Friday, September 29, 2006
Wrong day.Wrong time.Wrong place.Wrong attire.Wrong person.Wrong individual here.I'm sorry for what happened today.Thank you Nat for bringing honeystars!I guess that's more important than my stupid notes then.Lol.Thanks dear! (:Thank you Yong Jian for calling Lydia!Sorry for causing trouble ):I think I shall just stay at home next time.Thank you Sind for staying with me in school!Even though you wanted to as well.And introducing me to your rainbow of songs (:Thank you Pearl for entertaining my boredness!Hope I didn't disturb you.Hahaha.But VERY long never talked to you, so just bear with it!I know you miss me too!Love you darling (XHave I mentioned that I wanna quit school?Yeah, that's what I wanna do.Not because of Promos.But because of what I dream.Passion is where I wanna go.Seriously.David is right.JC is just a place for you to think about your future.Apparently, I feel that I have no future in JC.Hohoho.Also.Study so much for what?!Not like you will use all those crap in life.So for those who have found their calling.Don't ever waste your time.PURSUE!!! (my booze)
written at 23:16
Monday, September 25, 2006
Talk about transparency.YEP is like a total stranger to me even though I'm in CIC.For goodness sake.Please let at least the exco members know what the fucking hell is going on.You're not gonna manage this damn thing alone.You can't.Hello.How long did you take to settle the itinerary?Maybe there is some communication breakdown.But I can't care much.At the very least don't make vacuous promises.When there is problem I am not informed.Who the hell do you think I am?I guessed you figured that you can handle it personally?GO, ahead.I can't wait to see your mistakes.I would love to keep my arse off this shit.But I do have resposibilities too.I am a human, bitch.
written at 22:08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVIN!!I miss talking to you! Haha. Hope you had a wonderful day (:
written at 22:03
What if I die before I get to live? Will you care about me?I always feel like hugging everyone when I'm alone.But when I've got company I feel like screaming at them?WHY?I love my friends.I love everyone.I'm a caring and concerned friend.(Don't you dare deny!)I know this sounds damn gay and cliche.Nonetheless I wanna say that I love you guys no matter what happens.I don't wanna regret not saying it.I LOVE YOU. (:I'm a weakling who is afraid to die.
written at 21:34
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Unproductiveness is condemned. That word shall cease to exist in my bank of words from now on.Studying in school is damn fun. Climb shit stuffs. There are so many adventures awaiting you! Today Sind and I hopped over from IP block (the second level of T-block) down to the whatever-roof-it-is-called and to the container classrooms and down to level one! Wheehee.I don't know where to study tmr. How?
written at 23:36
Friday, September 22, 2006
I am so. Dead.I am so. Screwed.I am so. Behind time.I am so..Sigh.My legs are kinda tired. Just kinda. After running approx 4k + rooftop trip on tues, 2 rounds on the track for PE + soccer + 8k(with Cong, Nat and Jasm) after school and finally about 3k today. That's..damn shiok. I've never run so much all at once in my life. Chasin' fucking cars? Nah. Hahaha.All righty! I've got to speed up. I need a catalyst! Some thing/one be this very crucial catalyst please? Lol. There's seriously no time for me to finish all the chapters. Okay maybe there is, but I wanna learn every chapter and topic real well so I can own the hall. Oms. DREAM ON, REGINA!Yay! It's the weekends again! I'm not happy though. Because Promos ain't over yet. And I have bio spa CD on tues and there is GP ON WED after chem spa A. Everyone please don't forget! Haha.I need retail therapy! But I don't feel like spending money. Crap la! Kns.. After Promos AFTER PROMOS AFTER PROMOS.The VS gang is staying over in school to mug tonight. Can study meh? More like talk cock and play lor. Boys. OH. ROOFTOP! Ugh.
written at 23:02
Monday, September 11, 2006
Officially on a mugging spree until Promos end. My life starts only at 2am and ends at 6am. Therefore I will live a long life. Buck UP!
