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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

I SINCERELY hope that Pumpkin will enjoy today!
Hahahaha, eh serious la.. =)
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Sleeping in the afternoon is bad.
My nose is gonna drop off anytime.
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I am in heavy debt because I pissed you off.
Hohoho.
You sweet little thing.

One hour is better than nothing I guess.

I love Yong Jian.
=D

written at 20:06

What the hell is a group for?!
Talk, people, TALK!

Ask questions when you're unsure.
Don't just sit there and expect me to tell you everything.
Are you brainless or what.

Reach school then call and ask around who is where la.
Sit in the canteen and wait for the sky to fall on you?!

written at 10:48

Monday, October 30, 2006

All right...
I can never hide anything.

No, not from my besties.
- Mandy
- Pearl
- Ethel
- Nat

HL guessed one!
Not fair.

There.
Don't say I never say anything hor..
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Okay I didn't go for training today.
I know I'm a bad girl.
Please don't whack my butt.
Sorry Coach =(
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DARLING =D
Hahaha k k do math with you!

I want to sleep..THERE.

written at 21:44

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Morning meditation session was fruitful!
Another hour for me to catch up on my sleep =)
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I am happy:
= Happy

I am very happy:
= Happy + Happy^2

I am very very happy:
= Happy + Happy^2 + Happy^3

I am infinitely happy:
= Happy + Happy^2 + Happy^3 + ... + Happy^n
= Happy{[1-Happy^(n+1)]/[1-Happy]}

I love you:
= Love

I love you a lot:
= Love + Love^2

I love you a lot a lot:
= Love + Love^2 + Love^3

I love you A LOT:
= Love + Love^2 + Love^3 + ... + Love^n
= Love{[1-Love^(n+1)]/[1-Love]}

Darling..darling.
Hahaha I love taking buses now!
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PW screws up my timetable.

written at 18:51

Saturday, October 28, 2006

I'm bored.
And I found the 16PF shit.
Hahahaha!
Here it goes!
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16PF Fifth Edition
Singapore Student Narrative Report
(SSNR)

Name: Regina Chen
ID : S89*****D
Date : August 11, 2006

Vocational Orientation

Investigative = 8
Ms Chen shows personality characteristics similar to Investigative persons. Such persons typically have good reasoning ability and enjoy the challenge of problem-solving. They tend to have critical minds, are curious, and are open to new ideas ad solutions. Investigative persons tend to be reserved and somewhat impersonal; they may prefer working independently. They tend to be concerned with the function and purpose of materials rather than aesthetic principles. Ms Chen may enjoy working with ideas and theories, especially in the scientific realm. It may be worthwhile to explore whether Ms Chen enjoys doing research, reading technical articles, or solving challenging problems.

Occupational fields: Science, Math, Research, Medicine and Health, Computer Science

Artistic = 7
Ms Chen shows personality characteristics similar to Artistic persons, who are self-expressive, typically through a mode such as art, music, design, writing, acting, composing, etc. Like Artistic persons, Ms Chen may be venturesome and open to different views and experiences. Sometimes she may be preoccupied with thoughts and ideas, which may relate to the overall creative process. She may do her best work in an unstructured, flexible environment. It may be worthwhile to explore whether Ms Chen appreciates aesthetics and possesses artistic, design, or musical talents.

Occupational fields: Art, Music, Design, Theater, Writing

Singapore Student Assessment Information

Innovation

Applied Thinking
Creative Potential = 6.7
Creative Achievement = 6.9
Imagination = 6.0
Experimenting = 7.7
Investigative = 7.5
Abstract Reasoning = 8.0
Intellectual Efficiency = 7.9

Motivation to Innovate
Openness to Change = 7.0
Receptive = 6.5
Energized = 5.0
Perfectionism = 8.0
Unrestrained = 5.6

Enterprising

Leadership factors
Leadership Potential = 5.7
Assertive Leadership = 5.9
Facilitate Leadership = 4.9
Permissive Leadership = 5.3
Influence = 5.3

Business Competencies
Enterprising = 4.1
Dependability = 5.0
Service Orientation = 5.8
Resilience = 5.2

Composite Scores
Innovation Composite = 6.9
Enterprising Composite = 5.0

16PF Profile
Reserved (5) Warmth
Concrete (8) Abstract
Reactive (4) Emotionally Stable
Deferential (4) Dominant
Serious (5) Lively
Expedient (3) Rule-Conscious
Shy (6) Socially Bold
Utilitarian (6) Sensitive
Trusting (6) Vigilant
Grounded (6) Abstracted
Forthright (4) Private
Self-Assured (5) Apprehensive
Traditional (7) Open to Change
Group-Oriented (4) Self-Reliant
Tolerates Disorder (8) Perfectionistic
Relaxed (5) Tense

16PF Fifth Edition
Personal Career Development Profile (PCDP)
Singapore Student Assessment

Name : Regina Chen
ID : S89*****D
Date : August 11, 2006

Problem-solving resources

Ms Chen functions quite comfortably with problems and situations that involve abstract reasoning and conceptual thinking. Ms Chen appears to be quite able to learn well from her experiences. She can usually be counted on to use her experience to advantage in solving most problems.

