual work. I wouldn't have to worry about letting my group down. I don't want to fail. I really really don't. But I know that I most probably have. L is for Lol, Loser!

WHY ISN'T CHRISTMAS COMING?
I love giving out presents, as much as I love receiving them. But I know for sure that the latter will not happen. Mama will you please bring me with you..? =) Do I smell a party brewing? *tip toes and peep around*

WHY DO I DISLIKE MY OWN BIRTHDAY?
I have absolutely no idea why. I've never wanted to wake up on that day but there is no choice. I thank God for bringing me here but I wish I wasn't right here, right now.

WHY DOES EVERYONE CALL ME REG?
It's the worst name. To those who didn't know that I hate this name, now you do. So please! Stop calling me that. I'd rather ZhiRong, seriously no joke.

I don't think I've ranted enough but I'm tired already.

I never knew some people realise that I started hiding messages. Hello Nat =D

2006-11-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

Afraid to let others down.
Trying too hard to make others happy.
And so perhaps I had too many promises that I don't wanna break.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a slave to myself.
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People should never have existed.
It's a chore to live.

I'm still sore about my OP.
It's raping my brain apart leaving no room for anything else.
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Stories don't give you the entire picture.

I feel like a downright fuckin' loser. It's hard to tell. No one will know. It doesn't matter.

2006-11-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

Gasp.

Today, I found out what my full name is.
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And I have a max of 25 days in town instead of 20!
HOORAY.
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All right time to do I&R!

You can do it Regina!
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If depression leads to madness
then I guess I'm at the terminal stage.
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Guys just don't think and I bet they're too lazy anyway.
(Please do not try to defend yourselves because I think you'll still lose)

Oh scurry off!

hl asked what are the sweetest things he's done for me, and I wonder.

2006-11-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

Egawds..

There are exactly 8 weeks of holidays as of 13 Nov.
That makes it 8 X 7 = 56 days.
And out of that, I'll be in town for a max of 20 days if I'm not going Ah Gong's house.

So to those who wanna date me, get a copy of my schedule!
HAHAHA.

Nawh I think I'll update my schedule under 'Profile' instead.
Meanwhile, I'm still working on it!
Getting confirmation of trips and timings.

RAHH...
This is so vexing!!
When will I ever have the time to study for econs R paper and complete my math and GP homework..?!

2006-11-11T17:31:00.000+08:00

Haha I'm in a posting picture mood right now! =)

Oms check this out this is freaking imba. The gramophone type of CD at my hairdresser's place. Damn cool la..

The Interview season for PW. At AHS canteen - boys getting punished by a nice PE teacher. That was when we were still hyped up about WR.

Me after PW. All gone mad.

My PW group. A whole year of efforts..

VJ058

Haha! Vain Nat with this mini mohawk!

(Don't worry your tail is still intact =D)

Some memories are better left untouched.

2006-11-11T15:20:00.000+08:00

Suddenly.
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I don't feel like blogging anymore.
Perhaps there are too many things that I wanna scream out.
Or simply because I've become a vacuous being.
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How dumb can I get?
To leave my lappie and gpf in the blardy locker yesterday!
If I had lost my lappie, my dad would kill me.
If I had lost my gpf, my group mates would kill me.
What a glamorous way to die.
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Try ice kacang without the kacang.
Change the kacang to longan, diced honeydew and jelly, atap seed..and I forgot what else.. (HMM)
Imba =)
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Oral presentation was the worst nightmare I've had so far.
(Much worse than having chased and eaten up by dinosaurs)
Why was my group's co-ordination so poor?
Why didn't ngai understand what I typed?
Why did my mind blank out?
Why couldn't I focus?

WHY?!

The examiners were quite impressed by Yuzhao's answer.
This is so freaking unfair!
Just because she's from China he's from some alien country I bet he thinks that she's so cute and he wants to rape her.
BOO YOU LOUSY ANG MOH!

The questions they asked were rather unexpected but still answerable I guess.
I can't really remember what mine were but I just conjured some crap on the spot.
OH WELL.

I wouldn't know whose fault it is if I've done badly.
And that sucks.
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It hurts to know that the world is a complicated thing.
I cannot really stop my thoughts from flowing when I'm alone.

For the past three days since having to go home alone after training I've been thinking what I've done with my life so far.

There isn't nothing for me to be proud of.
Or should I say I should be ashamed of myself.

I can't wait to vanish from the face of this planet and yet I'm afraid.

One day,
I can and I will.
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Why are there ambiguities?
Wouldn't it be great if everything was simply black or white?
The grey areas never fail to haze your mind and you wonder,
What am I doing here? Why am I here?
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Got to draw out my plans carefully.
No time to waste; no time to lose.

It is hard not to think about you.

2006-11-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

Blogger sucks.
Seriously.
People please Ctrl+A and Ctrl+C before you click 'Publish Post'.
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No slugs were a-salted during this move.

Acapella with really nice songs.
And to think that slugs actually sang that, hail.
Hahaha.
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I think my family is psychic.
First my mom.
Second me.
Now my dad.

He actually gave me 50bucks for the cards when NO ONE told him that I was gonna buy cards.
What the hell..
This is freaky..!
Sorry darling I don't know how I know things but I just do =/
Amazing brains.
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Family or Friends?

I'd say BOTH.
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I'm too lazy to recover my post which was a RARE reflection, so there.
This is what I am willing to RE-type out.
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I need a hairtrim soon.

2006-11-07T07:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's happiness
Is when chicken rice is for dinner.

Hahahaha.
Wanted to go Aston Specialities eat steak..
But tired people can't walk very far..

After dinner while strolling to the bus stop Tim called to say it was closed.

Ultimate happiness =D
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Walao early in the morning wake up come online.
TO DO THE FKING PW SCRIPT.

@#$%^&)_@#&

Okay time to go school and face Horrors!

Hello Kellie Tan.
I am trying to try to memorise my script.

2006-11-06T00:54:00.000+08:00

I miss Sufi..
Brunei sucks la COME BACK!
Teach me how to drive a damn car BE MY INSTRUCTOR
Teach me how to drum like a pro BE MY TEACHER

Miss your fat Superman flying in front of the big ugly fan.

My dear brudder.
Yeah promises never last forever.
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I can't concentrate.
Focusing suddenly became a big problem.

I'm seeing double and yet I have to persevere!
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Sick of giving in?
Eat.
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I think I care too much.
I think I should wash my hands off some issues.
I think I am hungry.
I think I will die later.
I think I ought to sleep now.

Thoughts are but delusions.
Abandonment..a choice.

2006-11-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

OOPS!
Song title should be Send Me An Angel instead of Wind Of Change.
Thanks Mahesha! =)
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Yay we finally had our sister outing yesterday.
Went to Vivo cineplex watch The Prestige.
4pm show left first row and 6.50pm show left first and second rows.
But then we impatient little girls didn't wanna wait too long so decided to take the second row!

(And our necks almost broke.)

Sister Talk is ever so exciting.
Always got new things to dig out one.
Hehehe.

