regina chen zhirong.
yzps/cgss/vjc/ntu.
05 february 1989.
busm follower.
loves nature but hates insects.
loves music and wants all the songs.
loves outrageous fashion.
loves everything about duck.

♥ bake muffins/cookies/cupcakes
♥ hang out with dearest pals
♥ do at least two charity work
♥ go overseas with friends
♥ participate in NIKE marathon
♥ go picnic
♥ fly kite
♥ gpa 4.2

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Sigh. I don't want the new month to start. It's depressing.

Dream On by Aerosmith

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin' clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Dream On, Dream On
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream On, Dream On
Dream until your dream come true
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

written at 22:27

Happy Teachers' Day!

Messaged Mrs Yeo but I forgot to sign off so I don't think she knows who I am. Sigh. Don't have A. Tan's and Mic Chia's numbers.

I think it has become an annual thing to message Ms Pearlyn Cher on Teachers' Day. Or perhaps New Year and X'mas seasons. My dearest P4 teacher. It's like FIVE years since I last saw her in YZ lar. Our crazy moments with Jia Hao, Ling Wei, Jun Bin, Jun Xing, Leonard. Haha. Anyway she has a son now, living in Punggol. It's good to catch up with her once in a while. Oh well. I hope she's doing fine teaching in Nan Chiau Pri.

Today damn sian.

Okay school was all right with a few laughters here and there.. I think the 'Guess The Teachers' game was cool. The staff are really sporty! Didn't realise the PE Dept is so hyped up. But I seriously don't care. Elroy's mic damn fucked up. Couldn't hear him properly. Or maybe it's because of his voice. The othe time Nat'l Day also. Cannot hear the Malay guy. Anyways. Rated 7 out of 10 for this little concert.

After the whole shit thing ended Ethel ,Dawn, Elroy and I chatted by the steps in the Concourse for a long while. Lol. CEDAR is so freaking full of memories!!! Can't seem to emphasise it enough.

Time to go home. Nabeh. I wanna complain about the bus driver of 43 who literally zoomed past the bus stop and didn't stop me me! Like hello? I'm that skinny meh can't even see me flagging the bus down?! Gorge your eyes out ah! Really felt like kicking the damn headlights out. Knn. Go and die lar. Grr. But I wasn't rushing for time so I just waited for the next one =.= oh i got single eyelid only -.-

Slept all the way until 1800. That's..six hours of rest! Yay!

Mug cup glass.

Tomorrow's Teachers' Day.

As I was looking through Friendster pictures of Sec2 classmates I realised how much I miss them even though I haven't talked to them for ages. Not even in Sec3 except Kaiyin and Mumtaz in band pracs. Even so, they'll be with their sections so we can't have an open conversation.

I miss Cedar. A lot a lot. Beyond A lot. Sigh. VJ just reminds me of the more-than-wonderful times in Cedar. Mic Chia (even though he sucks I still think he is a responsible guy), A. Tan (who is forever there for us bunch of monkeys), Mrs Yeo, Ms Leong ETC.. And most importantly Ms Susan Leong who is Principal of AJ right now. I hope she's happy..

There seemed to be an exponential drop in fun and excitement in VJ. Simply horrigible. It's sad to know that you're studying in a place you have no feelings for. I don't like the environment and ambience. Stiff competition with darn pretense from people who apparently study and yet tell you that they don't. Got study then say lar. Hide what lor very malu meh. Siao. But I like the people. I must admit that my class is a fun-loving bunch with SOME of whom are so fun-loving that they have to pon lessons =P okay NAT I'm not refering to you =D

It's the few of you who make me wanna go school. The exclusive pack. Yes Nat you're included. Haha. Plus the other NICE guys. YOU ALL ARE MINE! LOL

Sia la.. Blisters on my hands. Left one is on the thumb right one is on index finger. Damn gaowhey. So nua so irritatings. Feel like popping it. But then I wanna see them dry up too. Hehe. Got these cute little things from Softball training, swinging the bat without gloves on. Darn hurtful. Ouchy.

JiaoLian very fierce. Fierce as in hiong not strict. Made us lift weights like nobody's business. Then so embarrassing can.. I so weak (because and only because I didn't train at all!) so almost couldn't do the last (fifth) set of arm training. Tired leh.. Eh Nat help me lift weights! I don't want buldging muscles! Cong also can help! Hahaha. Baka. My left and right arm muscles are so uneven I hate looking at them. Really lor. Left side so small then right side so big. Very nan kan leh.. Okay got to train with Yinghao during the hols. Mainly throwing and catching since we got ball and gloves but no bat ): boo..

All right I think I should go sleep soon. Haven't been getting enough rest the whole of last week and this week. Elroy says my dark rings are getting obvious. Cucumber to the rescue!! Do they actually help? Have never tried before. Lol.

OMS (oh my shit)!!! I ate a mountain of chocolates today! Nabeh. All the fats will go to my thighs and tummy! Wanna see my soft and bouncey tummy?? =D At least didn't eat Bounty which has 7.3g of fats per serving. Ritter Sport cornflakes and butter biscuit is wellie yummy.

If I ever think of running the fats away, I can never finish running.

A: Alcohol
B: Boys
C: Chaos / Condoms
D: Drugged
E: Excitement
F: Fuck
G: Grope
H: High / Horny
I: Intimate

Okay Sind and I have limited england power to go all the way to Z. Yawl get the idea don't you. HAHA!! She claims that I always have ABC and occasionally a D (: I think so too =D (like real lor)

Sometimes it's hard to tell someone what you feel about him/her. Afraid that these words will do much more harm than good.

