Sunday, November 12, 2006
WHY AM I ACTING AND THINKING WEIRDLY?I have no idea what's coming over me recently but I have been feeling quite down and out and under. Someone please tell me what's wrong with me.WHY DON'T I HAVE ENOUGH TIME?I have so many things to do and yet so little time. Maybe not a lot, but I think there is a handful. There is a serious need to study for econs R paper because I really suck at it and couldn't be bothered to mug for promos. I'm a fucking loser la. I'm glad Nat has R papers too so we can study together! Hahaha. To those who've done well, congratulations and please step aside and screw yourself. Call that jealousy or idiocy. I don't fucking care. Leave.Me.Alone. I have to pack my luggage too. Guess I'll do that on that very day when I'm leaving. I'm glad that Tim is coming with us this time! YAY *hugs you* I must do my holiday homework as well. Maybe I should bring my homework file along with me everywhere I go. WHY DO I KEEP THINKING BACK?I get really depressed when my thoughts rewind on their own. Because I never seem to think about happy stuff. A few days back on the way home I was wondering, If God existed why doesn't he appear? Can God be a SHE? What if one day God talked to me in my dreams? I'm forever dwelling in my failures. WAKE UP, REGINA! I should learn to grow up faster. *points at my reflection and scoffs at myself*WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO INSENSITIVE?I just hope, sincerely, that I am understood at times. It is easier to love than to be loved. But the feeling of being loved outweighs that of loving others. WHY AM I SO IRRITATING?I know my mood swings are quite extreme. That is a warning. Talk to me at your own risk.WHY IS MY GROUP SO USELESS?I think it's because me. If only PW was an individual work. I wouldn't have to worry about letting my group down. I don't want to fail. I really really don't. But I know that I most probably have. L is for Lol, Loser!WHY ISN'T CHRISTMAS COMING?I love giving out presents, as much as I love receiving them. But I know for sure that the latter will not happen. Mama will you please bring me with you..? =) Do I smell a party brewing? *tip toes and peep around*WHY DO I DISLIKE MY OWN BIRTHDAY?I have absolutely no idea why. I've never wanted to wake up on that day but there is no choice. I thank God for bringing me here but I wish I wasn't right here, right now.WHY DOES EVERYONE CALL ME REG?It's the worst name. To those who didn't know that I hate this name, now you do. So please! Stop calling me that. I'd rather ZhiRong, seriously no joke. I don't think I've ranted enough but I'm tired already. I never knew some people realise that I started hiding messages. Hello Nat =D
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