Still waiting for Ethel to send me the photos so I can upload!
=)
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The Prestige is a VERY chim show for me.
Mainly because the flashbacks got me all confused and I don't know what was actually happening.

Cutter: Every great magic trick consists of three acts. The first act is called "The Pledge"; The magician shows you something ordinary, but of course... it probably isn't. The second act is called "The Turn"; The magician makes his ordinary some thing do something extraordinary. Now if you're looking for the secret... you won't find it, that's why there's a third act called, "The Prestige"; this is the part with the twists and turns, where lives hang in the balance, and you see something shocking you've never seen before.

Rupert Angier: Would I be the man in the box? Or the man in the prestige?

This 128min show got our brains ticking for quite a while.
(And I still need some explanation, if possible, for the entire movie.)
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TODAY.. My best big breakfast ever.
Even when my iced milo was more than half gone.
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I still can't find it.
They say it isn't here yet.
But I thought it isn't anywhere anymore.

I wonder..

THANKS ATHANIEL =D
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THE brothers: Abriel, Andrew, Ashley, An Loong, Athaniel.
HAHAHA!

2006-11-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

Scorpions - Wind Of Change

The wise man said just walk this way
To the dawn of the light
The wind will blow into your face
As the years pass you by
Hear this voice from deep inside
It's the call of your heart
Close your eyes and you will find
Passage out of the dark

Here I Am
Will you send me an angel
Here I am
In the land of the morning star

The wise man said just find your place
In the eye of the storm
Seek the roses along the way
Just beware of the Thorns

Here I am
Will you send me an angel
Here I am
In the land of the morning star

The wise man said just raise your hand
And reach out for the spell
Find the door to the promised land
Just believe in yourself
Hear this voice from deep inside
It's the call of your heart
Close you're eyes and you will find
The way out of the dark

Here I am
Will you send me an angel
Here I am
In the land of the morning star
Here I am
Will you send me an angel
Here I am
In the land of the morning star
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Training today wasn't very hiong but it was tiring.

Coach like having pms or something, kept screaming.. =/

I did throwing and batting with Ally.
Throw for two hours - High ball, Grounders, Basic
(one, two, throw! - right hand 90degress)
Bat for one hour and ALMOST got blisters.
Almost almost, the areas are kinda hurting now.

And I blardy hiaow got a BRAND NEW blue black on my right shin.
A bump, a mini hill.
HAHAHA.

I think I seriously suck la.
Hurt my fourth finger AGAIN.
Like the pain not imba enough.
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Tofu says I look like a spoilt brat..
Little girl who stays at same place as me but at Lobby A, 10th floor.
And I live at the 4th floor!
So now I have a new friend to go home with.
But I still prefer... =D
Yay-ness.
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Pimples of the world...unite.
On my face.
WIN LIAO LOR.

2006-11-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

100 million
All for you
=D
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8-13 dec (6 days)
A thousand bucks
What the hell

I'm sick of this shit
Please just stab me in my heart
So I won't feel anything

No school name
No school teacher
I rock

2006-11-01T01:43:00.000+08:00

You pass through my soul like the wind,
Lifting me to the realms of heaven,
Yet you left so suddenly,
And i fall almost willingly.

Like gentle breeze that kisses
You make my heart dance like leaves in the spring,
Yet the sound of dried leaves rustling,
Echos when you stop whispering

How foolish I must have been,
Trying to catch the wind with bare hands,
As you slipped through my fingers so,
Gently, caressing a broken heart.

The tears won't form when i cry,
For even a fool like me can't weep,
When his hearts broken his soul torn,
For something that was never his.

As you stand there looking at me,
I walked away, wind against my face
Though you stand there watching me,
You have started walking long ago
Walking away from me.

I walked and walked,
As my blood trails,
As my blood dries,
As my soul withers,
And my soul dies.

I walked and walked,
Walking away from you.

And all i can hope for,
Is for the earth to be round,
So we might meet again,
One day.

-by Emma aka Jude Pink

Hey dear cheer up yeah?
All is not lost! =)
Having is one thing, and parting is another.

2006-11-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

As if being pang seh-ed isn't bad enough.

Now you just have to shatter my dream
Piece by piece.
Bit by bit.

What is wrong?!

I don't want to live in regrets.
Why can't you just grant me this little chance??

And why..
Is there a need for a middle person?
Can't you just talk to me personally?

After all the hard work this year, it suddenly seems like everything fell apart at this very instance.
Is there really nothing we can do?

Maybe it was my fault.
Maybe I didn't put in enough effort.
Maybe I should just drop dead and vanish.

I beg of you..

God please salvage this shit.

2006-10-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

I SINCERELY hope that Pumpkin will enjoy today!
Hahahaha, eh serious la.. =)
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Sleeping in the afternoon is bad.
My nose is gonna drop off anytime.
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I am in heavy debt because I pissed you off.
Hohoho.
You sweet little thing.

One hour is better than nothing I guess.

I love Yong Jian.
=D

2006-10-31T10:48:00.000+08:00

What the hell is a group for?!
Talk, people, TALK!

Ask questions when you're unsure.
Don't just sit there and expect me to tell you everything.
Are you brainless or what.

Reach school then call and ask around who is where la.
Sit in the canteen and wait for the sky to fall on you?!

2006-10-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

All right...
I can never hide anything.

No, not from my besties.
- Mandy
- Pearl
- Ethel
- Nat

HL guessed one!
Not fair.

There.
Don't say I never say anything hor..
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Okay I didn't go for training today.
I know I'm a bad girl.
Please don't whack my butt.
Sorry Coach =(
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DARLING =D
Hahaha k k do math with you!

I want to sleep..THERE.

2006-10-29T18:51:00.000+08:00

Morning meditation session was fruitful!
Another hour for me to catch up on my sleep =)
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I am happy:
= Happy

I am very happy:
= Happy + Happy^2

I am very very happy:
= Happy + Happy^2 + Happy^3

I am infinitely happy:
= Happy + Happy^2 + Happy^3 + ... + Happy^n
= Happy{[1-Happy^(n+1)]/[1-Happy]}

I love you:
= Love

I love you a lot:
= Love + Love^2

I love you a lot a lot:
= Love + Love^2 + Love^3

I love you A LOT:
= Love + Love^2 + Love^3 + ... + Love^n
= Love{[1-Love^(n+1)]/[1-Love]}

Darling..darling.
Hahaha I love taking buses now!
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PW screws up my timetable.

2006-10-28T17:09:00.000+08:00

I'm bored.
And I found the 16PF shit.
Hahahaha!
Here it goes!
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16PF Fifth Edition
Singapore Student Narrative Report
(SSNR)

Name: Regina Chen
ID : S89*****D
Date : August 11, 2006

Vocational Orientation

Investigative = 8
Ms Chen shows personality characteristics similar to Investigative persons. Such persons typically have good reasoning ability and enjoy the challenge of problem-solving. They tend to have critical minds, are curious, and are open to new ideas ad solutions. Investigative persons tend to be reserved and somewhat impersonal; they may prefer working independently. They tend to be concerned with the function and purpose of materials rather than aesthetic principles. Ms Chen may enjoy working with ideas and theories, especially in the scientific realm. It may be worthwhile to explore whether Ms Chen enjoys doing research, reading technical articles, or solving challenging problems.