I dislike and detest people who interrupts me when I talk. It really irks the hell outta me. Be glad that I don't scream at you. Maybe that's because I can't be bothered about you anymore.

Don't rob me. I have $756 in my bag. LOL!!

Tell Her by Lonestar

So you say your love's about to end
You say you can't take no more
She's out the door
And your looking for a friend

Who am I to tell you why
But I'm just curious, were you furious
Or did you swallow your pride
And look her in the eye and

Tell her that you love her
Tell her that you need her
Tell her that you want her to stay
Reassure her with a kiss
She may never know unless you
Show her what your feelingTell her you're believing
Even though it's hard to say
'Cause she needs to know you're thinking of her
So open up and tell her that you love her

Brother I've been right where you are now
And my heart was broke
'Cause I never spoke
Those healing words out loud
But I've learned my lesson well
And now every night
Before I close my eyes
I look at my woman and
I ask myself did you

Tell her that you love her
Tell her that you need her
Tell her that you want her to stay
Reassure her with a kiss
She may never know unless you
Show her what your feeling
Tell her you're believing
Even though it's hard to say
'Cause she needs to know you're thinking of her
So open up and tell her that you love her

Tell her that you love her

Tell her that you love her
Tell her that you need her
Tell her that you want her to stay
Reassure her with a kiss
She may never know unless you
Show her what your feeling
Tell her you're believing
Even though it's hard to say
'Cause she needs to know you're thinking of her
So open up and tell her that you love her
Tell her that you love her

I hate doing things last minute simply because I'm a perfectionist! Need time to think and do whatever is needed.

Samuel Yee just pissed me off by telling me that we need a box for CIC and the damn fucking menu BY TOMORROW. What the hell. Got more than one week don't say now then say. Go and die lar. So now the box is freakin' fugly and I am very VERY pissed with it. But then I can't do anything about it ): AHH!!! Crap.

Ponned bio, math and chem tutorials to help out with the Jacket Sale. Response was bad. I was/is/will be skeptical. The samples really sucked. Design and colour kinda clashed weirdly. It's not like green with purple which makes a perfect clash but red lines and yellow words are just too cheena. I mean it's like CNY deco or something. I don't mean the condemn the designer. However. If I were anyone else. I seriously won't buy. Like DUH. Hello..I don't have the guts to wear it out on to the streets. Or rather. I don't have the figure to carry off this wonderful design =P Mean mean mean. (I'm a nice bitch)

Oops didn't know today got Gym. Honest little bitch messaged sirWee to tell him that she didn't bring attire. Phew.

I will learn Blind one day. Even though I can't sing for peanuts and cashew nuts and walnuts and whatever nuts there are.

My favourite song. Check out Junkiat's blog for the video.

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I wonder. Why do I do so much for my friends? What do I get in the end? I don't wish for any material rewards, just a long-lasting relationship.

Once during the june hols i travelled all the way to school FROM MY HOUSE to lend Fel a towel because she forgot to bring hers to school.

That was only one of the many examples. Okay anyway. I'm willing to go many extra metres to help a friend, but will they do the same for me? I don't want to know. What if the truth hurts?

Say, one day I die (which I definitely will). Who will attend my funeral? Will those close to me, except my Family, grieve over my death?? I don't want to know.

I love you guys. Anytime anywhere if anyone of you needs my help I die die also will try to be there for yawl yeah? (:

I swear. Any lotion that says TONING burns you. Literally. The stinging sensation is damn shiok. Got this free sample lotion that says "Tones Body" and had the urge to try. Haha. Just curious. But quite nice eh, the feeling. Oh well. Call me vain and/or masochistic I don't care. Nehnehnipoopoo! =P

Chelsea lost lar. Okay old news. Nonetheless! I will continue to hope that they do better than their last season with the addition of Shev and Ballack just to name two (with the subtraction of..sigh). No one in my class talks about footy maybe except the Softballer but he rarely speaks about it. I'm sure he knows a lot. Only that he doesn't say it out. Major Mugger. Chelsea will ascend the ladder of position soon enough. A great start doesn't mean a great end.

Which brings me to another point. Why am I still here blogging?! (And there are those reading this.. Tsk tsk) Dangg.. Cause the Internet is such a distraction when I have to edit PW. Hahaha.

Some guys are just damn bastard. Insensitive pigs. Mama, justice will be done one day! Lol. So far there are only two guys in VJ I think are nice and rather SNAGgy. Two more are just plain nice.

P.S. Dictionary/Thesaurus has a new layout! I love the coloured words (:

A few days back I heard this on Class 95.

"It takes only one tenth a second to judge someone."

That's freaking fast! Quicker than a snap of your fingers. But quite true, isn't it? Who doesn't bitch or feeling like bitching about people they meet? Either way, you will voice your thoughts or keep them to yourself.

For instance. You meet a new girl. Her hair is tussled and unkempt. Her nails are..just disgusting, untrimmed. Her attire is just so tardy you don't even wanna associate with her. What will your first reaction be and what do you think about her? Dirty..lazy..sloppy..messy..? Has friendship or family problems? Okay that is kinda off. But let's just presume.

What if someone comes along and tells you that she is a really amiable and helpful person who keeps her room in perfect condition and is an advocate of say, peace (T_T) Won't your initial views of her change to a certain extent?

