Tuesday, January 20, 2009
recently i started having superbly mixed emotions, damn high and damn low. one moment i was crazy and smiling and saying hi to everyone but later i'd be really sian and start feeling insecure. it's just damn weird. i wished i had an explanation.anyways, i cant wait to see my primary school pals again! i've been thinking, and thinking, and thinking of meeting up but there was this lazy thought in my head that went, 'oh dont bother someone will do something'. yeah right, fat hope. and so i realised that if you dont take any initiative in life and do what you wanna, no one's gonna lead you on. people will just stand by and watch, and see you fall. simple as that. school hasn't been too bad..i guess. except for wednesdays which are my full days. i love nicole for her attentiveness in classes! omg, notes notes notes! hahaha. forever copying from her. i havent eaten dinner with ethel for quite a long time.. ): she said she want to eat with me but until now still havent jio. ETHEL YOU SUCK. hahaha. but i know you're busy la, so it's okay! sure got chance (: lol.
emelin's back in minn.. i miss her loads loads loads. how can her presence ever be enough?! haha that gila girl. i'm so sorry i didnt manage to see you over the weekends before you flew. but i'm glad i saw you more than once!! =D i even travelled all the way from pulau boonlay to your house can. you should feel so honoured. heh. it's really nice to see you again (: no joke la you pangsai. hahaha. cant wait for school term to be over then we can go out and play!
chinese new year's coming and i'm not feeling exactly excited about it? too soon, too bad. no fun. yucks. TOO FEW HOLIDAYS! mon and tues are definitely not enough. i want more clothes too, but no more tees for me. i want the gai-gai kinda clothes, aiya i dont know how to say cause there are so many types. haha. and i love mama mandy. she's still the best inspiration. EVER.
written at 18:34