Occupational fields: Science, Math, Research, Medicine and Health, Computer Science

Artistic = 7
Ms Chen shows personality characteristics similar to Artistic persons, who are self-expressive, typically through a mode such as art, music, design, writing, acting, composing, etc. Like Artistic persons, Ms Chen may be venturesome and open to different views and experiences. Sometimes she may be preoccupied with thoughts and ideas, which may relate to the overall creative process. She may do her best work in an unstructured, flexible environment. It may be worthwhile to explore whether Ms Chen appreciates aesthetics and possesses artistic, design, or musical talents.

Occupational fields: Art, Music, Design, Theater, Writing

Singapore Student Assessment Information

Innovation

Applied Thinking
Creative Potential = 6.7
Creative Achievement = 6.9
Imagination = 6.0
Experimenting = 7.7
Investigative = 7.5
Abstract Reasoning = 8.0
Intellectual Efficiency = 7.9

Motivation to Innovate
Openness to Change = 7.0
Receptive = 6.5
Energized = 5.0
Perfectionism = 8.0
Unrestrained = 5.6

Enterprising

Leadership factors
Leadership Potential = 5.7
Assertive Leadership = 5.9
Facilitate Leadership = 4.9
Permissive Leadership = 5.3
Influence = 5.3

Business Competencies
Enterprising = 4.1
Dependability = 5.0
Service Orientation = 5.8
Resilience = 5.2

Composite Scores
Innovation Composite = 6.9
Enterprising Composite = 5.0

16PF Profile
Reserved (5) Warmth
Concrete (8) Abstract
Reactive (4) Emotionally Stable
Deferential (4) Dominant
Serious (5) Lively
Expedient (3) Rule-Conscious
Shy (6) Socially Bold
Utilitarian (6) Sensitive
Trusting (6) Vigilant
Grounded (6) Abstracted
Forthright (4) Private
Self-Assured (5) Apprehensive
Traditional (7) Open to Change
Group-Oriented (4) Self-Reliant
Tolerates Disorder (8) Perfectionistic
Relaxed (5) Tense

16PF Fifth Edition
Personal Career Development Profile (PCDP)
Singapore Student Assessment

Name : Regina Chen
ID : S89*****D
Date : August 11, 2006

Problem-solving resources

Ms Chen functions quite comfortably with problems and situations that involve abstract reasoning and conceptual thinking. Ms Chen appears to be quite able to learn well from her experiences. She can usually be counted on to use her experience to advantage in solving most problems.

Ms Chen's approach to tasks is usually balanced between getting things done fairly efficiently and having an awareness of the impact of what's done on others involved with her. Ms Chen usually strives to stick mostly to practical and realistic ways of doing things as she deals with life and its problems. She usually pays attention to the everyday aspects and requirements of situations.

Patterns for coping with stressful conditions

The kind of tension that Ms Chen seems to be going through at this time is normal for the most part. She is likely to react to worry or pressure much the same as other people. Generally, when Ms Chen is faced with conflict or disagreement from others, she likes to challenge thoe who differ with her and to clearly state her views on the subject.

Interpersonal interaction styles

On the whole, Ms Chen tends to give about equal amounts of time and attention to the relationship between herself and others. But, she also tends to value some alone time on occasion. She feels most drawn to people who are flexible in the way they think and act and who are able to change to fit the situation at hand.

Ms Chen tends to make quite a bit of room for the wishes of others, and she may give into the demands of others even when it may not be necessary to do so. Ms Chen usually tends to be self-revealing in her relationships with most people. She generally "puts her cards on the table" for others to see.

Organizational role and work-setting preferences

Ms Chen may prefer to take on a leadership role and she may assume such a role with a group of friends or co-workers. However, some members of her group may not see her as a leader and may have some difficulty fully accepting her ways for exercising control and direction over them. Ms Chen generally strives to seek sufficient latitude to bring about changes she believes to be important and necessary. She normally puts her energies, therefore, into trying to overcome feelings or ideas that run against her. She also likes to openly express both positive and negative points-of-view about matters of concern to her.

Ms Chen is likely to feel most at home when working in a relaxed and flexible settings that are not boring or routine in nature. If some structure is necessary, she likes to design it herself rather than having someone else impose it on her. She seldom places a lot of value on sticking to strict rules for doing things that are important to what she hopes to accomplish. She usually does what she thinks needs to be done when she is faced with what she sees as necessary hurdles or restrictions. Ms Chen has most interest for assignments that offer opportunity to learn about many different things. She seems to have an intellectual curiosity and preference for situations that enable her to try her ideas and options for solving problems.

Career activity interests

Analyzing
Investigating, observing and solving problems of a business, cultural, scientific or social nature that requires the use of ideas, words and symbols to uncover new facts or theories - activity characteristics of that performed by people who enjoy working in laboratory and research settings, the mathematics field, and the life science, medical science, physica science, and social science professions. They usually find greater satisfaction being involved with the challenge of work that requires conceptual thinking and analysis of quantitative problems than work requiring extensive interaction with people in group projects.

Creating
Bringing creative self-expression into art forms, literature or innovative products and services - activity characteristics of persons who find satisfaction working in the artistic, literary, drama, musical and performing arts fields. They usually value activities that enable them to express their abilities, ideas and talents, especially those which bear the imprint of their efforts.

Career field and Occupational interests

Career fields directly related to Ms Chen's unique activity interests are:
Art, Writing, Arts/Design, Music/Dramatics, Mathematics.

Occupations directly related to Ms Chen's unique activity interests are:
Architect, Technical Writer, Medical Illustrator, Photographer, Biologist, Art Teacher, Artist, Fine, Musician, Psychologist, Artist, Commercial, Librarian, Sociologist, Translator/Interpreter, Geologist, Physicist, Interior Decorator, Reporter, Physician, Statistician, Chemist, Computer Programmer, Ski Instructor.

Personal career lifestyle effectiveness considerations

Ms Chen's lifestyle tends to show a balance between a desire to have control over many personal and work-related situations and her willingness to adapt to the particualr circumstancess in which she finds herself. Nonetheless, she also generally prefers to have some freedom of choice regarding what things to do and how to proceed. Even though Ms Chen may think of herself as being fairly independent and self-directed, she may not feel as comfortable when she is asked to do a job in which she must rely mostly on her own judgements and decisions as she would on assignments in which others are present to lend approval and support to her. Ms Chen shows about equal preference for personal and work-related activities that involve interaction with people and those that require her to work alone. She shows the potential to profit from personal and work-related experiences. In efforts to learn new ways of approaching problems and situations, she should benefit from on-the-job and other experiences in life.