It is human nature to judge others the moment we see them. It is our choice to NOT bitch about them.

Shit lar. Actually I hardly have any idea of what I'm typing. Listening to music makes me write/type/speak weirdly. Lol.

Bitch woke up at 0751 but lazed in bed until 0814. It's so Me (: Ate wanton mee for breakfast when Mommy tabao then went down to school for PW.

Daddy wellie nice and sweet! Asked him to drop me off at Dhoby Ghaut so I can take 36 to school then he go to Holy Hall but he insisted on driving me all the way to school.

Surprise surprise..! I'm not the earliest to reach today! Haha yuzhao was there quite early because she messaged me to ask me where I am at 1007 and somemore I just nice got down the car. Sorry yuzhao wasted your sms. Hehe. Si Rong claimed that he reached earlier than me but that's not true! However. Since I'm such a nice bitch I shall let you be earlier than me for once =D

Okay chiong and slack. What anti-thesis. Anyways I must say that we accomplished more than we ever did in one session -a pat on everyone's back-

After like four and three quarter hours of work we decided to play Softball! Emelin\Ren\Jin\Si Rong\Regina played for half an hour and went home. 1515

Not bad a day eh. Haha.

A little trivia: How many planets are there in the Universe now?

Pluto's no longer a planet!
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2006/08/060824-pluto-planet.html

The 12 possible planets
http://www.universetoday.com/2006/08/16/officials-propose-12-planets-in-the-solar-system/

The planets are named after Greek gods
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Planets_and_gods

Interesting stuff. Okay got to go makan dinner downstairs. Then go walk walk see if need anything. PIMPLE CREAM! eff..

Mixed feelings after the visit to IMH.

Pre:
Totally nervous and scared of what's gonna happen and dependent on Elroy and Sind to guide me along

During:
At first we joined this activity organised by North Vista Sec, helped the patients there a bit but I didn't interact with them at all because I have absolutely no idea how to strike a conversation with them. Subsequently at another ward, I learned how to open up and really talk about random stuff to them like asking simple questions such as "Hi, have you eaten?" "Oh, how was the food, did you like it?" "How was your day?"

Most shocking conversation was with this patient who is so suicidal. But I don't think it's her fault at all. It should be the society and perhaps the government. Apparently, she studied in CJC and moved on to Swiss Cottage due to some stuff. Scored A2 for Chi Lit B3 for EMath; her results were considerably good with an aggregate of 12 points. Sadly, she could't handle the immense stress brought about by JC life and so decided to transfer out. The worst part was when she was describing to Sind and I how she slit her wrists. It was really really horrible and heart aching. Her diary entries were darn depressing and I pitied her lar.

Post:
Quite relieved that I had done something considerably risky whereby I could have gotten serious physical injuries because a patient actually ripped off another's eye lid =/ gory scene I presume. Oh no that was what I heard from Elroy and Sind. Wonderful sense of achievement too.

Right now. I am just thinking why I'm studying so hard. What if I went crazy too? Choy touch wood. But it's possible don't you think? I mean. The government and society are putting so much stress on academic achievements such that many young people have forgotten their roots like how they should respect their elders and return to the society which has provided for them in some way or another. So what if they suceeded in life? Will they be really happy?

Will I be really happy?

Crap. Okay I shouldn't bring feelings out of that place as advised by Elroy and Sind. Just leave them all in there and continue with what I have to do. Like STUDY. Grr.

I wanna take my SATs and aim for an Arts scholarship. I don't care what others are gonna say. I've set my goals on Arts since long time ago. Just that..my parents are kinda particular about the subjects I take. I don't blame them lar. Whose parents won't want the best for their children right? It's the freedom of choice that I long for. Elroy suggested some SADAM school. Singapore Arts ?? and Media?? Lol. I have no idea. Gonna check it out.

All the best to Elroy and his interview! (I know you'll never read this but still. Just feel like saying it out.) Haha. Hope that you'll get through, study fashion, start your own brand of fashion line and INVITE me to be your advertising manager or something. Hehe =D

Got to start mugging. Didn't meet the goals that I set last week. Somehow ah things crop up when I have plans. I seriously need to get some work done. It is so overwhelming that I don't where and how to start ):

No long post today. Right arm damn suan and I'm wellie tired. Slept for only five hours last night T_T

Softball was..embarrassing I should say. Cause the net was beside where the hockey girls were training Me the Noobie was like fumbling with the ball =/ Okay not really fumbling. It's because Mag very pro then I look like..noob lar. Lol. But I like the game.

Monday - Gym
Tuesday - CIC
Wednesday - Softball
Thursday - Gym
Friday - Softball (in TK which I won't be going)

So there goes (almost) my other four days.. Haha.

JC life will be like shit if we don't have fun. Why bother about academic so much? Wait until Prelims lar. Don't kan chiong.. "man man lai.." Coming thus far is just a faster way to get into Uni which I think will be busy. So might as well spend the time now to play and enjoy the most out of it. Not that CIC isn't fun but it is just not enough for me. Hehe. I need a large dosage of fun to stay alive.

I'm a sucker for sports as well. That kinda explains why I decided to join Softball too. Hmm. And it's only until next year comp then no more Softball! Haha slacker.. Not bad la. Then after that join Band for a few weeks. Heh "hen hao wan". I like!

Sigh. Jackets..

Oh. This post isn't that short. LOL

Oms.. Internet these few days kns sibei snailey.

I have a few people to thank today. Feels like some award presentation thing. So honoured. HAHA!