written at 22:32
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Hail me. 470 messages in ten days and that means I have only 530 messages left for the rest of the twenty days! AHH..!!! So people, sorry if I don't reply yeah? Fruitful outing at bras basah Popular. I bought SIX tee-why-asses there while Sind bought four. Plus some other stuff which I have no idea what I can use for/with. And of course, STATIONERY! (: All these will be used tmr onwards when we start Then we met Elroy (with a damn gay and fucked up haircut) at Bugis. Walked a bit and sent Sind to the train station because she had to rush home for wedding dinner in MALAYSIA. What the hell la she has Chem SPA Skill B tmr and her parents had to torture her by forcing her to some (seriously) retarded dinner. Bugis quite boring.. No. Singapore is just too small. Kns. So town we did head. BORDERS! (X I always buy stuff on impulse and then wonder what I do with it. Oh well. Makes me think =P Wheehee I purchased a BROWN cardboard file and a MemoPad (the one I got from Prints is still..rather unused) =/ Get what I mean? Sigh.I felt damn stupid when I brought an umbrella (in case) and didn't use when it was drizzling. HAHAHA. Then when the droplets of pee from the sky got bigger and more intense (OOPS) I realised, HEY..I GOT UMBRELLA IN MY BAG!! -.- Walking from Wheelock to Heeren when it is raining is very very bad. Because we wanted to buy Havaianas but then our feet were freaking dirty so..didn't buy. Sobs. Damn it la.. Heeren is also another boring place. That explains why I love Wheelock and Marina and Suntec (X Do guys have to be gay to work in the main NUM store??Toured the building once again even though the previous visit was only last Friday. And we found the Leather shop at the Basement! Oms.. that little place has one of the most amazing leather pouches in Singapore. At least to me. Therefore now, I'm wondering which design/colour/size of pouch I should get. There are the $20-green with lock and small, $55-brown with twirl and medium, $85-greyish with twirl and large. But all can fit pens and pencils. DILEMMA! How how how..? If I buy the green and brown one I might as well just buy the greyish one since it's $10 more right?Random point: I think we have somewhat similar preferences and behaviours, if it is the right term. We dislike milk, and have it only with cereal. We like leather stuff. We like arts stuff. We like plain and simple stuff. We buy things if we like them, with no hesitation at times. Just to name a few.But Mama has more things in common with me (: (except MotoGP) Hohoho.It's Monday soon! So I guess I'll be too busy mugging to come online and chat and blog. See you after Promos then.I need retail therapy. I have many many things that I wanna buy.
written at 20:39
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Please..someONE go watch short films with me..Fast Forward Short Film Screening showcasing 5 films including Monkey Love by Royston Tan, a meditation of love and longing set in Japan, and Wee Li lin's Lunchtime, about a foodstall worker who fantasises about a yuppie customer.By Objectifs Films and the Arts HouseAt The Arts House, Screening Room, Old Parliament HouseOn 13sept or 15sept at 7.30pm or 16sept at 4pmFor $6 per ticket (student price)Anytakers?I can't wait for Monday! Sind and I have worked out our individual study schedules and I'm quite excited about starting. Lol. It's totally crazy that we're studying up to eight hours a day (excluding lessons). But I wanna die first. So I won't feel like dying during the process. Oms.. Perseverance! One of dear Cedar's values (X That's what we've got! Time to get some topical tys and/or assessments depending on their availability.
written at 21:41
Friday, September 08, 2006
Rotten eggs! I went to collect my contacts just now and the optician taught me how to prod my eyeballs. Okay fine. Insert the contacts. Whatever. I wanted to laugh but didn't dare because he looked so fierce. He was figuring out what I could do to open my eyes bigger. HAHAHA. Okay, LAUGH! So I had to try opening my eyes from different positions. See ah.. You use your left middle finger to push the upper eyelid up and right middle to push the lower eyelid down and the lens is on your right index finger and you prod the lens onto your eye. For most people. And I mean most, like 99% can fit the lenses in properly. But for me when I open my eyes fully, it is just nice the diameter of the black area. As you know, the lenses aren't the exact size but a tad bigger. So I had SOME (yes just SOME) difficulty inserting the lenses. But they went in anyway. So. YAY!! Lol. What the hell la. I'm afraid that I'm allergic to the solution and/or contact lenses because when I reached home there were red small patches near my eyes. Which is a clear indication of allergy =/I'm happy. Really happy. Not that I've studied or anything. Whoohoo! I think I'm damn tyco. Or maybe it's just luck that I joined softball. Because! Sports teams that got first or second are 'rewarded' by the school to go Bangkok for a week. If Daddy agrees to the trip, then this year I'd have flown to four countries! Oms.. Adrenaline rush.I will feel bad if I don't do well. So must study hard from Monday onwards! I planned not to study during this term break. All right, determination in the wrong context. Should I take h3 or should I not? I know I shouldn't follow the rest but sometimes I have this herd mentality thinking that 'the rest are doing it so I should too'. BOO! If I cannot ensure that I can score well for h3 then why take it right? But... AIYA HOW???
written at 20:35
Yay I went out with Mama yesterday like FINALLY!! It's been a long long time since we had a little adventure. Hahaha. Every trip is full of crazy moments! Wheehee!Suntec had a revamp! Looks cool yeah, with the spongy blue foam on the floor. Hehe. The "hawker" side got blocked off so we couldn't go to the other side. Must walk to the opposite side then go go through. So please take note! (: La Senza's new bras very GROSS. I bought a pair of chain dangly earrings from TopShop and i LOVE it! (X Very chio k.. Lol. Somehow Suntec became a bit boring. Oh well. It's still one of my favourite hangouts. Second stop was Marina! Mama don't like boutiques! Hahaha but I like! I think it's winter fall season so the clothes are mostly long sleeved. The coats aren't too bad..but not my style. I need retail therapy!!! Which also means I need $$!!! How how how?! I hate tees. They are SO boring. Except if they are LOUD and BOLD. Anyway! I didn't find a belt of my liking ): A sleek leather belt is what I want. Okay I suddenly got the urge to get snow white pumps. Diesel or Miss Sixty had the ideal pair one or two years ago but Mommy didn't let my buy. Why? Because they cost >$200 =/ So right now I'm searching for a pair under $100 (: TODAY! Moved chairs and tables for Prelims with the softball team; both gals and guys. Quite fun leh. Hehe. At first the hall was empty (like DUH) but after an hour or so it was filled with the DUSTY tables and CREAKY chairs! Great sense of achievement wor.. (XWanted to run to ecp after the sai-gang but it RAINED. Never mind. Wait lor. Wait for rain to stop. Park, Justin and the girls were hungry so we ordered McBreakfast and did the seniors' farewell presents. Okay it stop raining while we were eating halfway, obviously cannot go run right. Never mind. Eat already cannot go run also. Never mind. Then two hours after the meal I wanted to run. AND IT FUCKING HELL RAINED. Pissed.. And guess what! I FINISHED the 38 mcqs for chemical bonding. All thanks to the rain. I know it's one small chapter but it's an best accomplishment for me for the WHOLE week. Proud of myself (: even though I fell asleep at qn17 and napped for half an hour. Hohoho.
written at 19:35
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Yesterday's highlight: Birdshit on Yong Jian's shirt.Wheehee I'm 26 in 06s48! Yong Jian's 27 and Nathanael (whatever his name is) is 28! Okay I forgot my number for 0603. Mama! I'm number what?? Faster tell me..!Pearl\Fel\hl\yongjian\benny\pingpong\meThe Devil Wears Prada got me thinking. Will you choose to be accomplished in your career or relationships (ie Family & Friends)? Chew on it. In the show, Andy Sachs's career in the glitzy fashion world took flight and she became Miranda Priestly's first assistant when at first she only viewed this job as a stepping stone to another journalism position which she was adept in. However, with her new appearance and the demands placed on her, she started to lose her friends, family and her live-in boy friend. And so, this made me wonder. If I were in her shoes, which would be my priority?I think I would have chosen to stay on with my Family & Friends. They are the ones who sculptured me. Although the fashion world may be as enticing as it seems and this is a high probability that I would be lured into slaving it, I doubt I will be able to cope with all the stress and weird work timings without my Family. So yeah. Family first. Friends second. For me, Work has always been around the fifth even though I need a lot of money =/ Sob sob. Haven't seen sheng and deng for so long. She also hasn't seen sheng for a long time ): WHY?! School sucks. All the work that is dumped upon our shoulders. Sigh. Why is getting good results important? It doesn't determine your future nor what you do. Pass can already what. Why is almost everyone chionging their sai off?! I agree that achieving good grades is paving your pathway to success or whatever success you wanna have. But it seriously does NOT affect your future that much right? I mean. Good grades meaning BBBB la. Not even thinking about A. Hello it's only Promos! Just get promoted and chiong your arses off only for Prelims then A's la. Why so kan chiong? And why do I sound so angsty? Because I feel guilty for not planning not to study during these hols. Seriously. I give up. I have no idea what I typed today. The england sounds kinda awkward. Oh well. I CAN'T BE BOTHERED.