Ms Chen's approach to tasks is usually balanced between getting things done fairly efficiently and having an awareness of the impact of what's done on others involved with her. Ms Chen usually strives to stick mostly to practical and realistic ways of doing things as she deals with life and its problems. She usually pays attention to the everyday aspects and requirements of situations.

Patterns for coping with stressful conditions

The kind of tension that Ms Chen seems to be going through at this time is normal for the most part. She is likely to react to worry or pressure much the same as other people. Generally, when Ms Chen is faced with conflict or disagreement from others, she likes to challenge thoe who differ with her and to clearly state her views on the subject.

Interpersonal interaction styles

On the whole, Ms Chen tends to give about equal amounts of time and attention to the relationship between herself and others. But, she also tends to value some alone time on occasion. She feels most drawn to people who are flexible in the way they think and act and who are able to change to fit the situation at hand.

Ms Chen tends to make quite a bit of room for the wishes of others, and she may give into the demands of others even when it may not be necessary to do so. Ms Chen usually tends to be self-revealing in her relationships with most people. She generally "puts her cards on the table" for others to see.

Organizational role and work-setting preferences

Ms Chen may prefer to take on a leadership role and she may assume such a role with a group of friends or co-workers. However, some members of her group may not see her as a leader and may have some difficulty fully accepting her ways for exercising control and direction over them. Ms Chen generally strives to seek sufficient latitude to bring about changes she believes to be important and necessary. She normally puts her energies, therefore, into trying to overcome feelings or ideas that run against her. She also likes to openly express both positive and negative points-of-view about matters of concern to her.

Ms Chen is likely to feel most at home when working in a relaxed and flexible settings that are not boring or routine in nature. If some structure is necessary, she likes to design it herself rather than having someone else impose it on her. She seldom places a lot of value on sticking to strict rules for doing things that are important to what she hopes to accomplish. She usually does what she thinks needs to be done when she is faced with what she sees as necessary hurdles or restrictions. Ms Chen has most interest for assignments that offer opportunity to learn about many different things. She seems to have an intellectual curiosity and preference for situations that enable her to try her ideas and options for solving problems.

Career activity interests

Analyzing
Investigating, observing and solving problems of a business, cultural, scientific or social nature that requires the use of ideas, words and symbols to uncover new facts or theories - activity characteristics of that performed by people who enjoy working in laboratory and research settings, the mathematics field, and the life science, medical science, physica science, and social science professions. They usually find greater satisfaction being involved with the challenge of work that requires conceptual thinking and analysis of quantitative problems than work requiring extensive interaction with people in group projects.

Creating
Bringing creative self-expression into art forms, literature or innovative products and services - activity characteristics of persons who find satisfaction working in the artistic, literary, drama, musical and performing arts fields. They usually value activities that enable them to express their abilities, ideas and talents, especially those which bear the imprint of their efforts.

Career field and Occupational interests

Career fields directly related to Ms Chen's unique activity interests are:
Art, Writing, Arts/Design, Music/Dramatics, Mathematics.

Occupations directly related to Ms Chen's unique activity interests are:
Architect, Technical Writer, Medical Illustrator, Photographer, Biologist, Art Teacher, Artist, Fine, Musician, Psychologist, Artist, Commercial, Librarian, Sociologist, Translator/Interpreter, Geologist, Physicist, Interior Decorator, Reporter, Physician, Statistician, Chemist, Computer Programmer, Ski Instructor.

Personal career lifestyle effectiveness considerations

Ms Chen's lifestyle tends to show a balance between a desire to have control over many personal and work-related situations and her willingness to adapt to the particualr circumstancess in which she finds herself. Nonetheless, she also generally prefers to have some freedom of choice regarding what things to do and how to proceed. Even though Ms Chen may think of herself as being fairly independent and self-directed, she may not feel as comfortable when she is asked to do a job in which she must rely mostly on her own judgements and decisions as she would on assignments in which others are present to lend approval and support to her. Ms Chen shows about equal preference for personal and work-related activities that involve interaction with people and those that require her to work alone. She shows the potential to profit from personal and work-related experiences. In efforts to learn new ways of approaching problems and situations, she should benefit from on-the-job and other experiences in life.

Ms Chen would most likely function with greater personal effectiveness, both on-the-job and in other personal-career situations, if she would try to be aware of and work consciously to guard against the impact of:
-her tendency to sometimes overlook the need to give enough thought to herself or to take enough time for quiet, deep thinking about things that are important to her;
and in addition,
-taking on activities or assignments that involve ordinary, routine tasks without much creative thought or tasks that may not fully challenge Ms Chen's intelligene or curiosity.
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I should say that whoever managed to finish reading the whole chunk of words is as bored as me.
LOL!