First is Daddy. He helped me find a relevant article for my PW. Actually it's more like he came across this article and thought that it'd be helpful so he left it on my table. Lol. But still it's an effort which I really appreciate.

Second is Charcoal, for accompanying me back. Even though I felt that it's perfectly fine for a girl to go home alone at night. Lol. Thanks babe! Here's the story. Jasm and I went to Igloo to study cause got air con and there were like only FOUR people inside (the CT reps) despite the time being 5pm. Then jumx came in and asked if we're gonna eat dinner in school and that got me really excited cause I wanna mug in school. And so I did! Until 9pm somemore wor.. Zai right! Haha. Mugged with Cheng Wei, Sheue Ying, Jasm and Charcoal. Then at like 9pm we packed up and waited for Shueue Ying's papa to come pick her up so we four (Jasm went back to ODAC room) squeezed into the back of the car. Hehe sibei hao xiao. So her papa dropped Charcoal and I at Tamp MRT. But then he got straight bus home don't want go insisted on accompanying me home. Yeah so thanks a lot for that! I'll treat you cake someday (:

Thirdly is Sheue Ying, who leaked almost the whole chem lec assessment out. Okay good for those who read this. Periodic Table: Reaction of SiCl4 and SO3 with water and mainly from page 22 onwards. Organic Chem/Alkanes: 14marks of the 35mark paper. Question 1. Mechanism must write a total of 5 equations. One for initiation. Two for propagation. Two for propagation. Stereoisomerism (Chirality and Cis-Trans). Bonding: ICl4-. Square planar. Know how to draw the electrons. Thermochem: Hess' Law. Not too bad. Overall comment for the test was okay, better than the one we had IF we studied (:

Fourthly is my Mommy! For keeping a cold juicy red watermelon for me. Hehe.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

Fuck Kellie Ta lar.. Our WR that bad meh?! KAN.. It's just that we exceeded word limit, put our ideas in point form and charts and tables and included sibei 'useless' pictures that don't say much about our project. Okay it sounds bad =/

WEE ASKED ME TO JOIN SOFTBALL!! =D And what reason did he give? "I think you look rugged enough" T_T WAHH.. I'm sure that's a very good reason lor. But no! I am a devoted CIC member! Haha craps. No time lar. Daddy says if I can manage my time then go ahead and seeing that I'm usually sleeping at like one in the morning he suggested that I just keep the status quo and stick to CIC, in case I abandon it if I join softball. SO! Do community work..more meaningful then getting whamed at by softballs which are supposed to be softer than baseballs but aren't soft at all. Hehe.

I guess this week has been quite lucky for me. Clinched a deal with Authority despite getting fucked at WR.

Ivan sucks Keith rocks. I'm sorry. Maybe I shouldn't have interferred. Paiseh hor.. Really really I didn't know Ivan so inefficient one. Feeling quite remorseful now ):

Eutrophicated euphoria!! (X

First was the internationally recognised Nehemiah Award given to Community Involvement Council. The feeling was just too overwhelming. Blardy hiaow MY cca leh!! Lol. Sibei song man. Now we got recognition liao so must make use of it. Hope at least 80% of the population will support the Jacket Sale cause we wellie need the fund. It's for a freakin' good cause! (:

Second thing. WDA is interested in our project. "Great minds think alike", like whatever lor. They say they thought of the exact same thing a week before we sent them the proposal and crap. Go and die la. I don't care if they have the same idea as us. As long as my PW not screwed I happy le. So what if WDA wants to implement it? I have no comments. Just don't come and ka chiaow my brain can le. Tor long tor long hor. I am happy about it that somebody BIG is supportive of our idea la but then support jiu hao liao don't make it too massive for us to handle. Bai tuo xie xie.

The end of the week signals the start of another one. Sigh.

I hardly look forward to school unless the next day is a Tues because got CIC. However now I can't wait for Tues to be over. There is nothing worth being excited for. Not even my class. Bah.

Woke up at 11 because Mommy drew the curtains. Apparently I wake up when the sun shines onto my pigu. So, no sun=koon longer. And the worst thing is that the more i koon the more i wanna koon. Damn shit right. Waste time only. Went to bathe ate cereals and back to slumber land (:

BTG 'discussion' was more like a repetition of ytd's stuff, with exactly the same ppt slides just that Uncle Yap is SOO much better than Loser Sam. His talk was like WOW and Sam's was like EH?

Me: "Why you don't let me study Fashion and Arts?"
Mommy: "I never say I don't let you hor."
Me: "Then why am I in (blardy fucking lj cb) VJ?"
Mommy: "You finish tak cek in VJ then go study Arts la.. peh yio what.."
Me: "But then like that waste my time leh. Might as well straight away study Arts right?"
Mommy: "Aiya just finish your A's first and go Uni. You know ah kor want to go also cannot go? He study poly then results kns now cannot enter U regret."
Daddy: "Get your basics and slowly progress. Next time want to study what then go la."
Me: "But I wanna study Arts. Do advertising or designing."
Daddy: "After you get your degree and study also can what."
Me: "(Nabeh) Then waste how many years of my time leh!"
Daddy: "Must get degree then easier to get job. Same example as a teller and bank officer. Teller no need high education one. Just sit there entertain people. But bank officer different. Do better things."
Me: "(Ee guai lan people. No life.)"
Mommy: "Now we can pay for your studies then study what you can. Next time we no money then you jialat. Want to study also must part time."
Me: "Aiya...I wanna quit school.. Study all these bio and chem for what no use in my future at all."

