love yourself and everyone around you.
Eleven Minutes
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.
Sunday, May 03, 2009
i miss my friends a lot, especially those who took great lengths to do something SWEEEET on specials days. well, at least they bothered to.experiencing a sudden pang of loneliness ):but life still has to go on..
sangfroid and serenity at 23:00
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
dream vs realityyesterday while showering i dreamed that emelin and i have this darn freakin' cool shop at a corner in a crowded mall. it sells clothes, mainly dresses. the interior was simple with hang-down-from-the-ceiling racks lining the two sides of the wall which we hang the clothes on. and a rattan closet near the entrance showcasing our range of clutches and shoes. i am seated at the sewing machine beside the counter doing ruffles and gathers on the dress. emelin is ironing the flowy-satin clothes. everyone is so busy. we dont care whether there is any customer in the shop. we are just doing what we like. (okay eme, i suppose you like that, haha.) and the best part: we design every single piece of art from our heart (:just now while watching tv i dreamed that ethel and i opened a wedding gown boutique. maybe we are wedding planners. i'm not very sure. but one thing i am certain is that we are happy, very happy. i dont know why. hahaha.maybe one day, i will set up a bakery shop that produces cakes in the shapes of pants and skirts (:i want to know my calling so i can plan my future ): i think studying is a waste of time. it's merely a competition of who-can-sleep-less-to-mug-more. i refuse to let myself degrade to that standard, so i sleep 8 hours per day. so what if i cant finish studying everything? so be it! why do you want to live your life as a racer? is it worth it?all i want to do now is learn sewing techniques from my mom, fashion designing from emelin's mom, baking from emelin and cooking from mandy! that's what makes me happy (X
sangfroid and serenity at 18:45
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I am a person who likes to share only happy things with anyone. I like to make myself a fool and look stupid so that everyone can have a good laugh. I dont like to share unhappy things because I dont like people to feel sad with me.I dont think there's any reason for them to be so.I like to keep troubles to myself.I am what I am and no one can change me.SO WHAT HAVE YOU GOT AGAINST ME?I DONT CARE IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS WITH ME.DEAL WITH IT, YOURSELF.
sangfroid and serenity at 22:33
Friday, February 06, 2009
i love my birthday even though it's over alr (: first;ethel left the room at 11.45pm and i KNEW she was up to smth. haha confirm one la, my 'sensibility' not a noob as hers. and as i guessed, she came back with an OREO CHEESECAKE! okay i love cheesecake and have never tried any variations besides the coffee bean and breadtalk ones which are pure. and goodness was it lovely! but, fattening when consumed at such ungodly late hours. haha. so i celebrated the first few minutes of my second-decade with darling ethel.. sweet! hehee. and she tricked me into thinking that my present was a pair of charles&keith shoes cause of the paper bag. totally deceiving. but of course, when i opened the present i was DAMN shocked and happy cause it's a freaking brown fossil long wallet that smells sooooo leatherly. it's the same brown as the handbag my mom gave me. so now i have a set of same coloured wallet, bag and phone. haha. and ethel gave me the breakdown of who paid how much for the wallet. lol, idiot right. i was sincerely OVERjoyed cause i didnt expect her to have the time to go shopping for present due to many many factors which are troubling her now.. hehe. after which yida and jiacheng joined us for the little celebration! and i have no idea how the hall ppl came up to wish me happy birthday. it's well, yeah kinda weird cause they just stood outside the door looking in and i just sat on my bed looking at them. hahah. more wishes for me! (: wonderful.my wish..very hard to come true la. HAHA!THANK YOU ethel and guojie. thank you yida and jiacheng. (size is relative to percentage. lol)second;emelin stayed online to wait for me to wish my happy birthday all the way in minn. cant wait for you to be back in the long hols and go play!!third;DUCK CALLED ME!! HE FREAKING CALLED ME!! at around 0130h.okay that totally brightened my entire day alr (: hehe. i was so happy that i cried. wahh.. xing fu <3>
THANK YOU DARLING DUDU DEAR DUCK <3
fourth;
i ponned bio lecture to go home eat my mom's birthday mian xian. it's this little tradition at home that we must have mian xian on our birthdays, so yeah i travelled home via public transport. like duh.
i could taste the love and well wishes in the whole bowl i just had to finish it CLEAN. nothing left. lol. i love my mommy and she's the best cook in the world cause she knows what i like. hehe.
