Saturday, October 21, 2006
Would it be better if I was invisible?Then I'd be spared from the misery that I create.Perhaps I am a devil behind the curtains, controlling the puppets on stage._____Dear God,Please don't let agony and angst manifest. It is fine if I had to shoulder them all alone. As long as everyone else around me is happy and freed from unhappiness, I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep them that way. If I could, I would invent a cure for Aids; if I could, I would stop premarital sex; if I could, I would ensure that all the children on this world had enough food to fill their bellies; if I could, I would give everybody a birthyday bash each year; if I could... I don't really give a damn about my birthday so why should others? If I could, I would erase me off their memory banks. I'd rather love than be loved. It's much easier that way. What if the tears that flowed from my eyes could drown all else but plain joy? I wouldn't mind. Really. I wonder, about how valleys and mountains are formed. Plate tectonics, did you say? I just wanted to find out. Nothing else matters if I had you, my Lord. Would you please embrace me in your warmth before The Sacrifice? Love
written at 22:22