I think they knocked some sense into me. As usual. Weihui told me that Arts fac in Uni no need very good results one. So I suppose if I still wanna study Arts I can. Even if I don't have the basics. I hope.

I'm such a sucker for fruits. Cannot live without my small apple (:

I shall do a Silent Departure.

EFF YOU SEE KAY.

My brain has limited memory space. And so does my com. Deleting memories and files to make way for new crap.

URGH!!! Pissed pissed pissed with myself for doing NOTHING productive today. Unless editing the fuckin' WR counts. I don't know why I'm bothering to do this shit when half of my group doesn't really ask about it. What's the point what's the point what's the point? Arse lar. RAHH!

Being at the Holy Hall wasted my ENTIRE day. Only Idiot talks about things that Idiot thinks we don't know. Like what the hiaow. You go eat shit and tell me how it tastes like lar. Anyway! Idiot just bored the hell outta me. Who in BUSM doesn't know that the basic guidelines of BTG? You tell me you tell me you tell me. Even my six year old cousin also knows lor. Only you Idiot thinks that we, a group of smarties don't know. Go look into the mirror mans. Oh..wait. I think it'll crack even before you look into it.

1. Think Good. See Good. Hear Good. Speak Good. Do Good.

2. Fear nothing except God.

3. Pray to the Creator to save your soul.

I doubt I am obliged to clear any doubts regarding my entries. Just read what you see.

My wrists really hurts.

Why should I care about you when you don't care about me? Since I'm so unimportant then I'm not sorry to say that I don't care about you. There's no big deal in losing some friends I guess. Useless.

I've set my mind on mugging from Mon on. All the way till Promos. Stay back in school until my pa comes to pick me up. IF he does. Anyone else is free to join me. Just don't disturb. I want to maintain and hopefully improve my grades though I think it's not that easy. Lady Luck doesn't come by all the time.

And scars are what you get if you regret.

Waiting for my hair to dry..

Ain't a bad day afterall. Screwed up chem mock spa real badly. I totally had no fucking idea how to conduct the heating experiment because I didn't attend that practical at all! And the worst thing was that there was only ONE practical for that. So my readings were damn wrong and I still wrote 'NO ANOMALY'. Rahh. Then I couldn't finish writing my no anomaly part for the second experiment because I forgot what time it'd end! Oh well. It's just MOCK. Lao sai.

Cong\Ren\Rach\Winx\Si Rong\FatPoh\Regina\Chm\Yizha
ECP was blardy fun! Even though the weather sibei zua but still we enjoy ourselves! Okay at least MYself. Haha. I tried blading and fell. And my wrist is hurting. Ma says either sprain or bone crack. Knn. Now a bit swollen. But I think it was worth it. Call me weird or anything. I don't really care. Si Rong bought a freakin' can of Tiger Beer in his VJ tee! Yikes. After an hour on blades we decided to switch to bikes. Lol.

It's starting to hurt when I type.

Dinner at PP Swensen's wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Five seniors came and only three juniors were there. Shidah left before Ginny came. Okay so that makes it four. Ate sirloin steak medium well but then like got NO blood at all. Lousy cook. Hmm. Weiyi talked a lot of crap as usual. Funny guy (: Haha. Charcoal helped me carry the useless and heavy book. So I decided to sit in to the terminal with him. If not like so bad.

DAMN PAIN!! Oww ):

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Sleep through h3!! Bah. Shouldn't have gone today lor. Sian ka buey si. Then hunger set in. cong: "Wahh I can hear your stomach." me: "Yeah. Really very hungry." =/

I wonder if I'll regret the decision I made. I hope not. Peoples' comments do change the way I think to a certain extent. But usually I try to prevent that from happening. Even so, those words just get into my head ):

Tomorrow is chem mock spa B. Next Thurs got chem lecture assessment. Why so few tests only?! Cedar schedule was packed with tests until I grew immuned to them and eventually fell in love with them (X

I wanna try a French manicure. Stylish square nails. Haha!

B-O-R-E-D

PE was beyond fun. Learned a new game. At least the basics. Batting vs Fielding. I prefer the former. Haha.

Short simple sentences. Gets the point across easily.

Oh oh. Library computer lags like shit. Slow like nobody's business. The school should seriously consider upgrading them. Keyboards make squeaky noises. The 'eh eh eh' type of sound =/ How I know? Cause I'm doing this in school la.. Haha. Duffer.

Later got h3. I don't feel like going.. The HOR lecturer just repeats whatever is in the notes when we can just read it on our own. What's the point man. Shall just go there and laugh at him and copy some "In-class Activity" then. I wonder how seniors can stand S lessons. Won't sian meh? Somemore must stay back until so late. My classes end at 1245 and i have to wait till 1540 for the h3 which ends at 1710. One and a half hour -.-

I AM GOING TO WORK!! Excitement. Although the pay isn't that good. Okay it is NOT good at all. But I still wanna try something new. My ma says must stand whole day very tiring but I don't care. I wanna have the feeling of earning my own money and spending it. How cool is that! (X Even if I'm going alone. I don't care! Lol. Gonna work for Challenger but don't know at which section yet. Maybe printers? Softwares? No idea at all. The woman says will call back next week. And must confirm by this week. However I'm afraid that she says cannot work three days only (cause I got Fucking Family3 on Sat). Nine and a half hours. Inclusive of lunchtime. Okay la. Just try lor (: Results? No worries. I guess I'll prefer a grave for myself now (:

For me, experience and adventures are ALWAYS before studies. I mean, what's the use of all the certificates when the real world wants your skills and not your theories. That's why I still prefer Poly (:

Not to say that VJ sucks. But it really does. Right down to the core.