Still have yet to come up with a study schedule simply because I don't know where to start from ):
Oh oh! I went to make my contacts yesterday! Blardy hiaow. The woman told me" "Aiyo..your eyes so small! Must tailor make leh! Don't have your size here." ><
written at 10:43
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
I can't stand hypocrites.To quote Mama: "wahlao got study say got la..tmd..got study get high marks then called li hai. never study get high marks called bullshit can."Haha. Can't agree more. I always say that I studied a bit because it is true! Just browse through only. I'm busy.Socially - Catching up with Friends and going outPhysically - Do some running and weight liftingEconomically - Ensure that I don't overspendMentally - Keeping myself sane from everyoneEmotionally - Understanding my Family & FriendsAcademically - Obtaining at least a BCDD to study h3Aesthetically - Making sure that I attend every single sessionWhere got enough time.. Sigh.Give In To Me by Michael Jackson (feat. Slash on his sexy Gtar)She Always Takes It With A Heart Of Stone
'Cause All She Does Is Throw It Back To Me
I've Spend A Lifetime
Looking For Someone
Don't Try To Understand Me
Just Simply Do The
Things I Say
Love Is A Feeling
Give It When I Want It
'Cause I'm On Fire
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Talk To Me Woman
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
You Always Knew Just How To Make Me Cry
And Never Did I Ask You Questions Why
It Seems You Get Your Kicks From Hurting Me
Don't Try To Understand Me
Because Your Words Just Aren't Enough
Love Is A Feeling
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Takin' Me Higher
Love Is A Woman
I Don't Wanna Hear It
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
You And Your Friends
Were Laughing At Me In Town
But It's Okay
And It's Okay
You Wont Be Laughing Girl
When I'm Not Around
I'll Be Okay
And I'll, I'll Not Find
Gotta, The Peace Of Mind No
Don't Try To Tell Me
Because Your Words
Just Aren't Enough
Love Is A Feeling
Quench My Desire
Give It When I Want It
Takin' Me Higher
Talk To Me Woman
Love Is A Feeling
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Love Is The Feeling
I Don't Wanna Hear It
Quench My Desire
Takin' Me Higher
Tell It To The Preacher
Satisfy The Feeling
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
I Don't Wanna
I Don't Wanna
I Don't Wanna
Hear It
Give It To The Fire
Talk To Me Woman
Quench My Desire
I Don't Like A Lady
Talk To Me Baby
Give In To Me
Give In To The Fire
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Love Is A Woman
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
Give In To Me
'Cause I'm On Fire
Talk To Me Woman
Quench My Desire
Give It To The Feeling
written at 23:27
Straightening perm and no perm got no difference!! Like my hair still curls?! Whatever. Ninety bucks not I pay can already. The hairdresser damn funny. Keep asking me to bluetooth songs to her T_TBack home at 1415h and grabbed a bite of -cough- junk food. Time to study!! Yay! But fell asleep on my GM's rocking chair ><>
Still hopeful that I will at least read through my bio. Yes I am!! Serious.
Took out my bio file from the rack. Flipped to the first page of notes. Looked at the ultrastructure of animal and plant cells. Zzz-ed until 1800h. Wonderful I tells you. Damn zai.
Pissed eh!!