although it's only a simple lunch it meant a lot to me. it made me more aware of the importance of family and its strength. and that's why they will always be my first priority. (inclusive of duck OF COURSE)
i finally got to relieve the days when i would sleep on the couch after school without bathing! the feeling is damn shiok cause my living room's super windy and the couch has the perfect springy-ness. haha.
how fortunate is that? being able to do that on a birthday. BLISSFUL..just like nehji. EHHH! hahaha.
i love my mommy and she's my role model (:
fifth;
I MET MANDY FOR DINNER~~! this is one of the best moments EVER. we had so much to talk. academic, relationships, crap, and more crap. that's why i have to take mastering communications. because i talk irrelevant things. mama sorry ah i know i interrupted you a few times, but i was excited to talk cause i havent seen you for so long. that time at your house was a short while only, no HTHT. haha.
the present was scary. it's damn retarded la. still say she give gifts according to the person. omg, so embarrassing! lol. damn big and yellow. that's the only description. uh with two dots and a smile too? HAHAHA. all i can say is.. retards give retarded presents la huh =D
and i had my first polaroid photo taken! cool shit i love it. actually everything you have is cool la. even the place you choose. ikea at ALEXandra~ (: cant wait for sat, muahaha. my gosh, you just came online at this late hour when you should be sleeping. tsk.
but thanks anyway mama. you're always my bestie, thank you for being there (almost) all the time! =D
sixth;
went back hall and waited for my surprise in my room. i knew nicole cant rmb where my room is, still say she will come up. haha. oh i knew about the surprise due to an accident email. lol luckily i read one impt line that said, birthday surprise for regina when she comes back hall. seriously man, i would have just nua-ed at home and not return. so jess, dont worry too much! (:
there was the cake, the big card, and lots of hilariously dumb things said and done. haha. and the UGLY game improvised on the spot. this one.. must see facebook, very funny. haha. i cant believe 20-odd guys can still be so retarded it's simply amazing D:
thanks andrew, benny, caleb, desmond, jess, jo, kian boon, mei fang, nicholas, nicole, shuang an and xx for celebrating my big step into the second decade! love you guys and i hope i'll see all of you around more often!
everyone is so nice to me.. i feel so loved (X couldnt stop smiling the whole day. oh, only my bro didnt wish me. but he got into a fight in school so he's excused. haha stupid boy.
actually i didnt want to celebrate my birthday cause i felt SO, old being twennie. was kinda pessimistic about it la. but in the end it turned out to be such a wonderful experience. now i fear for next year. O-M-G. hahaa.
a beeg beeg thank you to all who made my day (:
sangfroid and serenity at 01:40
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
recently i started having superbly mixed emotions, damn high and damn low. one moment i was crazy and smiling and saying hi to everyone but later i'd be really sian and start feeling insecure. it's just damn weird. i wished i had an explanation.
anyways, i cant wait to see my primary school pals again! i've been thinking, and thinking, and thinking of meeting up but there was this lazy thought in my head that went, 'oh dont bother someone will do something'. yeah right, fat hope. and so i realised that if you dont take any initiative in life and do what you wanna, no one's gonna lead you on. people will just stand by and watch, and see you fall. simple as that.
school hasn't been too bad..i guess. except for wednesdays which are my full days. i love nicole for her attentiveness in classes! omg, notes notes notes! hahaha. forever copying from her.
i havent eaten dinner with ethel for quite a long time.. ): she said she want to eat with me but until now still havent jio. ETHEL YOU SUCK. hahaha. but i know you're busy la, so it's okay! sure got chance (: lol.
emelin's back in minn.. i miss her loads loads loads. how can her presence ever be enough?! haha that gila girl. i'm so sorry i didnt manage to see you over the weekends before you flew. but i'm glad i saw you more than once!! =D i even travelled all the way from pulau boonlay to your house can. you should feel so honoured. heh. it's really nice to see you again (: no joke la you pangsai. hahaha. cant wait for school term to be over then we can go out and play!
chinese new year's coming and i'm not feeling exactly excited about it? too soon, too bad. no fun. yucks. TOO FEW HOLIDAYS! mon and tues are definitely not enough. i want more clothes too, but no more tees for me. i want the gai-gai kinda clothes, aiya i dont know how to say cause there are so many types. haha.
and i love mama mandy. she's still the best inspiration. EVER.
sangfroid and serenity at 18:34
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