Ms Chen would most likely function with greater personal effectiveness, both on-the-job and in other personal-career situations, if she would try to be aware of and work consciously to guard against the impact of:
-her tendency to sometimes overlook the need to give enough thought to herself or to take enough time for quiet, deep thinking about things that are important to her;
and in addition,
-taking on activities or assignments that involve ordinary, routine tasks without much creative thought or tasks that may not fully challenge Ms Chen's intelligene or curiosity.
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I should say that whoever managed to finish reading the whole chunk of words is as bored as me.
LOL!

Feel free to comment on the characteristics that could be true, or not.
Though I felt that it's RELATIVELY accurate.
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I am going to start on my holiday homework and study for econs when Monday starts.
Go school early, like eight or nine and do work.
Then afternoon go for training.

Life is so fulfilling!
At least I have something to do.
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I can't wait for Chinese A's to be over!
=D
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Pearlywurly!
Monkey says she wants gathering after Chinese papers.
But I doubt I can go la.
You ask her about it k?
Sorry.. =(

2006-10-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

I am going to:
1. Train like a mad dog
2. Study until the cows come home
3. Eat less
4. Sleep more
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1. Train like a mad dog

Jiao Lian said I improved today! WOOHOO~ All right that means I cannot slack. Focus focus.

I am all ready to fight until I drop dead. I'll be getting my own boots, gloves and long socks! How cool is that. But I don't know when they will arrive only.

Monday, Tuesday, Thursday in TK and Wednesday, Friday in VJ. Got to buck up! I love training in TK man. The atmosphere is so much better. No need to share field with other sports groups and got more balls! Hehe. Oh and the sec ones are so cute!! Oh my gosh, I really like them.
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2. Study until the cows come home

Should I change econs to geog? I know this sounds crazy but I really don't mind studying for geog. So what if I have to cramp one year's work into two months? I SERIOUSLY DON'T CARE.

But but but... Mama says h1 geog only 1/3 is physical. Kns!! Okay now I need some crucial thinking through..

Got GP and math homework. I am forever excited about math homework, but the problem now lies in whether I know how to solve the questions.

MSG..we do this together can..?
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3. Eat less

All right this is not part of my initial plan. It just happens that I don't have time?
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4. Sleep more

Yes I have to! If not more ugly pimples will appear.. ): (chey, since when are pimples are pretty?! yuck)
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I'm damn angry.
RAHH.
I wanna train until I can't think.

2006-10-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

I feel so cheated today.
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My mom wanted to go Bedok Market Place eat brunch.
Blardy hell, we couldn't find the place.
It's NOT the hawker at the interchange there.
Where the fuck is it?!
I still don't know.
So we just settled on QiuLian BanMian and Hokkien Mee.

By the time we finished eating I knew I was gonna be late for training at TKGS.
Then I decided to take a cab down.
Me: Uncle, TKGS.
Uncle: Mana? Oh, where?
Me: Huh?
$5.60 gone.

When I reached TKGS there was no one in VJ pe shirt!
And hence I called:
1. Jia Ying, but she got OP workshop.
2. Mag, also got OP workshop.
3. Angie, ALSO at the workshop, with Clara
4. Diane, having subject combi meeting with her teachers.
5. Bi, on the bus to VJ cause Wee wanted to talk to her.
Now..I know why there was no one.

I should say that I was smart enough to go VJ and wait for the girls.
And I AM glad that I did so.
In the end only Diane and I went for training at..FOUR.
When it was supposed to be two?
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I'm dead beat.
I'm disintegrating slowly.
I'm T I R E D.
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I wanna go out with you!
MSG MSG..
There are SIX things waiting for us to be done:
1. My 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzle
2. Bake cookies
3. Read archie (actually I think this is for me only =/)
4. Watch La Bi Xiao Xin
5. Go Vivocity gaigai
6. Watch a proper movie together
We ARE doing one of the above next week okay?!
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Send me home!
=D

2006-10-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

OP workshop was a total gay shit.
They care about the way you present your slides only.
So to those who have yet to really complete your ppt, don't worry!

Wei Jin is good.
At 1046h.
Me: Eh what time you reaching school? Where are you now?
Him: I'm at home, around two lor.
Me: OP starts at eleven leh.
Him: HUH?! Okay okay I leave house now!
Moral of the story: OP workshop starts at ELEVEN.
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Training was fun!
The sec ones were so cute and friendly.
Jiao lian damn mean to them la keeps calling them stupid.
GRR.
So mean so mean so mean! ><
And in the end Coach treated him ice cream..
T_T (wth)

It poured suddenly, and a nice change of weather at that.
All of us were stunned when Neptune Court started raining and not at VJ.
So we just stared, and got amazed and went, WAHH..Cool sia..
And that was seriously being stupid.
Because the wind brought the peeing clouds over to the field and we had to scramble like eggs to pick up all the balls.
Fk la..then got wet.

Gym session was horrigibly horrigible.
Weight lifting gives me HUGE muscles =(
Really ugly ones too!

The two new girls are...imba.
IP kids jiu shi IP kids.
Sorry for generalisation by they are really imbally bitchy.
Complain and complain.
Don't join lor..
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Okay I've got a small stomach!
Hahaha.

=D

I love being cold.
=D

Fell asleep on the bus?
Missed your stop?
Decided to change to another bus?
=D
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Pearl you don't niao hor.
Hl you also lor.

Nat, =)
You know I know can alr.
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I am your first female best friend!
And you know Things.

2006-10-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY HAD MY SEMBAWANG ROTI PRATA!!

I was supposed to eat that heavenly prata on Sun morning!
But then it had to be postponed to today.

At least Mommy didn't break her promise.
It just got postponed..
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PW was crap.
Wei Jin, Si Rong and I met up to do fun stuff.
Hahahaha!
Nothing much related to what we have to do on Wednesday.

Si Rong mom rocks my tummy.
Everytime go his house sure got something to eat.
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All right, PUZZLE TIME!
I chionged home.
I chionged out of my house.
I chionged for the bus.
Damn tired because I slept for only FOUR fking hours.

Thank you Nat for sacrificing your extra bed to put the puzzle.
But please remember not to sleep on it!
If not I will...whack you dead =P
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I reached home late today so gotta settle dinner on my own.
And guess what?
I miraculously decided to cook my own meal!
Just normal fried rice la.
Chicken frank, colourful beans, cabbage and LOTS OF black sauce.
So my rice practically was a black mountain.
But I loved it..!
Yum yum X)
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Okay I'm sorry.
To everyone who thought I was a cambodian.
I hereby annonce that I am a TRUE BLUE Singaporean.
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Next time..
Another day..

All right patience.

2006-10-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

Retardedness
Madness
Craziness
Extremeness

That's me.
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Today is shopping day at Vivocity!!

FCUK shirts have really loud words.
I bought one which screams: POP BITCH =)

Fred Perry has damn pretty tops.
And expensive ones too.
What the hell la, one shirt costs $169?!
Go kick some ass I ain't that rich.

Moving on..(no t-shirts anymore!)
A blue top, which I don't know how to describe.
Behind is something like a criss cross, but not a criss cross? =/
It says 'Made from Cowboy Material' and it's very comfortable.
Tada, that's it!