Li xi wa eh blarder. Wahaha. I like that.

Looking forward to blading on friday with my class.. And I hope that more people will be able to go..

Class = Berceuse
People = Tao gay
Class spirit = Dissonace

Nabeh. I need to sleep!! Complexion getting from worse to worst. More weird stuff poppin' out like no skin's business. Haiya transparent bag cut two holes and put over my head =D

Promos die liao. Worry like shit but not working at anything at all. Hehe. Maybe except for PE. But then PE no exams la.. Besides Napfa which is crap. If only I had taken up Sports, Health and Leisure in RP. But then again, I don't like projects. Haha! Bang myself. I KNOW WHAT I WANNA DO!! koon...wake up...enjoyyy.. (:

THANKS PEARLYWURLY FOR THE WELLIE WELLIE NICE HONKEY FOODIE!! (:

I didn't wanna go school today. In fact, I don't feel like going to school everyday. Simply because the school is very unqiue - stress full. Sobs. Today was extremely tiring for me. Boo. Never ever stay up till 2am.

After school was fun though. Heh. Played pool with Nat and Cong using the Igloo's fucking lousy table. Saw Junkiat and You Sian (I just know him as dtgj's friend). CHELSEA WON!! HAH. Liverpool/Arsenal lost. Hope I wasn't too bad since it was my first time at foosball. New friend: Kelvin.

I figured out that I have been getting minor gastrics. I don't know because of what, but I eat all my three meals. Um, perhaps except today's dinner. Eating strawberry flavoured Quaker Instant Oatmeal. Hehe. And of course, fruits later.

Duffy sorethroat makes eating diffy. Hmph.

If only there were more nice boys.

Reply to Tags:
Junkia: It's only the beginning! No worries man! We will help them win! (: Sure one. Close two eyes also know. Wahaha. Orkeh ling link.
Mama: Aiya no war no fun (X that's why we have Mourinho! Hee. Sian lo I think I got no time to watch. Or rather, tampor nia.
Jasm: Eh you sure ah? Set la. One friday we go there chill out in the oily atmosphere for dinner. But a bit far for everyone leh. They all live in the East de. ALSO VERY FAR FOR YOU LOR..but you'll go the distance for food right? Lol. Aiya shit that friend la. He wants people with experience..
Cong: Chelsea will still win Man Utd de lor.. you lousy nehnehpok :P

I stupidly left my handphone at home! Felt damn loserish. Hahaha. And got poked by Rach in the face T_T In the end got home I received messages regarding PW. I really feel like a downright loser mans. Lol

Satisfaction! Ran a bit after lessons and perspired. BUT. I ate fried stuff after that. More input then output >< WHATEVER. I exercised (:

Sigh. If you don't give someone the chance to experience then how the hell can they get experience?!

Cool stuff from Junkiat's blog (sorry couldn't help it hehe):

Her hair glistened in the rain like nose hair after a sneeze.

Her eyes were like two brown circles with big black dots in the centre.

Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.

John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.

The young fighter had a hungry look, the kind you get from not eating for a while.

The ballerina rose gracefully en pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a lamppost.

She grew on him like she was a colony of E. coli and he was room-temperature British beef.

She walked into my office like a centipede with 98 missing legs.

Awakening my lame inner child, I decided to form a few too...

He started praying like a praying mantis.

The mosquito bite swell like Mount Everest shrunk down a thousand times.

I began pouring my feelings like lao sai after drinking tao huey.

Tears streamed from his eyes like the last few drops of pee.

My biceps hurt like a personified broken bicycle.

After breaking up, he was as lonely as a single testicle in the scrotum after the other got removed due to defects.

He was so embarassed that he turned as red as stained sanitary pads.

When he found out he passed his econs paper, he felt as happy as a boy who failed for erectile dysfunction.

His privates were as big as a baseball bat placed between two softballs.

His privates were as small as a half eaten sausage in between two meatballs on a satay stick.

Time flies like nobody's business.. It was Wednesday happy happy shit and tmr must go school.. I don't want..

I wanna be a professional drummer and earn my living drummin' my Life away. LOL.

I wanna have my own band. My own team. My own DRUMSET. Cool stuff. I still can't bear to use the fire red drumsticks Ben gave me for Birthday a few years ago. Kept them with all my certs. Haha. I wanna perform. I wanna go global (:

Okay um perhaps that's just a dream. It should be, otherwise I'll be in Hougang chalet. Zhixiong (a guy from HCI, I suppose he's Jiayun's classmate) is tryin' to form a band, with him being the elec gtarist. Lookin' for drummer, bassist and singer. Maybe a keyboardist too, not quite sure. But Jiayun can play keyboard. So, yeah. It got me all excited! The day before that Rach and I were still talking about forming our own class Band too. Haha. However! We predict that most people will be too busy mugging for promos to get a Life. I just wanna pass my GP and get PROMOTED. That's all I'm aiming for. The rest of the subjects? I shall wait and see.. Lol.

Shit. I think I'm dying. Anytime.