I seriously can't study at home. The bed is the greatest temptation, followed by the com. I don't like to watch teewee so it's okay. But then sleeping causes you to lose track of time, so it's the biggest sin as well. Sobs. Those I want to study in school with either don't like or cannot ):
Okay I didn't count my calories today =/ Doubt I exceeded my limit anyway =D
Later must must MUST read ><
written at 19:37
Monday, September 04, 2006
Art & Craft session wasn't that fulfilling because we didn't interact with the patients at all. This nurse just asked us to help make a lantern T_T (zzz) So boring lar and it turned out like shit. Missed Elroy and his crap ):Sind finally bought the first-hand $3 belt! Such a steal. Must go Thrift Shop more often. The one at IMH is so small there's practically nothing for me to get excited over. Compass Point is such a BORING place.. Ate at Yoshi, walked walked a bit and home we fly! Hahaha. Okay I need to go on a diet to slim down my derrière and thighs! Immediate operation! As of tomorrow onwards I shall keep track of what goes down my throat and into that bag of acid. Sob sob there goes my New York cheesecake..
written at 20:42
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Not a very productive day. I didn't plan to do anything anyways. Haha. Just slack the day through. Met Guo Jie to lend him my math notes.Guess where we went to makan dinner? Chinatown! Yay another one of my favourite places. Ate the cold mango sago with pomelo at the usual shop and WALKED down (from Chinatown station) to Outram, wanting to dine at the temporary hawker centre. But then when we walked to the middle of the place we decided to talk back to Chinatown because it was freaking hot and sticky there. So yeah. WALKED back. Haha stupidity.Okay I know I eat very slow but don't have to niao me lor. Results have shown CLEARLY that I makan slower than the speed of two guys makaning (as in one started off same time as me and finished then another one came and went off before me). The constant here is a plate of rice. No it's not sad okay. Better digestion! Sian-ded. Must plan my schedule later. Cannot waste anymore time. CHIONG AH!! -.-Nobody's Fool by CinderellaI count the falling tears
They fall before my eyes
Seems like a thousand years
Since we broke the ties
I call you on the phone
But never get a rise
So sit there all alone
It's time you realizeI'm not your fool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
I'm no fooool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's fool
Now and no moreYou take your road I'll take mine,
The paths have both been beaten
Searchin' for a change of pace
Life needs to be sweetened
I scream my heart out just to make a dime
And with that dime I bought your love
But now I've changed my mindI'm not your fool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
I'm no fooool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
Now and no moreI count the falling tears
They fall before my eyes
Seems like a thousand years
since we broke the tiesI'm not your fool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
I'm no fooool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
I'm not your fool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
I'm no fooooooOOOOOl
Nobody's fool
Nobody's fooooolNobody's fool
Nobody's fooooool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's fooooool
Nobody's fool
Nobody's fooooool
(fade out)
Nobody's fool
Nobody's foooool
aaaaaauuh
written at 23:19
Jialat. Woke up an hour later than my usual time and realised that it's a Sunday! Parents still not back from Penang.. Boo.. I'm having the hell of my time stuck at home with my GM. I think I'll straighten my hair hair this week. Those short baby hair which can't be tied really irks me. I wonder how I will look like.. Actually I tried straightening once and the outcome wasn't too bad but still, that was the temporary one and no one else but Mommy saw. Obviously, since she brought me to the hairdresser. Considering. Cool.Oh! Was reading Lifestyle just now and chanced upon this line that says "tell...about that dream, adventure or ambition you want to fulfil, and you might just win $50,000 to make it come true." FIFTY THOUSAND is a hell load of cash, boy! Yes I will write in and blabber about my dream of studying (doing some research now) Advertising. Perhaps attending Summer Courses at Instituto Marangoni, either in London or Milan [http://www.fashion-summer-courses.com/summer_courses_eng.htm] and subsequently applying for entry to London College of Communication to study Foundation Degree in Design for Graphic Communication then BA Honours, Creative Advertising Strategy and finally Royal College of Arts if I want to, since the first two degrees take up FIVE years of my life. But then again. This is all a DREAM. At least I know what I want to do in future while some people tak cek and yet have no idea what they want for themselves. Do I regret not going poly had I known that I wanna do Arts? Maybe not. I still like DNA. Haha. I don't know if I have found my calling. Or if this is even considered a calling. Bah.