Here comes the most shocking part of my shopping trip.
A..DRESS!
Okay, Mommy says (yeah yeah..) I should wear a greater variety of clothes instead of the few pieces of berms and tees.
This piece of cloth, is orange.
It looks more like a sundress to me.
Oh my gosh, what the fuck.
I can't imagine myself in it.
But hey! When I put it on I didn't look that bad k..
Since she felt that it was worth getting then so be it lor.

I LOVE THE BROWN SPAG TOP.
My first ever spag top that I promise I will tear till holes appear.
Don't laugh at me or I will poke you.
I think I look damn feminine la!
This is so freakin' not-me.
But who cares, people change and so do I! =D

Aldo wedges very comfy, but..$169?!
No way man..

Is this GAP the pioneer store in Singapore?
Because I've never seen it anywhere else, not even in town.
So I suppose I should be.
Got hold of a striped long sleeve top which my Mommy's sharing with me.
Followed by a(nother) brown leather belt to match my (sun)dress.
And a black belt for Rason cause his pants are dropping.

Total score: $444

Yay finally snack time at Cedele Bakery!
Organic Soya Milk (which tasted really HORRIGIBLE) for myself.
Double espresso for my Mommy.
Never ever order these two drinks.
The first is..weird.
The second, fills only HALF the coffe cup because it's supposed to be twice the concentration of the normal espresso.
Walao cheat my feelings one lor.
It's like you see the words' DOUBLE ESPRESSO'..and you think: wahh must be damn good la..DOUBLE LEH..
But NO!
Double does not mean it's better!
It simply means that it's bitter(er)..
Cock la.

Then..
Happy Time at PS.
=D

If only I could do the puzzle at your house!
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MSG: Jasm, Eme, Pearl, Nat, Me
Here's our plan dudes:
1. Baking
2. Puzzling
3. La Bi Xiao Xin
4. Gossiping
All to be done at Nat's house, unless there is some other place.

People, set? =)

2006-10-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

I think I read too much into my thoughts.
I think it was just one of those bad days.

My apologies to all who somehow got affected this crap.
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I'm exhausted.

Mentally
- PW

Socially
- Where have all the little movie and gossip sessions gone to?

Economically
- Bo lui liao (Is the bank nearby?)

Emotionally
- Isn't being exhausted a feeling? Crap.

Physically
- Try being ill from flu + cough + sorethroat

Intellectually
- Yes I am stupid, cannot is it? =D
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Tomorrow is a day worth looking forward to.
SHOPPING!! X)
With Mommy and her credit card and loadsa vouchers.
Hehehe.

I shall get a really cool puzzle and start fixing it until I'm done.
Like literally, no food no sleep.
The other time I saw this freaking retro Mickey one but it costs a damn hundred.
So I could only dream it, sigh.
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Justin is my eight year old cousin.
Jocelyn is his sister, six years old.

Just now in the car:
Justin: Uncle (my dad) only got one hand how to drive home?
Mom: Haha you see.. Uncle is a superwoman.
Jocelyn: HUH? SUPERWOMAN? HAHAHAHA!
Justin: (blur face) (starts laughing like some gay shit several seconds later)
Mom: Little boy, you're very slow you know?
Jocelyn: (points at him and goes) Ah ha ah ha.
Justin: (continues laughing like some gay shit)

Okay my Mommy said that on purpose -.-
No other intentions!

2006-10-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

Eff and Blind.
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Emotions overwhelm me whenever I'm alone.
This is partly why I don't wanna go out.
Because after that on the way home, I'll go nuts in my own world.
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I went out with Wei Li and Yvonne to get Monkey's present.
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All I want to say to YOU is, Fuck.
Do YOU care?
Sometimes I think YOU are quite unreasonable and selfish.
Won't YOU just drop dead NOW?

Damn.
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What in the world have I done?
Who the hell cares about 'a speck a dust'?
Am I a creation or a sin?
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Thrust and Parry
Born and Dead

2006-10-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

Would it be better if I was invisible?
Then I'd be spared from the misery that I create.
Perhaps I am a devil behind the curtains, controlling the puppets on stage.
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Dear God,

Please don't let agony and angst manifest. It is fine if I had to shoulder them all alone. As long as everyone else around me is happy and freed from unhappiness, I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep them that way. If I could, I would invent a cure for Aids; if I could, I would stop premarital sex; if I could, I would ensure that all the children on this world had enough food to fill their bellies; if I could, I would give everybody a birthyday bash each year; if I could... I don't really give a damn about my birthday so why should others? If I could, I would erase me off their memory banks. I'd rather love than be loved. It's much easier that way. What if the tears that flowed from my eyes could drown all else but plain joy? I wouldn't mind. Really. I wonder, about how valleys and mountains are formed. Plate tectonics, did you say? I just wanted to find out. Nothing else matters if I had you, my Lord. Would you please embrace me in your warmth before The Sacrifice?

Love

2006-10-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

Walking past timeless in picking up roses
Why hadn't their thorns pricked deep into the naked paws

Engulfed in a shadowy mist
Unbreakable it seemed

Buried in a deep abyss where darkness roamed
The absence of complexity solace had seeked

Wrangled in a bloody crusade
Soldiers wrenched and withered

By dawn when the first light appeared
Perforated toy and victim both alike. Gone.

2006-10-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

Mrs Chan is leaving.
I'm neutral towards this piece of news.
No matter how witty or funny she says the new guy Principal is, I'll remain skeptical.

Today's farewell for her ended on a happier note rather than a sad one.
There was the choir, dance and band performance, and most importantly, the teachers'.
I must say that the teachers here are quite extraordinary.
How the hell do they find time to mark our papers and rehearse for the singing at the same time?
This shows why I'm here - to learn how to manage my time.

I think all these were done in a rush.
But overall, it was a job well done.

I loved the video created by InfoComm.
They are undoubtedly a talented lot.

I suppose I'll miss Mrs Chan, only for the half days and full days she gave.
Because that's all that I can remember of her.

I still miss Ms Susan Leong.
Sincerely, I hope that she's doing fine in AJ.
No matter what happens, she will still be the best Principal to me.

God bless.
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All righty!!
Class outing at Marina Square.
Yi Zha, Zhi Ren, Zi Zhao, Ying Hao, Nat, Rachel, Chia, Ginny, Shayne + sister, Koh Shing, Wen Xiu, Me.

Not really much of a class outing, I thought.

We went Carl's Jr for lunch and I was stunned.
By the portion of the burgers.
Seriously, I think what Nat ate could last me the entire full day, which was equivalent to my three meals.
It was FREAKIN' HUMONGOUS.

After which was Death Note.
I can't believe that I actually fell asleep half way through the movie!
It wasn't boring but it's just not my kinda flicks.
Oh well, exposure to genres I shall take it as.

Nothing special happened.
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Oliver is his name.
Gay is his surname.
Hello, Mr Oliver Gay =D
(I tagged you!)
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It tickles me to know how I get to know some people.
Hahaha, yes tickles.
Isn't it funny when you don't remember how you know them?
Friends or friends of friends?
HMM...
I know I love screaming HI to people most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder if I know them.

