regina chen zhirong.
yzps/cgss/vjc/ntu.
05 february 1989.
busm follower.
loves nature but hates insects.
loves music and wants all the songs.
loves outrageous fashion.
loves everything about duck.
to-do
♥ bake muffins/cookies/cupcakes
♥ hang out with dearest pals
♥ do at least two charity work
♥ go overseas with friends
♥ participate in NIKE marathon
♥ go picnic
♥ fly kite
♥ gpa 4.2
Pre: Totally nervous and scared of what's gonna happen and dependent on Elroy and Sind to guide me along
During: At first we joined this activity organised by North Vista Sec, helped the patients there a bit but I didn't interact with them at all because I have absolutely no idea how to strike a conversation with them. Subsequently at another ward, I learned how to open up and really talk about random stuff to them like asking simple questions such as "Hi, have you eaten?" "Oh, how was the food, did you like it?" "How was your day?" Most shocking conversation was with this patient who is so suicidal. But I don't think it's her fault at all. It should be the society and perhaps the government. Apparently, she studied in CJC and moved on to Swiss Cottage due to some stuff. Scored A2 for Chi Lit B3 for EMath; her results were considerably good with an aggregate of 12 points. Sadly, she could't handle the immense stress brought about by JC life and so decided to transfer out. The worst part was when she was describing to Sind and I how she slit her wrists. It was really really horrible and heart aching. Her diary entries were darn depressing and I pitied her lar.
Post: Quite relieved that I had done something considerably risky whereby I could have gotten serious physical injuries because a patient actually ripped off another's eye lid =/ gory scene I presume. Oh no that was what I heard from Elroy and Sind. Wonderful sense of achievement too.
Right now. I am just thinking why I'm studying so hard. What if I went crazy too? Choy touch wood. But it's possible don't you think? I mean. The government and society are putting so much stress on academic achievements such that many young people have forgotten their roots like how they should respect their elders and return to the society which has provided for them in some way or another. So what if they suceeded in life? Will they be really happy?
Will I be really happy?
Crap. Okay I shouldn't bring feelings out of that place as advised by Elroy and Sind. Just leave them all in there and continue with what I have to do. Like STUDY. Grr.
I wanna take my SATs and aim for an Arts scholarship. I don't care what others are gonna say. I've set my goals on Arts since long time ago. Just that..my parents are kinda particular about the subjects I take. I don't blame them lar. Whose parents won't want the best for their children right? It's the freedom of choice that I long for. Elroy suggested some SADAM school. Singapore Arts ?? and Media?? Lol. I have no idea. Gonna check it out.
All the best to Elroy and his interview! (I know you'll never read this but still. Just feel like saying it out.) Haha. Hope that you'll get through, study fashion, start your own brand of fashion line and INVITE me to be your advertising manager or something. Hehe =D
Got to start mugging. Didn't meet the goals that I set last week. Somehow ah things crop up when I have plans. I seriously need to get some work done. It is so overwhelming that I don't where and how to start ):