written at 11:02
Whoops! Muah chee got HIGH demand sia. Big achievement (: I didn't see many people turn up for Family3 but I don't really care. As long as we finished selling our food can liao.CNA interview was blardy stupid lar. No need much elaboration.Muah chee war! We had extra cheechee (sounds damn wrong) because peanut no more was out of stock.. Hehe. Played the dough like don't know what sai! Splat the whole sticky pisai on to everyone's hair and shirt and neck and face ><
Initial plan to eat dinner at ThaiPan was foiled because it is undergoing the surgery knife!! Boo ): No choice, nearest place was Parkway. Siam Kitchen Buffet wasn't very worth it, I felt. The food not say THAT nice lar. But quite filling. As long as I've eaten my fill, I'm happy. Why do guys eat a lot? How come they can eat a lot?
I swear when you put two cheekopeks together you'll get fits from laughing too much. It's totally wu hua bu shuo even though I was there. Were discussing what happens when the xiaodidi suddenly cramp. WAHH damn sick I tells you. But then hor. I decided to unleash my perverse side and join in! LOL! Darn hilarious! They two tio stunned because I was never like that before. However I still must insist that I'm a pure and innocent little girl (X The entire time out was just hyped up with dirty jokes and loud laughters and passers-by stared at us with this super weird and twisted face.
Seriously can't leave a shop without buying anything. Purchased a slim black leather tie from TopMan and safety pins from MPH which I don't know use for what. The moments in MPH was..shocking. There was this advert/show/dvd document showing a lady making SIBEI GUAI LAN STUFF. Quoting Elroy: "Big balls and a small head." (or something like that) Okay you won't want to know how the picture looked like. Sick like constipated shit. I need new shirts. I need to spend $150 in a single receipt to get the TopShop membership card. One day one day. Sure can one.
I didn't wanna come home yet because my GM at home and I don't want to come home when she's still awake. Don't ask why; just don't like it. So pulled Elroy and Guo Jie to eat brownie with ice cream. Hehe damn hor chio. I kept stunning Guo Jie with my so-called dirty and random jokes. And he said: "Oh my god I didn't you're so sick!" Oh well (:
Parkway's gonna have Prints! My favourite shop!! But I still prefer the outlet at Raffles City. I think renovations will be done on 7sept. Not sure when it will open though.
Stupid 27 took ages to arrive and I ALMOST took a cab home thinking that there was no more bus. Packed like sai lor I had to stand at the edge of the stairs at the entrance there. Super scary. So in the end reached home at 2340h T_T
Okay hair dry = orh orh time! Today was the best day of the week so far. Tomorrow must mug.
written at 00:32
Friday, September 01, 2006
Today is..not say very fruitful but still all right. Got really pissed off by my GM. What's surprising man. I was searching for a suitable plastic/paper bag and got damn irritated by the messiness so I took the entire basket of plastic/paper bags down and started arranging them. I so seriously can't stand untidiness I swear. Then my GM said: "Oh. I was thinking of arranging them later too. Need my help not?" And I thought to myself: "Go and die lor. I'm sure you want to help. More like add trouble for me." Why ah? Why are old people so irritating? Especially my GM.Anyway after my bath I went to Serangoon Central to buy some stuff for Family 3 tomorrow. Quite stupid actually. Bought this pack of rubber bands which I think has a thousand inside when I only need two hundred. Waterchestnut apples are crunchy (:Okay down to IMH I went. With Elroy and Sindhu again. Dancing was freaking boring today. Didn't do much. Looking forward to Monday's Art session. We left quite early at around..1630h.Reached Chomp Chomp at 1720h and had a small bite before Sindhu had to go home. Pork satay and bbq stingray. Shiok. Reflected after we ate. Still boring. I didn't wanna go home and face The Monster so I decided to head to town with Elroy. Walked around Wheelock. I swear I have fallen in love with Wheelock. The secrets there are like..WHEEYEWWEET. So me. Okay I bet none of you understand what I'm talking about but it's normal. Chill... Wheelock>Paragon>Heeren>Raffles CitySense my boredom and unwillingness to go home? Reached home at 2245. Hehe.Arts is so my favourite. I love stripes and circles and lines that don't meet. I will go shopping for Arts stuff one day. I swear I will.
written at 23:48