But there are special cases where I would rather pretend that I don't know some people, and pray that they don't see me.
I want an Invisible Cloth.
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My mom's spaghetti was..IMBA.
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I wanna bake cookies!
Let that be our first MSG activity =)

Emelin, I feel really bad leaving you out today =(
Please don't bite me.
Hahahaha.
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I feel deranged.

2006-10-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

How many times must I repeat??

I AM A CAMBODIAN WHO LEARNS AND SPEAKS CHINESE.

Don't laugh hor.
Not funny lor.

2006-10-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

Yay I think today is the best day so far.
Break break (ponned chem lec) break break (no pe for me) break break math tutorial bio tutorial.
And the end of school.
How exciting..
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Muah chee sales not bad la.
I was just being skeptical.
Sorry Guo Jie!!
Everyone (I insist that it is everyone!) said that it was yummy! =D

$0.80 became $20.
Damn good feeling.
Sold four packets of the sai flour.
Although it isn't a lot but I must say that it was good enough.
I mean, look at the student population.

Thanks to all who contributed to the fund for building materials!
Good for those who bought from me because I gave extra + a lot.
Hahahahaha.
Thanks again!
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Almost had a muah chee fight again.
*Memories*
I wished we had, acutally.
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Chilled out with Ethel, Sam and Nat in the tree house until six pm.
Too bad our 'Gossip Reporter cum Channel' was busy.
Hohoho.

PLEASE DO NOT SPREAD TO ANYONE ABOUT WHAT I SAID.
Serious serious.
I still need my brain.
I still need my hair.
I still need my (not-so-small) eyes.
I still need my mouth.
I still need my ears.
I still need my nose.
Basically, I don't want my head to be chopped off la!
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Everyone is shunning someone.
Everyone is hoping that he will see that lucky someone.
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Oh my gosh.
My heart stopped beating when I called him.
That freaking monster.
I HAD NO FREAKIN' CHOICE!
Ethel, Sam and Nat understand.

Someone please go with me to see him tomorrow..
I'm really really SCARED.
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Today damn high and hyper for me ah.
GP results were better than expected.
I passed overall! X)

I've learnt that if you don't expect too much, you will be a happier person.
It's the over-achieving feeling that owns.
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The haze ain't getting better.
People, please do take care of your health!

My nose is killing me, and so is my throat.
Cough and sneeze and cough and sneeze.

Fuck la I wanna go for training de leh.
Somemore today's at TK.
But then I got MC until friday..
RAHH.
So means no training for me tomorrow also..
*drops head and sighs*

2006-10-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

I feel really screwed without a schedule.
I must know what's coming up.
The emptiness of not knowing what to do kills me.

I hate doing things last minute.
I hate rushing against time.
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My white blood cells are waging a war against the viruses.
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Cough, pain.
Sneeze, pain.
Die, no more pain.

But I don't want to die.

I promise I will be a good girl.
I will eat my health supplements.
I will go for regular training sessions.
I will do my homework.
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But for now, I just feel like sleeping.

2006-10-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

How fucked up can today get?

First:
Forgot to bring glove for training

Second:
Flu + Cough + Sore throat
(blessing in disguise)

Third:
Slept through Math lec and the freaking OP crap
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Okay first.
It took me really long to realise that I didn't bring glove.

Digress a bit..
The three period GP lesson was cancelled because Ms Chia had to moderate our results.
That means serious shit.
I have no comments.
Got S for econs already so now I'm numb.
So during this break,
Emelin, Bird, Nav, Jasmine, Si Rong, Zhi Cong, Nat, Yi Zha, Me
Went to parkway to eat lunch!
And had a mini birthday celebration for Si Rong =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PW MATE!!!

Back on track..
So after that we came back school and had to go for chem tutorial.
And i went.. FUCK!!!! MY GLOVE!!!
Sigh.

That's when I decided to visit the doctor.
So that I have a reason to skip training and won't kena scolded by Jiao Lian and Coach.
Sounds stupid? (cause I am. WHATEVER LOR.)
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Next second.
Yes I am sick AGAIN.
I've got a really weak body and immune system.
A few late nights sleep and I crumble.
Why am I like that??
I hate falling sick.
I am allergic to pain killers.
It sucks big time and around the time.

Ding dong bell pussy in the well.

But no couldn't go see doctor after school cause must buy muah chee ingredients.
So went off with Guo Jie to serangoon central to get the necessary stuff.
After that chiong-ed off to Farrer Park to see Dr Ng.
I feel darn bad now la..
His clinic closes at 1645h (I think) but he waited until 1730h so that I can get my consultation.
Oops.

_____

Finally third.
Sleep is very important.
Because I got no sleep, that's why I got more pimples.
What the heck right.
Conclusion: I should sleep more.
That's it man.
THAT'S IT.

I'M GONNA SLEEP UNTIL THEY DISAPPEAR.

Which means my ass will grow flowers.
What colours you want?
Pick your orders.
They grow until very prettaye.
Cause got fresh fertilisers.
_____

I love MSG.
I don't how to say, not very good with words.
Thanks Emelin and Nat.

Where is our first outing...?
*waiting patiently*
No need movie la go out chill or eat or pool also can.
I'm fine with anything de.
_____

I don't know what I want in Life now.
God please help me.
):

2006-10-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

The Used - I'm A Fake

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife.
_____

Hold true to your promises.
If you said it, DO IT.

It is really disappointing when you tell me something, but after that you just apologise and pretend that nothing has happened.

That is a random thought.
_____

I don't want to do any R papers..
Spare me the agony of studying during the holidays please.
_____

How to get rid of pimples?
The one on my cheek is pissing me off real badly.

It's DESTROYING my prettaye face!

Hahahaha.

_____

Emo.
Deep in depressing thoughts.

2006-10-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

I didn't want to come home.
It's disappointing and depressing.

Knowing that my mom doesn't pressure me to do well makes me want to do REALLY well.
Ironic isn't it?

But I don't dare to tell her my grades.
For fear of disappointment.
_____

Tomorrow shall be the unspoken word.
_____

Shit la.
I cannot hide anything from my mommy one.
That's because I'm not private at all (stupid 16 PF)

2006-10-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

Have been feeling really crappy these few days.
_____

Daddy's arm got injured.
There's some crack in his bone somewhere I don't know where.
From his fall in Florida state.
Ouch.
So now he can't drive me to school until he recovers.
That is TWO bad things.
_____

Either I am stupid or I didn't work hard enough.
Or maybe it's both.

The results I get are quite shitty.
I don't believe that I did that badly, SERIOUSLY.
Sigh, what in the world has happened?!
I swear to God I studied and mugged.
But I just don't think that I deserved such grades.

Everyone is saying "aiya over already, don't think about it"
I think if you really don't think about it, you should just drop dead.
It's your life, YOUR RESULTS.
Don't you care about yourself?
Okay at least think about what went wrong so you can learn from it.
But not even thinking about it?
Fuck off man.
_____

I'm jealous of smart people.
Yet at the same time, I'm happy for them that they are smart.
And that they do well.
So the question is, should I feel sorry for myself for being stupid?

Some people don't have to study and can still score like mad.
Imba.

Some people study their arses off and still suck at everything.
I belong to this category.

How about you?
_____

My next point is..
My freakin' brother is really intelligent.
Like hello?
He can score 269 for school prelims la.
And the pissing thing is that I have never seen him study.
No books, nothing.
Just lying on the bed, SLEEPING.

But yeah, I am proud of him.
MY BROTHER =)

At the same time, why does he have a stupid sister?
_____

I canNOT stand people who smirk.
Got good grades then good for you la.
Need to "smile and grin" until the whole world knows meh.
Ugh.
You're such a bitch.

Disappear from my sight NOW!
_____

I'm worried for Nat and Juliana.
I want them to follow up.
But Juliana's case is kinda tough.
Sigh.
Want to console also don't know how.

Nat, please remember.
9-2=7
_____

MSG.
Nat, Emelin and Me.
=D

Glad that you guys have been there all the while!

2006-10-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

I watched Softball match for the first time.
And it was at Coach's house.

Saw Jiao Lian in action playing for China.
1996 Game.
It was cool.
DAMNN COOL.
Lovely.
Elegant.
Everything was so right.

But the Game was not a fair one.
China vs USA.
Obviously biased towards the ang mohs la.

Great fun watching and playing with Coach's dog.
_____

Yesterday's Open House wasn't too bad.
But there was nothing special either.
_____

Give me a butcher knife.
I need to chop off my fats.
No, you can keep the chopping board.
Thanks for offering.
_____

My face is getting from bad to worse!
Everyday, I sleep less and less.
Everyday, pimples are getting more and more crowded.
Like, HELLO.
It's not a pasar malam where you can come and place your stall.
And wait for me to clear up the mess the next day.
Or the week after that.
Just don't visit me, PLEASE.
With cherry and ice cream on top.

2006-10-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

A tip to guys entering NS:
Drink red bull before you go for any SOC.
(Standard Obstacles Course right? Not very sure.)

Anyway that speaker bored me out totally.
Like wtf puke also must tell us in details meh?!

But the discussion was enriching I must say.
Cause it gave me time to sleep.
(:
_____

Tomorrow is VJ's Open House!
Starboard: Come to the Right Side.

Hope everything will run smoothly until you can see the oil droplets on the surface.
Understand?
No?
Neither do I.
_____

Bring me to a skin doctor!
Volcanoes are erupting on my visage
And that is NOT funny.
They create craters which are full of crap.
Cause they collect dust and become dirty and useless.
_____

HELLO =D

2006-10-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

BRAHH.
No entry yesterday because..
I WAS ACHING LIKE A MAD COW WHICH CAN'T STAND PROPERLY.
Oops.
Yes that is very bad.
_____

Today's farewell assembly was funny.
Kinda glad that I made it on time!
Even though I slept until..0655h?
Hahaha damn worn out la.

I loved the teachers' performance.
House comm was OKAY.
And OKAY was an overstatement.
The rest was..not too bad I guess.
Not boring jiu hao le.
_____

Canadian pizza sucks.
_____

CIC - the Place to be.
Very funny meh?

Folded LOTS of hearts using straws.
Therefore my fingers are hurting.
_____

ETHEL IS PRETTAYE!
(adapted from a little boy)

2006-10-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

I think I'm quite insane.
Early in the morning rushed down to Chinatown to buy dessert.
And all this is done within 45 minutes.
Rushed like some mad cow la.
But it was great fun buying food back for my family.
(:
_____

Training today was horrendous.
After a month's break my body was totally like shit.
So.. Tiredness sums all up.
I think I sprained my right forefinger.
OUCH.
_____

Jia Ying says I've got a hard ass!
Wheeyouweet.
HAHAHA.
That's cause she suddenly groped my pigu.
And she screamed:
"OMG REGINA YOUR ASS DAMN HARD!"
"MAG! TOUCH TOUCH! IT'S REALLY HARD!'
=/
A lot of passers-by stared at us.
As usual!!
LOL.

2006-10-11T07:28:00.000+08:00

My two-cents worth on not eating and drinking for seventy-two hours:

It makes me realise how fortunate we are (REALLY).
For us, food is a necessity.
But for those in the developing countries, food is bliss.
Take the Africans for example (as usual).
They don't have enough food to last them a lifetime.
Yet here we are, wasting food like no one's business.
I know it's true that even if we throw away food here, they can't eat it there.
However, NOW it aches to think how those little children are suffering.
Malnutrition and all sorts of food related illnesses.

Therefore I hope that everyone will do his part and try not to waste food.
It is really heart-breaking.
_____

Anyway!
It's time for me to break fast soon!
YAYYY!

I fking hell couldn't sleep at all for the past two nights.
My stomach was darn noisy.
My body was emitted too much heat that the air con couldn't keep me warm enough.
All I could think of was FOOD.
Like seriously.
What can you think of when you're damn ravenous?

So right now.
I have COLD tang shui and COLD pear waiting for me to DEVOURR!!
HAHAHA.
I'm feeling evil.
Wheeyouweet.
_____

WAS: 53cm
IS: 50cm

WAS: 25inches
IS: 24inches (still)

WAS: 49.5kg
IS: 45.6kg

Height still no diff.
(DAMN...)
_____

Thank you Mama for the Hongkee wife's cake!
And the wellie cute Forever Friends keychain!
Hehehe.
Can't bear to use it.
I think I'll just hang it somewhere in my room (:

2006-10-10T12:05:00.000+08:00

Yay!
Down to the last lap.

Nineteen and a half more hours to go.
I've been resisting quite well the past few days.
I won't crumble.
God bless Me.
_____

WAS: 53cm
IS: 51cm

WAS: 25inches
IS: 24inches

WAS: 49.5kg
IS: ??

Okay I don't think I have to comment on my height.
Hahahaha.
NO DIFF LA! =P
_____

I didn't sleep well last night.
Must be my grumbling stomach.
Boo..!
Slept and woke up.
Repeated the procedure a lot of times.
Jin tian hui geng hao!
_____

Wednesday schedule:
No more drumming )':
Morning must discuss Treat for winning Champs for Nat'ls.
Afternoon got training from 1400 to 1900 in VJ.
1900 is the latest.

Thursday schedule:
No more shopping )'':
Morning got YEP briefing at 1030 in concourse
Afternoon got training from 1400 to 1830 in TK.
1830 is the latest.

There goes my holidays.

2006-10-09T17:36:00.000+08:00

I woke up with a blardy headache.
Almost tumbled when I stood up.
_____

I want to fix jigsaw puzzles..
But Sind had choir until 1600h.
So basically I really have to stay at home today and tomorrow.
_____

Thirty eight more hours to go.
I can do it.
I will do it.
With my Mind, Body and Soul.
God bless Me.
_____

Wednesday.
May have training.
I hope it'll be in the morning.
Then afternoon can go chill.
After which, head down to Chinatown just to eat that mango pomello thing.
_____

Thursday.
Eff PW.
Monday and Tuesday got class chalet.
So, group can't make it.
Wednesday is for them to rest from all the rest(fun) they had.
How ironic.
But I'm supposed to go shopping with my mom!