Unproductivity! I swear I tried to sit down and do my GP but then my cute little cousin came into my room and started playing with my blue Dog and silly me got distracted. Subsequently, I couldn't concentrate and I began to walk around the house every five mintues or so to get a drink and grab a bite (which explains why Mommy has been nagging at me to do those 'slim-down' exercises). Hehe.

Jacket meeting at Singtel Recreation Club Basement2. First time seeing Keith, the price coordinator of Monclue & Christine. The two of them has been busting our plans since the design was out! Quite pissed but I'm trying not to get TOO involved in case I do something wrong. It's aye scary thing. Haha. Although Keith overdid his 'cool attitude' which totally irritated me, I still think that there is this air of confidence hanging around him that I admire. Business people. When will I get to be one? I HAD plans but no $$. Lol. Ivan talks too fast for me to comprehend his words therefore I don't respond throughout the meeting =/

I am seriously riled. When will I have the time to really sit down and study? I need to, have to. MUST do so. Perhaps I should get a few days MC and stay at home to study? No..then will miss lessons. I NEED PEOPLE TO STUDY WITH ME! My house simply has far too many distractions for me to overcome. Especially the lappie and bed! I can fall asleep on the swivel chair just because the bed makes me feel tired. How stupid. But I can't help it ): My class people prefer studying at home.. I asked a few if they wanna stay back in school to study but all don't want. I mean like until 11pm. Lol. Okay I shall change my plan. Study ALONE in school until 9pm. BUT I SCARED! =/ Eeks. Cannot cannot. How how how you tells me HOW??

I miss Band prac. I miss Cedar.. VJ isn't quite my place.

Money money money.

I like You. Do You like Me too? =D


Paradise City by Guns N' Roses

Just an urchin
livin' under the street
I'm a hard case
that's tough to beat
I'm your charity case
So buy me somethin' to eat
I'll pay you at another time
Take it to the end of the line

Ragz to richez or so they say
Ya gotta-keep pushin'
for the fortune and fame
It's all a gamble
When it's just a game
Ya treat it like a capital crime
Everybody's doin' their time

Take me down
To the paradise city
Where the grass is green
And the girls are pretty
Take me home

Strapped in the chair
of the city's gas chamber
Why I'm here I can't quite remember
The surgeon general says
it's hazardous to breathe
I'd have another cigarette
but I can't see
Tell me who you're gonna believe

Take me down
To the paradise city
Where the grass is green
And the girls are pretty
Take me home

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

Captain America's been torn apart
Now he's a court jester
with a broken heart
He said-
Turn me around and
take me back to the start
I must be losin' my mind-
"Are you blind?"
I've seen it all a million times

Take me down
To the paradise city
Where the grass is green
And the girls are pretty
Take me home

Why can't people be on time? Meeting time was 1000h. Si Rong came at 1035h. I'm sorry that I was late too but it was not because I chose to leave house late. Mommy made me eat instant noodles even though I refused to but since she cooked already I had no choice.

I dislike people wasting my time simply because I have things to do, more than I can handle and well, being a rather slow worker (PERFECTIONIST) I need as much time as I have to do my stuff okay? Damn you.

Project Work = Waste Time. Anyone disagrees?

Living with it (my group) until PW is over. What if I get a C? Which I think I will. Perhaps a D even. This kinda thing hard to say one. Am I gonna do PW again? I hope not. But I never know.

Why Ivan so slow... Why why why you tells me WHY? He is so freaking inefficient la my gosh. Say what tues will send us the quotation but until now THREE days already it's still not in my inbox.. ~Why am I waiting~

I don't like holidays before exams. I know I have to study but I just don't know where to start. Sigh. I'm such a blur cock. Hehe.

Getting used to Life. Or so as it is called.

Tomorrow's a holiday! Due to polling (: But my pw group is heading down to AHS to do some interview with the teachers, or hopefully principal. What a way to spend such a precious day.

Supposed to do GP stuff and some research today de.. Haiis. In the end my pw group came down to my house and WASTED TIME. I seriously conked out during the so-called meeting because I slept at 0211AM and woke up at 0700AM. Like wtf. Blardy Si Rong slept early than me and woke up later than me.. I'm a very punctual person all right.. Haha. Anyways, Yuzhao came the latest and started reading the Ron Kaufman shit I zapped out. Sad to say, I think everyone has done their part except me since I am to do the introduction which is supposed to the easiest because it is mostly in the GPP. But the thing is I don't like to 'copy' stuff that are done before. Call me a Perfectionist. Lol.

HEAVEN!! Lied down on the floor for a few hundred winks after they went home (: Really drained mans. A 1400-1630 was more than sufficient I guess. Then I came online to edit PW. Yay. My life.

Mommy taught me a few other 'tricks' to slim down because she's complaining that I'm getting FATTER BY THE DAYS. Sobs. How encouraging. Daddy's car got a scratch by another car because they were caught in a traffic peanut butter at Woodlands on the way back from Ah Gong's house. He's terrigibly upset about it. So the first thing he did when he reached home was to take pails down to wash his second wife. Weird but oh well. Wahh I jealous! Ah Gong treated my Mommy to liulian and I don't have! So what if they're in M'sia. Not fair.. I love my Family anyways. Haha. Cheerios!

VJ National Day celebrations sucked to the core. Or deeper than that. There was NO spirit NO feeling NO fun NOthing. What lousy mass dance as the last item. Just the desire to go home and sleep. Cedar was TOTALLY different. Singing our hearts out, screaming til we drop flat, jumping all over the place and doing the choo-choo train thing. I kinda miss playing with the Band. The fun that I poked at the Leaders of My batch. My darling juniors were wonderful. I bet they love me and are missing all my crazy stuff (: (Wahaha I have yet to kiss yawl) JAMES BOND AND THE SEXY TRUMPET! (x my love.