Feel free to comment on the characteristics that could be true, or not.
Though I felt that it's RELATIVELY accurate.
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I am going to start on my holiday homework and study for econs when Monday starts.
Go school early, like eight or nine and do work.
Then afternoon go for training.

Life is so fulfilling!
At least I have something to do.
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I can't wait for Chinese A's to be over!
=D
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Pearlywurly!
Monkey says she wants gathering after Chinese papers.
But I doubt I can go la.
You ask her about it k?
Sorry.. =(

written at 17:09

Friday, October 27, 2006

I am going to:
1. Train like a mad dog
2. Study until the cows come home
3. Eat less
4. Sleep more
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1. Train like a mad dog

Jiao Lian said I improved today! WOOHOO~ All right that means I cannot slack. Focus focus.

I am all ready to fight until I drop dead. I'll be getting my own boots, gloves and long socks! How cool is that. But I don't know when they will arrive only.

Monday, Tuesday, Thursday in TK and Wednesday, Friday in VJ. Got to buck up! I love training in TK man. The atmosphere is so much better. No need to share field with other sports groups and got more balls! Hehe. Oh and the sec ones are so cute!! Oh my gosh, I really like them.
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2. Study until the cows come home

Should I change econs to geog? I know this sounds crazy but I really don't mind studying for geog. So what if I have to cramp one year's work into two months? I SERIOUSLY DON'T CARE.

But but but... Mama says h1 geog only 1/3 is physical. Kns!! Okay now I need some crucial thinking through..

Got GP and math homework. I am forever excited about math homework, but the problem now lies in whether I know how to solve the questions.

MSG..we do this together can..?
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3. Eat less

All right this is not part of my initial plan. It just happens that I don't have time?
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4. Sleep more

Yes I have to! If not more ugly pimples will appear.. ): (chey, since when are pimples are pretty?! yuck)
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I'm damn angry.
RAHH.
I wanna train until I can't think.

written at 21:07

Thursday, October 26, 2006

I feel so cheated today.
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My mom wanted to go Bedok Market Place eat brunch.
Blardy hell, we couldn't find the place.
It's NOT the hawker at the interchange there.
Where the fuck is it?!
I still don't know.
So we just settled on QiuLian BanMian and Hokkien Mee.

By the time we finished eating I knew I was gonna be late for training at TKGS.
Then I decided to take a cab down.
Me: Uncle, TKGS.
Uncle: Mana? Oh, where?
Me: Huh?
$5.60 gone.

When I reached TKGS there was no one in VJ pe shirt!
And hence I called:
1. Jia Ying, but she got OP workshop.
2. Mag, also got OP workshop.
3. Angie, ALSO at the workshop, with Clara
4. Diane, having subject combi meeting with her teachers.
5. Bi, on the bus to VJ cause Wee wanted to talk to her.
Now..I know why there was no one.

I should say that I was smart enough to go VJ and wait for the girls.
And I AM glad that I did so.
In the end only Diane and I went for training at..FOUR.
When it was supposed to be two?
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I'm dead beat.
I'm disintegrating slowly.
I'm T I R E D.
_____

I wanna go out with you!
MSG MSG..
There are SIX things waiting for us to be done:
1. My 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzle
2. Bake cookies
3. Read archie (actually I think this is for me only =/)
4. Watch La Bi Xiao Xin
5. Go Vivocity gaigai
6. Watch a proper movie together
We ARE doing one of the above next week okay?!
_____

Send me home!
=D

written at 21:04

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

OP workshop was a total gay shit.
They care about the way you present your slides only.
So to those who have yet to really complete your ppt, don't worry!

Wei Jin is good.
At 1046h.
Me: Eh what time you reaching school? Where are you now?
Him: I'm at home, around two lor.
Me: OP starts at eleven leh.
Him: HUH?! Okay okay I leave house now!
Moral of the story: OP workshop starts at ELEVEN.
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Training was fun!
The sec ones were so cute and friendly.
Jiao lian damn mean to them la keeps calling them stupid.
GRR.
So mean so mean so mean! ><
And in the end Coach treated him ice cream..
T_T (wth)

It poured suddenly, and a nice change of weather at that.
All of us were stunned when Neptune Court started raining and not at VJ.
So we just stared, and got amazed and went, WAHH..Cool sia..
And that was seriously being stupid.
Because the wind brought the peeing clouds over to the field and we had to scramble like eggs to pick up all the balls.
Fk la..then got wet.

Gym session was horrigibly horrigible.
Weight lifting gives me HUGE muscles =(
Really ugly ones too!

The two new girls are...imba.
IP kids jiu shi IP kids.
Sorry for generalisation by they are really imbally bitchy.
Complain and complain.
Don't join lor..
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Okay I've got a small stomach!
Hahaha.

=D

I love being cold.
=D

Fell asleep on the bus?
Missed your stop?
Decided to change to another bus?
=D
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Pearl you don't niao hor.
Hl you also lor.

Nat, =)
You know I know can alr.
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I am your first female best friend!
And you know Things.

written at 22:27

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

I FINALLY HAD MY SEMBAWANG ROTI PRATA!!

I was supposed to eat that heavenly prata on Sun morning!
But then it had to be postponed to today.

At least Mommy didn't break her promise.
It just got postponed..
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PW was crap.
Wei Jin, Si Rong and I met up to do fun stuff.
Hahahaha!
Nothing much related to what we have to do on Wednesday.

Si Rong mom rocks my tummy.
Everytime go his house sure got something to eat.
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All right, PUZZLE TIME!
I chionged home.
I chionged out of my house.
I chionged for the bus.
Damn tired because I slept for only FOUR fking hours.

Thank you Nat for sacrificing your extra bed to put the puzzle.
But please remember not to sleep on it!
If not I will...whack you dead =P
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I reached home late today so gotta settle dinner on my own.
And guess what?
I miraculously decided to cook my own meal!
Just normal fried rice la.
Chicken frank, colourful beans, cabbage and LOTS OF black sauce.
So my rice practically was a black mountain.
But I loved it..!
Yum yum X)
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Okay I'm sorry.
To everyone who thought I was a cambodian.
I hereby annonce that I am a TRUE BLUE Singaporean.
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Next time..
Another day..

All right patience.

written at 21:40

Monday, October 23, 2006

Retardedness
Madness
Craziness
Extremeness

That's me.
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Today is shopping day at Vivocity!!

FCUK shirts have really loud words.
I bought one which screams: POP BITCH =)

Fred Perry has damn pretty tops.
And expensive ones too.
What the hell la, one shirt costs $169?!
Go kick some ass I ain't that rich.

Moving on..(no t-shirts anymore!)
A blue top, which I don't know how to describe.
Behind is something like a criss cross, but not a criss cross? =/
It says 'Made from Cowboy Material' and it's very comfortable.
Tada, that's it!

Here comes the most shocking part of my shopping trip.
A..DRESS!
Okay, Mommy says (yeah yeah..) I should wear a greater variety of clothes instead of the few pieces of berms and tees.
This piece of cloth, is orange.
It looks more like a sundress to me.
Oh my gosh, what the fuck.
I can't imagine myself in it.
But hey! When I put it on I didn't look that bad k..
Since she felt that it was worth getting then so be it lor.

I LOVE THE BROWN SPAG TOP.
My first ever spag top that I promise I will tear till holes appear.
Don't laugh at me or I will poke you.
I think I look damn feminine la!
This is so freakin' not-me.
But who cares, people change and so do I! =D

Aldo wedges very comfy, but..$169?!
No way man..

Is this GAP the pioneer store in Singapore?
Because I've never seen it anywhere else, not even in town.
So I suppose I should be.
Got hold of a striped long sleeve top which my Mommy's sharing with me.
Followed by a(nother) brown leather belt to match my (sun)dress.
And a black belt for Rason cause his pants are dropping.

Total score: $444

Yay finally snack time at Cedele Bakery!
Organic Soya Milk (which tasted really HORRIGIBLE) for myself.
Double espresso for my Mommy.
Never ever order these two drinks.
The first is..weird.
The second, fills only HALF the coffe cup because it's supposed to be twice the concentration of the normal espresso.
Walao cheat my feelings one lor.
It's like you see the words' DOUBLE ESPRESSO'..and you think: wahh must be damn good la..DOUBLE LEH..
But NO!
Double does not mean it's better!
It simply means that it's bitter(er)..
Cock la.

Then..
Happy Time at PS.
=D

If only I could do the puzzle at your house!
____

MSG: Jasm, Eme, Pearl, Nat, Me
Here's our plan dudes:
1. Baking
2. Puzzling
3. La Bi Xiao Xin
4. Gossiping
All to be done at Nat's house, unless there is some other place.

People, set? =)

written at 01:31

Sunday, October 22, 2006

I think I read too much into my thoughts.
I think it was just one of those bad days.

My apologies to all who somehow got affected this crap.
_____

I'm exhausted.

Mentally
- PW

Socially
- Where have all the little movie and gossip sessions gone to?

Economically
- Bo lui liao (Is the bank nearby?)

Emotionally
- Isn't being exhausted a feeling? Crap.

Physically
- Try being ill from flu + cough + sorethroat

Intellectually
- Yes I am stupid, cannot is it? =D
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Tomorrow is a day worth looking forward to.
SHOPPING!! X)
With Mommy and her credit card and loadsa vouchers.
Hehehe.

I shall get a really cool puzzle and start fixing it until I'm done.
Like literally, no food no sleep.
The other time I saw this freaking retro Mickey one but it costs a damn hundred.
So I could only dream it, sigh.
_____

Justin is my eight year old cousin.
Jocelyn is his sister, six years old.

Just now in the car:
Justin: Uncle (my dad) only got one hand how to drive home?
Mom: Haha you see.. Uncle is a superwoman.
Jocelyn: HUH? SUPERWOMAN? HAHAHAHA!
Justin: (blur face) (starts laughing like some gay shit several seconds later)
Mom: Little boy, you're very slow you know?
Jocelyn: (points at him and goes) Ah ha ah ha.
Justin: (continues laughing like some gay shit)

Okay my Mommy said that on purpose -.-
No other intentions!

written at 21:23

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Eff and Blind.
_____

Emotions overwhelm me whenever I'm alone.
This is partly why I don't wanna go out.
Because after that on the way home, I'll go nuts in my own world.
_____

I went out with Wei Li and Yvonne to get Monkey's present.
_____

All I want to say to YOU is, Fuck.
Do YOU care?
Sometimes I think YOU are quite unreasonable and selfish.
Won't YOU just drop dead NOW?

Damn.
_____

What in the world have I done?
Who the hell cares about 'a speck a dust'?
Am I a creation or a sin?
_____

Thrust and Parry
Born and Dead

written at 22:58

Would it be better if I was invisible?
Then I'd be spared from the misery that I create.
Perhaps I am a devil behind the curtains, controlling the puppets on stage.
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Dear God,

Please don't let agony and angst manifest. It is fine if I had to shoulder them all alone. As long as everyone else around me is happy and freed from unhappiness, I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep them that way. If I could, I would invent a cure for Aids; if I could, I would stop premarital sex; if I could, I would ensure that all the children on this world had enough food to fill their bellies; if I could, I would give everybody a birthyday bash each year; if I could... I don't really give a damn about my birthday so why should others? If I could, I would erase me off their memory banks. I'd rather love than be loved. It's much easier that way. What if the tears that flowed from my eyes could drown all else but plain joy? I wouldn't mind. Really. I wonder, about how valleys and mountains are formed. Plate tectonics, did you say? I just wanted to find out. Nothing else matters if I had you, my Lord. Would you please embrace me in your warmth before The Sacrifice?

Love

written at 22:22

Walking past timeless in picking up roses
Why hadn't their thorns pricked deep into the naked paws

Engulfed in a shadowy mist
Unbreakable it seemed

Buried in a deep abyss where darkness roamed
The absence of complexity solace had seeked

Wrangled in a bloody crusade
Soldiers wrenched and withered

By dawn when the first light appeared
Perforated toy and victim both alike. Gone.

written at 22:04

Friday, October 20, 2006

Mrs Chan is leaving.
I'm neutral towards this piece of news.
No matter how witty or funny she says the new guy Principal is, I'll remain skeptical.

Today's farewell for her ended on a happier note rather than a sad one.
There was the choir, dance and band performance, and most importantly, the teachers'.
I must say that the teachers here are quite extraordinary.
How the hell do they find time to mark our papers and rehearse for the singing at the same time?
This shows why I'm here - to learn how to manage my time.

I think all these were done in a rush.
But overall, it was a job well done.

I loved the video created by InfoComm.
They are undoubtedly a talented lot.

I suppose I'll miss Mrs Chan, only for the half days and full days she gave.
Because that's all that I can remember of her.

I still miss Ms Susan Leong.
Sincerely, I hope that she's doing fine in AJ.
No matter what happens, she will still be the best Principal to me.

God bless.
_____

All righty!!
Class outing at Marina Square.
Yi Zha, Zhi Ren, Zi Zhao, Ying Hao, Nat, Rachel, Chia, Ginny, Shayne + sister, Koh Shing, Wen Xiu, Me.

Not really much of a class outing, I thought.

We went Carl's Jr for lunch and I was stunned.
By the portion of the burgers.
Seriously, I think what Nat ate could last me the entire full day, which was equivalent to my three meals.
It was FREAKIN' HUMONGOUS.

After which was Death Note.
I can't believe that I actually fell asleep half way through the movie!
It wasn't boring but it's just not my kinda flicks.
Oh well, exposure to genres I shall take it as.

Nothing special happened.
_____

Oliver is his name.
Gay is his surname.
Hello, Mr Oliver Gay =D
(I tagged you!)
_____

It tickles me to know how I get to know some people.
Hahaha, yes tickles.
Isn't it funny when you don't remember how you know them?
Friends or friends of friends?
HMM...
I know I love screaming HI to people most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder if I know them.

But there are special cases where I would rather pretend that I don't know some people, and pray that they don't see me.
I want an Invisible Cloth.
_____

My mom's spaghetti was..IMBA.
_____

I wanna bake cookies!
Let that be our first MSG activity =)

Emelin, I feel really bad leaving you out today =(
Please don't bite me.
Hahahaha.
_____

I feel deranged.

written at 20:26

Thursday, October 19, 2006

How many times must I repeat??

I AM A CAMBODIAN WHO LEARNS AND SPEAKS CHINESE.

Don't laugh hor.
Not funny lor.

written at 22:31

Yay I think today is the best day so far.
Break break (ponned chem lec) break break (no pe for me) break break math tutorial bio tutorial.
And the end of school.
How exciting..
_____

Muah chee sales not bad la.
I was just being skeptical.
Sorry Guo Jie!!
Everyone (I insist that it is everyone!) said that it was yummy! =D

$0.80 became $20.
Damn good feeling.
Sold four packets of the sai flour.
Although it isn't a lot but I must say that it was good enough.
I mean, look at the student population.

Thanks to all who contributed to the fund for building materials!
Good for those who bought from me because I gave extra + a lot.
Hahahahaha.
Thanks again!
_____

Almost had a muah chee fight again.
*Memories*
I wished we had, acutally.
_____

Chilled out with Ethel, Sam and Nat in the tree house until six pm.
Too bad our 'Gossip Reporter cum Channel' was busy.
Hohoho.

PLEASE DO NOT SPREAD TO ANYONE ABOUT WHAT I SAID.
Serious serious.
I still need my brain.
I still need my hair.
I still need my (not-so-small) eyes.
I still need my mouth.
I still need my ears.
I still need my nose.
Basically, I don't want my head to be chopped off la!
_____

Everyone is shunning someone.
Everyone is hoping that he will see that lucky someone.
_____

Oh my gosh.
My heart stopped beating when I called him.
That freaking monster.
I HAD NO FREAKIN' CHOICE!
Ethel, Sam and Nat understand.

Someone please go with me to see him tomorrow..
I'm really really SCARED.
_____

Today damn high and hyper for me ah.
GP results were better than expected.
I passed overall! X)

I've learnt that if you don't expect too much, you will be a happier person.
It's the over-achieving feeling that owns.
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The haze ain't getting better.
People, please do take care of your health!

My nose is killing me, and so is my throat.
Cough and sneeze and cough and sneeze.

Fuck la I wanna go for training de leh.
Somemore today's at TK.
But then I got MC until friday..
RAHH.
So means no training for me tomorrow also..
*drops head and sighs*

written at 20:51

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I feel really screwed without a schedule.
I must know what's coming up.
The emptiness of not knowing what to do kills me.

I hate doing things last minute.
I hate rushing against time.
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My white blood cells are waging a war against the viruses.
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Cough, pain.
Sneeze, pain.
Die, no more pain.

But I don't want to die.

I promise I will be a good girl.
I will eat my health supplements.
I will go for regular training sessions.
I will do my homework.
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But for now, I just feel like sleeping.

written at 22:01

How fucked up can today get?

First:
Forgot to bring glove for training

Second:
Flu + Cough + Sore throat
(blessing in disguise)

Third:
Slept through Math lec and the freaking OP crap
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Okay first.
It took me really long to realise that I didn't bring glove.

Digress a bit..
The three period GP lesson was cancelled because Ms Chia had to moderate our results.
That means serious shit.
I have no comments.
Got S for econs already so now I'm numb.
So during this break,
Emelin, Bird, Nav, Jasmine, Si Rong, Zhi Cong, Nat, Yi Zha, Me
Went to parkway to eat lunch!
And had a mini birthday celebration for Si Rong =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PW MATE!!!

Back on track..
So after that we came back school and had to go for chem tutorial.
And i went.. FUCK!!!! MY GLOVE!!!
Sigh.

That's when I decided to visit the doctor.
So that I have a reason to skip training and won't kena scolded by Jiao Lian and Coach.
Sounds stupid? (cause I am. WHATEVER LOR.)
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Next second.
Yes I am sick AGAIN.
I've got a really weak body and immune system.
A few late nights sleep and I crumble.
Why am I like that??
I hate falling sick.
I am allergic to pain killers.
It sucks big time and around the time.

Ding dong bell pussy in the well.

But no couldn't go see doctor after school cause must buy muah chee ingredients.
So went off with Guo Jie to serangoon central to get the necessary stuff.
After that chiong-ed off to Farrer Park to see Dr Ng.
I feel darn bad now la..
His clinic closes at 1645h (I think) but he waited until 1730h so that I can get my consultation.
Oops.

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Finally third.
Sleep is very important.
Because I got no sleep, that's why I got more pimples.
What the heck right.
Conclusion: I should sleep more.
That's it man.
THAT'S IT.

I'M GONNA SLEEP UNTIL THEY DISAPPEAR.

Which means my ass will grow flowers.
What colours you want?
Pick your orders.
They grow until very prettaye.
Cause got fresh fertilisers.
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I love MSG.
I don't how to say, not very good with words.
Thanks Emelin and Nat.

Where is our first outing...?
*waiting patiently*
No need movie la go out chill or eat or pool also can.
I'm fine with anything de.
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I don't know what I want in Life now.
God please help me.
):

written at 20:36

The Used - I'm A Fake

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife.
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Hold true to your promises.
If you said it, DO IT.

It is really disappointing when you tell me something, but after that you just apologise and pretend that nothing has happened.

That is a random thought.
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I don't want to do any R papers..
Spare me the agony of studying during the holidays please.
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How to get rid of pimples?
The one on my cheek is pissing me off real badly.

It's DESTROYING my prettaye face!

Hahahaha.

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Emo.
Deep in depressing thoughts.

written at 00:05

Monday, October 16, 2006

I didn't want to come home.
It's disappointing and depressing.

Knowing that my mom doesn't pressure me to do well makes me want to do REALLY well.
Ironic isn't it?

But I don't dare to tell her my grades.
For fear of disappointment.
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Tomorrow shall be the unspoken word.
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Shit la.
I cannot hide anything from my mommy one.
That's because I'm not private at all (stupid 16 PF)

written at 22:16

Have been feeling really crappy these few days.
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Daddy's arm got injured.
There's some crack in his bone somewhere I don't know where.
From his fall in Florida state.
Ouch.
So now he can't drive me to school until he recovers.
That is TWO bad things.
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Either I am stupid or I didn't work hard enough.
Or maybe it's both.

The results I get are quite shitty.
I don't believe that I did that badly, SERIOUSLY.
Sigh, what in the world has happened?!
I swear to God I studied and mugged.
But I just don't think that I deserved such grades.

Everyone is saying "aiya over already, don't think about it"
I think if you really don't think about it, you should just drop dead.
It's your life, YOUR RESULTS.
Don't you care about yourself?
Okay at least think about what went wrong so you can learn from it.
But not even thinking about it?
Fuck off man.
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I'm jealous of smart people.
Yet at the same time, I'm happy for them that they are smart.
And that they do well.
So the question is, should I feel sorry for myself for being stupid?

Some people don't have to study and can still score like mad.
Imba.

Some people study their arses off and still suck at everything.
I belong to this category.

How about you?
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My next point is..
My freakin' brother is really intelligent.
Like hello?
He can score 269 for school prelims la.
And the pissing thing is that I have never seen him study.
No books, nothing.
Just lying on the bed, SLEEPING.

But yeah, I am proud of him.
MY BROTHER =)

At the same time, why does he have a stupid sister?
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I canNOT stand people who smirk.
Got good grades then good for you la.
Need to "smile and grin" until the whole world knows meh.
Ugh.
You're such a bitch.

Disappear from my sight NOW!
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I'm worried for Nat and Juliana.
I want them to follow up.
But Juliana's case is kinda tough.
Sigh.
Want to console also don't know how.

Nat, please remember.
9-2=7
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MSG.
Nat, Emelin and Me.
=D

Glad that you guys have been there all the while!

written at 20:34

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I watched Softball match for the first time.
And it was at Coach's house.

Saw Jiao Lian in action playing for China.
1996 Game.
It was cool.
DAMNN COOL.
Lovely.
Elegant.
Everything was so right.

But the Game was not a fair one.
China vs USA.
Obviously biased towards the ang mohs la.

Great fun watching and playing with Coach's dog.
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Yesterday's Open House wasn't too bad.
But there was nothing special either.
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Give me a butcher knife.
I need to chop off my fats.
No, you can keep the chopping board.
Thanks for offering.
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My face is getting from bad to worse!
Everyday, I sleep less and less.
Everyday, pimples are getting more and more crowded.
Like, HELLO.
It's not a pasar malam where you can come and place your stall.
And wait for me to clear up the mess the next day.
Or the week after that.
Just don't visit me, PLEASE.
With cherry and ice cream on top.

written at 20:43

Friday, October 13, 2006

A tip to guys entering NS:
Drink red bull before you go for any SOC.
(Standard Obstacles Course right? Not very sure.)

Anyway that speaker bored me out totally.
Like wtf puke also must tell us in details meh?!

But the discussion was enriching I must say.
Cause it gave me time to sleep.
(:
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Tomorrow is VJ's Open House!
Starboard: Come to the Right Side.

Hope everything will run smoothly until you can see the oil droplets on the surface.
Understand?
No?
Neither do I.
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Bring me to a skin doctor!
Volcanoes are erupting on my visage
And that is NOT funny.
They create craters which are full of crap.
Cause they collect dust and become dirty and useless.
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HELLO =D

written at 22:31

BRAHH.
No entry yesterday because..
I WAS ACHING LIKE A MAD COW WHICH CAN'T STAND PROPERLY.
Oops.
Yes that is very bad.
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Today's farewell assembly was funny.
Kinda glad that I made it on time!
Even though I slept until..0655h?
Hahaha damn worn out la.

I loved the teachers' performance.
House comm was OKAY.
And OKAY was an overstatement.
The rest was..not too bad I guess.
Not boring jiu hao le.
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Canadian pizza sucks.
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CIC - the Place to be.
Very funny meh?

Folded LOTS of hearts using straws.
Therefore my fingers are hurting.
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ETHEL IS PRETTAYE!
(adapted from a little boy)

written at 21:22

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

I think I'm quite insane.
Early in the morning rushed down to Chinatown to buy dessert.
And all this is done within 45 minutes.
Rushed like some mad cow la.
But it was great fun buying food back for my family.
(:
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Training today was horrendous.
After a month's break my body was totally like shit.
So.. Tiredness sums all up.
I think I sprained my right forefinger.
OUCH.
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Jia Ying says I've got a hard ass!
Wheeyouweet.
HAHAHA.
That's cause she suddenly groped my pigu.
And she screamed:
"OMG REGINA YOUR ASS DAMN HARD!"
"MAG! TOUCH TOUCH! IT'S REALLY HARD!'
=/
A lot of passers-by stared at us.
As usual!!
LOL.

written at 22:04

My two-cents worth on not eating and drinking for seventy-two hours:

It makes me realise how fortunate we are (REALLY).
For us, food is a necessity.
But for those in the developing countries, food is bliss.
Take the Africans for example (as usual).
They don't have enough food to last them a lifetime.
Yet here we are, wasting food like no one's business.
I know it's true that even if we throw away food here, they can't eat it there.
However, NOW it aches to think how those little children are suffering.
Malnutrition and all sorts of food related illnesses.

Therefore I hope that everyone will do his part and try not to waste food.
It is really heart-breaking.
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Anyway!
It's time for me to break fast soon!
YAYYY!

I fking hell couldn't sleep at all for the past two nights.
My stomach was darn noisy.
My body was emitted too much heat that the air con couldn't keep me warm enough.
All I could think of was FOOD.
Like seriously.
What can you think of when you're damn ravenous?

So right now.
I have COLD tang shui and COLD pear waiting for me to DEVOURR!!
HAHAHA.
I'm feeling evil.
Wheeyouweet.
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WAS: 53cm
IS: 50cm

WAS: 25inches
IS: 24inches (still)

WAS: 49.5kg
IS: 45.6kg

Height still no diff.
(DAMN...)
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Thank you Mama for the Hongkee wife's cake!
And the wellie cute Forever Friends keychain!
Hehehe.
Can't bear to use it.
I think I'll just hang it somewhere in my room (:

written at 07:28

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Yay!
Down to the last lap.

Nineteen and a half more hours to go.
I've been resisting quite well the past few days.
I won't crumble.
God bless Me.
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WAS: 53cm
IS: 51cm

WAS: 25inches
IS: 24inches

WAS: 49.5kg
IS: ??

Okay I don't think I have to comment on my height.
Hahahaha.
NO DIFF LA! =P
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I didn't sleep well last night.
Must be my grumbling stomach.
Boo..!
Slept and woke up.
Repeated the procedure a lot of times.
Jin tian hui geng hao!
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Wednesday schedule:
No more drumming )':
Morning must discuss Treat for winning Champs for Nat'ls.
Afternoon got training from 1400 to 1900 in VJ.
1900 is the latest.

Thursday schedule:
No more shopping )'':
Morning got YEP briefing at 1030 in concourse
Afternoon got training from 1400 to 1830 in TK.
1830 is the latest.

There goes my holidays.

written at 12:05

Monday, October 09, 2006

I woke up with a blardy headache.
Almost tumbled when I stood up.
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I want to fix jigsaw puzzles..
But Sind had choir until 1600h.
So basically I really have to stay at home today and tomorrow.
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Thirty eight more hours to go.
I can do it.
I will do it.
With my Mind, Body and Soul.
God bless Me.
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Wednesday.
May have training.
I hope it'll be in the morning.
Then afternoon can go chill.
After which, head down to Chinatown just to eat that mango pomello thing.
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Thursday.
Eff PW.
Monday and Tuesday got class chalet.
So, group can't make it.
Wednesday is for them to rest from all the rest(fun) they had.
How ironic.
But I'm supposed to go shopping with my mom!

Oh, you ask why I didn't go chalet?
Haha, is my reply.
I have no class.

written at 17:36

Sunday, October 08, 2006

There are some people whom I really don't understand.
They are just weird.
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My interpretation:

Achieving what you want
But there are certain obstacles that hinder your progress
Some of them actually hurt you
Nonetheless you're willing to sacrifice whatever it takes

written at 21:18

Whoohoo!
I'm damn proud of myself!
An IT idiot actually managed to change the template and everything without much help.
SATISFACTION.
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Seventy-two hours.
Sunday 8oct 0733 to Wednesday 11oct 0733.
I will survive.
God bless Me.
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DVD marathon!
Just the few of us.
I don't mind if it's just the Eight people.
Joleyn WeiLi PingSiew Crystal Yvonne SiHua Pearl Regina.

I miss ShuYan.
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By Jude Pink:

Plucking flowers in my dreams
The sight obstructed by thick mist
Fingers pricked by thorns so cold,
As my blood give life to the pale rose

written at 18:05