One week of holidays has passed. I've always hated vacation because it is an absolute waste of time. Procrastination. Done naught. All I have in me is, Fear. It's really far too soon for A's to be here. I don't want to grow up. So what if I can buy alcohol and smoke? The amount of liberation scares me. I wanna do well for CT2. But I'm still confused as to what I'm gonna study after A's. I wonder. Who taught us that a sky blue tank top doesn't go well with a canary yellow skirt? Why do we have to dress to suit the society's eyes? Who set the rules of wear? Why can't formal be slippers with tuxedo suit? What if one day, President Bush wore singlet and pants and made a speech to the world, saying that war would stop, there would be no more fighting no more killing of innocent people? What do you think your reaction would be?Sometimes it feels good to be ignored; to be able to indulge in your own world of loves; to really feel happy doing what you want to do. Maybe it's a sign of escapism. But I beg to differ. It gives great pleasure to accomplish something that you really wanna do, yet you were afraid of because you were too concerned with what people think of you. Why do you bother? Are we being cornered to such an extent that we do what we do because others expect us to do it? It would be terribly sad. Think.It's hard to control what your mind thinks. Don't you reckon?
It's even harder when you can't stop it from thinking back.
On a lighter note, seven and a half years is a long time. This year is the seventh year of our Bazhang Exchange Programme. CAN'T WAIT! X)
To all those who have stood by me till now, thank you guys. Love all of you out there =)
Phil Collins - Against All Odds (Take A Look At Me Now)
How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face
I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you, is all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take
Take a look at me now
written at 12:00
