Saturday, November 11, 2006
Suddenly._____I don't feel like blogging anymore.Perhaps there are too many things that I wanna scream out.Or simply because I've become a vacuous being._____How dumb can I get?To leave my lappie and gpf in the blardy locker yesterday!If I had lost my lappie, my dad would kill me.If I had lost my gpf, my group mates would kill me.What a glamorous way to die._____Try ice kacang without the kacang.Change the kacang to longan, diced honeydew and jelly, atap seed..and I forgot what else.. (HMM)Imba =)_____Oral presentation was the worst nightmare I've had so far.(Much worse than having chased and eaten up by dinosaurs)Why was my group's co-ordination so poor?Why didn't ngai understand what I typed?Why did my mind blank out?Why couldn't I focus?WHY?!The examiners were quite impressed by Yuzhao's answer.This is so freaking unfair!Just because she's from China he's from some alien country I bet he thinks that she's so cute and he wants to rape her.BOO YOU LOUSY ANG MOH!The questions they asked were rather unexpected but still answerable I guess.I can't really remember what mine were but I just conjured some crap on the spot.OH WELL.I wouldn't know whose fault it is if I've done badly.And that sucks._____It hurts to know that the world is a complicated thing.I cannot really stop my thoughts from flowing when I'm alone.For the past three days since having to go home alone after training I've been thinking what I've done with my life so far.There isn't nothing for me to be proud of.Or should I say I should be ashamed of myself.I can't wait to vanish from the face of this planet and yet I'm afraid.One day,I can and I will._____Why are there ambiguities?Wouldn't it be great if everything was simply black or white?The grey areas never fail to haze your mind and you wonder,What am I doing here? Why am I here?_____Got to draw out my plans carefully.No time to waste; no time to lose.It is hard not to think about you.
written at 15:20