Oh, you ask why I didn't go chalet?
Haha, is my reply.
I have no class.

2006-10-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

There are some people whom I really don't understand.
They are just weird.
_____

My interpretation:

Achieving what you want
But there are certain obstacles that hinder your progress
Some of them actually hurt you
Nonetheless you're willing to sacrifice whatever it takes

2006-10-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

Whoohoo!
I'm damn proud of myself!
An IT idiot actually managed to change the template and everything without much help.
SATISFACTION.
_____

Seventy-two hours.
Sunday 8oct 0733 to Wednesday 11oct 0733.
I will survive.
God bless Me.
_____

DVD marathon!
Just the few of us.
I don't mind if it's just the Eight people.
Joleyn WeiLi PingSiew Crystal Yvonne SiHua Pearl Regina.

I miss ShuYan.
_____

By Jude Pink:

Plucking flowers in my dreams
The sight obstructed by thick mist
Fingers pricked by thorns so cold,
As my blood give life to the pale rose

2006-10-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

Han Loong: My eyes will have smoke later.
Serene Pearl Me: WHY?!
Han Loong: Cause I have dry eyes (ice).
Serence Pearl Me: LAME!!

That was a good joke.
Hahaha.
_____

350ml King Robert Vodka
+
3.0 litre 7-Up
+
1 can of Red Bull
+
Ice cubes aplenty
=
Hell of a Time X)
_____

Mommay says next Thursday go shopping! (:
That's the spirit man!
Hahaha.

But I hope that I won't have to go back to school.
I've been waiting for a very very long for this day to come.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
Don't spoil my little dream.
_____

The haze is getting from bad to worse.
PSI 73
PSI 56
PSI 88
PSI 130

I'M DYING I'M DYING!
I NEED NEW LUNGS!

LOL.
Boo the fire la.
Let's all stand together and douse the flames.
By peeing on it.
HAHAHA.
(I think the boys will do a better job)
SHOW YOUR POWER!!
_____

Reply to Tags:

mandy: gosh if that ever happens he can drop dead alr. GATHERING! lol. aye i mon and tue cannot go out. wed may have training. thurs going out with my ma. fri then go pool with you! can can? PLEASE.. =D

xh: haha so that you can cut equal sizes! um, using the protractor? =/

junkia: ee call you.. ruin my reputation la. hahaha kidding dear!

mandy: you? my agent? i scared >< hurry come back!

2006-10-07T15:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Tiefu!!
_____

I'm in a state of shock.
What ever happened to you?
_____

So fast October already.
It's gonna be 2007 soon.
Then it will be A's.
I don't want to grow up so fast.
It's scary!
_____

But people still ask me
"You primary what ah?"
How comforting.
Thanks for making me feel..'young'.
_____

Stayover was..
Just like that.
Nothing special.
I'm happy that I was there though.
With Pearl and Serene.
And maybe Han Loong?
Hahahaha!
TV + SOFA = US
=D
_____

White Pearl drumset
is NOT
A white elephant

2006-09-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

Wrong day.

Wrong time.
Wrong place.
Wrong attire.
Wrong person.

Wrong individual here.

I'm sorry for what happened today.

Thank you Nat for bringing honeystars!
I guess that's more important than my stupid notes then.
Lol.
Thanks dear! (:

Thank you Yong Jian for calling Lydia!
Sorry for causing trouble ):
I think I shall just stay at home next time.

Thank you Sind for staying with me in school!
Even though you wanted to as well.
And introducing me to your rainbow of songs (:

Thank you Pearl for entertaining my boredness!
Hope I didn't disturb you.
Hahaha.
But VERY long never talked to you, so just bear with it!
I know you miss me too!
Love you darling (X

Have I mentioned that I wanna quit school?
Yeah, that's what I wanna do.
Not because of Promos.
But because of what I dream.
Passion is where I wanna go.

Seriously.
David is right.
JC is just a place for you to think about your future.
Apparently, I feel that I have no future in JC.
Hohoho.

Also.
Study so much for what?!
Not like you will use all those crap in life.
So for those who have found their calling.
Don't ever waste your time.

PURSUE!!! (my booze)

2006-09-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

Talk about transparency.
YEP is like a total stranger to me even though I'm in CIC.
For goodness sake.
Please let at least the exco members know what the fucking hell is going on.
You're not gonna manage this damn thing alone.
You can't.
Hello.
How long did you take to settle the itinerary?
Maybe there is some communication breakdown.
But I can't care much.
At the very least don't make vacuous promises.
When there is problem I am not informed.
Who the hell do you think I am?
I guessed you figured that you can handle it personally?
GO, ahead.
I can't wait to see your mistakes.
I would love to keep my arse off this shit.
But I do have resposibilities too.

I am a human, bitch.

2006-09-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVIN!!

I miss talking to you! Haha. Hope you had a wonderful day (:

2006-09-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

What if I die before I get to live? Will you care about me?

I always feel like hugging everyone when I'm alone.
But when I've got company I feel like screaming at them?

WHY?

I love my friends.
I love everyone.
I'm a caring and concerned friend.
(Don't you dare deny!)

I know this sounds damn gay and cliche.
Nonetheless I wanna say that I love you guys no matter what happens.
I don't wanna regret not saying it.

I LOVE YOU.

(:

I'm a weakling who is afraid to die.

2006-09-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

Unproductiveness is condemned. That word shall cease to exist in my bank of words from now on.

Studying in school is damn fun. Climb shit stuffs. There are so many adventures awaiting you! Today Sind and I hopped over from IP block (the second level of T-block) down to the whatever-roof-it-is-called and to the container classrooms and down to level one! Wheehee.

I don't know where to study tmr. How?

2006-09-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

I am so. Dead.
I am so. Screwed.
I am so. Behind time.
I am so..Sigh.

My legs are kinda tired. Just kinda. After running approx 4k + rooftop trip on tues, 2 rounds on the track for PE + soccer + 8k(with Cong, Nat and Jasm) after school and finally about 3k today. That's..damn shiok. I've never run so much all at once in my life. Chasin' fucking cars? Nah. Hahaha.

All righty! I've got to speed up. I need a catalyst! Some thing/one be this very crucial catalyst please? Lol. There's seriously no time for me to finish all the chapters. Okay maybe there is, but I wanna learn every chapter and topic real well so I can own the hall. Oms. DREAM ON, REGINA!

Yay! It's the weekends again! I'm not happy though. Because Promos ain't over yet. And I have bio spa CD on tues and there is GP ON WED after chem spa A. Everyone please don't forget! Haha.

I need retail therapy! But I don't feel like spending money. Crap la! Kns.. After Promos AFTER PROMOS AFTER PROMOS.

The VS gang is staying over in school to mug tonight. Can study meh? More like talk cock and play lor. Boys. OH. ROOFTOP! Ugh.