Pearl's in Hongkong.
Mama's busy with her projects.
Rachel's mugging her arse off.
Si Rong should be wasting time playing com games.

I've found a new bestie: the four Walls that surround me. They have heard my laughter; felt my tears; gave me warmth in the cold rainy nights; listened patiently to me rant; let me throw stuff at without breaking down (:

To All:
I don't mind if you wanna scream at me or hit me. Just don't ignore me all right? Thank you.

Who spends a public holiday all alone at home without anyone to talk to? Who mugs during a National holiday? Who has no one to reply messages to? I think I may just as well do the Loser Sign to myself (: Haven't talked to anyone today, verbally I mean. (Does screaming at my grandma count?) Oh well at least I sent 2 messages to Rachel and chatted with Si Rong online. That's about it I guess.

Don't believe that I'm such a fucking loser. Make more friends? But how many true ones can you make in a lifetime? Stop all the lies and pretence. Bullshitting your way through won't salvage the circumstance. Change strategy. Be the next Zhu Ge Liang to catch hold of a win-win situation.

AnyONE doesn't mind watching fireworks with me on friday? Haha. I hope I won't get a positive reply. Rather stay at home with my good Friend.

Sometimes I just lose interest in something completely and suddenly burn with passion for it. I'm weird (: Gonna learn how to play Dota/Warcraft/That LAN game. At least it's better than stupid mushrooms and snails and whatnot. Lol.

People say Singaporean youths are politically apathetic. Let me prove my point.
How old is Singapore ah? =/

Beer Battered Fish & Chips Birthday cake
Birthday songDevour after the Wish
HappinessJob well done by Birthday Boy
I hate pajiao bus drivers. Next time if any doesn't stop for you, kick the backlight real hard.

Lesson learnt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIZHA!!

BEE OH ARE EE DEE!! Someone please study with me on wed thur and fri..? Actually I only need people to accompany me and not talk to me. So it's more like a you-just-show-your-face-while-I'm-studying thing. Haha. 8 more weeks to promos and I'm still not studying (: I'm persevering already k.. At least I feel like mugging lor. It's not that I don't want BUT school work is really piling up! Can't you hear me gasping for air?!

PW is taking a toll on me because I suddenly realised that I have no idea what I'm supposed to do! Gosh. What a last minute loser. Fucking carnival is causing me to panic. No, actually it's more like the blardy chairs and tables council. Oh well. I have nothing much to say about them. Can't even settle easy things. Talk about leading the student body. Go and drown yourselves in the South China sea la! Knn. Tutorials are wrecking my pinch of delicate grey cells like no one's business. Lagging behind practically everyone else. Dozing off in classes. Nothing different, I know. It's just everyone's daily routine life ain't it? I want adventures. But how exciting can life in school get? Books of notes and ships of books.

Jaswong noticed many red spots on my face today! The result of staying up until one to do pw and TRY to complete some tutorials. Being stupid is a chore. Everything also must ask others how to do. How I wish I was just a tad brainer. I've tried all the whatever creams I have at home but they don't seem to work! Boo~

Another depressing was that my ma's actually complaining that I'm growing FAT. Damn. She's irritating la kept pinching my tummy fats. Wahh..pain one leh! Maybe it's just loose muscles?? (: FAT hope. Nonetheless, she introdues some queer exercise moves that aim to tone and slim down the thighs and get some sixpac. I've got a funkay mommay. HAHA!

Okay..let me rattle about this particular girl whom some may have heard before:
She's freaking irritating! Nabeh fuck you lor you think you're some know-all little ginnah is it. PLEASE LA GROW UP!! You're just a small fry in the big pond all right? If you don't know anything just fucking hiaow SHUT UP! Not your business just keep your fucking hands to yourself! And you move like a wood block, lifeless and retardedly. I know I may sound like the immature one but I can't bottle stuff for too long a period because it makes me go KEESIAO. Later end up like mavis hee in mental hospital my parents will be very sad. So I'd rather make YOU sad than make my mom and dad sad simply since I love them all too much.

Sunday 06august
My parents went to Ikea but couldn't find an artsy fartsy enough drawer for me ): The one I'm using is kinda old and doesn't fit my room colour/theme. OH! I should wait for another few months before I get a spanking new and cool one after I migrate to Kovan.

Saturday 05august
Woke up at some godly 0630am to go school do pw. But before that, I gotta follow my bro to dhs for bball dsa test. Smart little shit (: Then my papa drove me to vj where I met pearl's pw group and crashed for a little while. Haha. Reached school at 0830am and left at 1200nn. I have absolutely no idea how much we have progressed because we still seem so far behind.

Supposed to read through the research materials but I fell asleep instead. This kinda thing is unpreventable one lor. Just like during econs lessons >< Rach came at 1500 which was right on time! Didn't know she's so streetwise can make her way from the bus stop to my house -APPLAUSE- After which we went to bring her drama exco up to do some present thingy for farewell. Dear Rach, I hope they're not foodophobic now. HAHA. (seaweed, cailler, ferrero rocher, crabtree&evelyn butter shortbread, drinks) How nice is that? (;

Friday 04august - Monday 31july
Wake up Go school Pray that time passes quickly Lessons end Go home (: